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anyway...being that i live in south carolina, there is not much to do for fun around here but mudding or hanging out at wal-mart... or scaring the locals.. which is always rather fun... other than that.. things are pretty slow..actually i found another vampireraver from my own town... she is mistressnightshade... i positively love hanging out with her.. especially when we stalk dirty old men in wheel chairs at 1am...hehe...*evil grins*...Kat your awesome!!!!!!
*UPDATE* time to update.. its much more fun to spend the night splashing though public fountains with Kat as opposed to chasing little old men in wheel chairs... esp when there are ducks in the fountains and stupid people gawking at us >:D

a new update.... i have just taken up drawing manga... which is turning out to be very awesome....also... in writing....i am working 3 different books... coming to a close in the first one i started...which has been a long time coming.. but.. im really happy with my results

okie.. for a newer update hehe.. im giving fair warning to those who read my journal.. its not exactly all sane.... but rather the ramblings of my mind... but it works for me and thats what counts... hmm..oh.. and just for the record... vodka tainted bananas can be very dangerous... and thats all im saying :)

hmm.. ok, now for a newer update.. i recently started putting the lyrics to some of my favorite songs under the stories section in my journal. starting out, i see most of them are from labyrinth.. but those who have seen it... know what a great movie it is ;p

hmm.. and something else a friend brought to my attention, i appreciate the sweet comments that are left in the blog, but really... if you don't like the way i have done something on my profile... it really doesn't concern you :) just as it would be dull if everyone was the same person.. it would be dull if every profile was the same ...don't leave a message saying what you would do different please... your not me :) im not you... individuality is ok :) thankyou

some of the bands that i like are rasmus, orgy, dope, cradle of filth, clinical torment, mAUDLIN rHAPSODIST, deadstar assembly, bloody mary, mindless self indulgence, murderdolls, bile, 40 below summer, 36 crazy fists, opeth, type o negative, children of bodem, HIM, eve 6, element a440, hot action cops, rammstein, crazytown, NIN, godhead, tommy lee, rob zombie, david bowie, demon hunter, mushroomhead, blut engel, london after midnight, blood, malice mizer, dir en grey, alice nine and dimmu borgir.... although these are only just a few...and.... as a side note.. i actually do like listening to sappy love songs every now and then...so heh.. blah for you if you find it annoying

If your into dark, kind of techno music, check out the bottem link above. It's to a friend who made great music during his time here. Miss him very much. RIP Chad…


Here are some lyrics form one of my favorite bands mAUDLIN rHAPSODIST

Killing Me

Never stop to question
Never stop to think of me
Poison me with envy
Let me down until I'm broken
consequence is nothing
take your drugs and fuck the world
empty bottle shattered
cut myself when I keep falling

I love you but you're killing me with the things you do
when it tears me open
I love you but you're killing me
I don't know if I can take this anymore, I can't take it again


Are you too high too stoned
too fucked in the head to talk to me talk to me
let's work it out
talk to me talk to me
Are you too high too stoned
too fucked in the head to talk to me talk to me
let's work it out
talk to me talk to me

Morals are for christians
knowing from right and wrong
hurt me like it's nothing
I don't feel it anyway
taking love for granted
use me up until I'm gone
break your little promise
throw away my trust in you

I love you but you're killing me with the things you do
when it tears me open
I love you but you're killing me
I don't know if I can take this anymore, I can't take it again


Are you too high too stoned
too fucked in the head to talk to me talk to me
let's work it out
talk to me talk to me
Are you too high too stoned
too fucked in the head to talk to me talk to me
let's work it out
talk to me talk to me

I love you but you're killing me with the things you do
when it tears me open
I love you but you're killing me
I don't know if I can take this anymore, I can't take it again

Are you too high too stoned
too fucked in the head to talk to me talk to me
let's work it out
talk to me talk to me
Are you too high too stoned
too fucked in the head to talk to me talk to me
let's work it out
talk to me talk to me

Monochrome

theres ghost up in the attic with a rose in his hands
and it glows with the darkest of *fashions*
hes in his "sunday best" and his silver top hat
and he waits up on the edge of forever

lilith, lithith
he cries but he knows that nobody can hear him
lilith, lithith
deep down he knows that he cant go back

lusid dreams of might-have-beens
monochrome oblivion
overwelming emptiness
as bitter's truth sinks in

inside, inside
it hurts so much
inside, inside
still longing for her touch
inside, inside
inside it hurts so much
inside, inside
still longing for her touch

theres a girl in the graveyard with a tear in her eye
and she weeps for the death of a lover
shes in a long black dress and an old crown of thorns
and shes drowning herself in sorrow

jonny, jonny
she whispers to wind as it silently chokes her
jonny, jonny
she whispers but she knows that hes not coming back

lusid dreams of might-have-beens
monochrome oblivion
overwelming emptiness
as bitter truth sinks in

inside, inside
it hurts so much
inside, inside
still longing for her touch
inside, inside
inside it hurts so much
inside, inside
still longing for her touch

lusid dreams of might-have-beens
monochrome oblivion
overwelming emptiness
as bitter truth sinks in



oh yes... if you wish to contact me outside of the rave... here is my contact info:

yahoo sn: midnightkitten172001