je mappel peganbabe92. je est tre petit, est tre entelegente. je parl angle, espan,est le lange a la mange.
and incase u dnt know french my name is pagenbabe92. im very small, at a whopping 5'2.5", im intellegent. i speak english, and know american sign language, and spanish(along wit some french,my gramer needs improvement) im a bookworm and i love to tlk on the fone. im 18 and live in that one city in that one state. lol. so if u wanna tlk more message me... :)
(i will constantly update my profile)
im pegan polythieistic. i worship the ancient greek gods, mostly my main two signs Hedes, and Aries. gods of War and Underworld. my heart runs with the ever beautiful moon mother, at which i practice my light healing spells and replenish under the full moon wen she is at her peak. being only 18 i am chastized for my religous practices. but under my thought, who are they to tell me otherwise? while most are forced to belive the word of one who stands and tells them that they are wrong to believe in more than the one lord? i merely respect what they have to tell me, but refuse to change for anyone. i am also bisexual. and in a relationship. i love my forbidden and wen i take a picture worthy enough i will post some of me and my younger sister, to whom is also pegan and teased at our highschool. me being new to the area i will quickly change that. im very protective of the ones who can't fight for themselves. my younger sister has it hard. she is blind in one eye. so u should understand my reason for wanting to change how people view her. but as for now i must wait till jan.3rd to do anything.
some things that im into are....
Reading(as stated in paragraph 1)
Dancing
Talking on the fone(also stated in paragraph 1)
Singing
And wanting to improve my spells ever so slightly.
most music im into is anything really i have no main preferance, but if i listen to any rock i listing to Metallica, or SlipKnot.
my personality is like a mood ring, a mix of many colors. im really quite understanding, and can find the deeper meaning of mostly anything. but im also used to being a counciler. so if anyone needs someone to tlk to im here and will not spill anything but will check on u every now and thennto ask how ur doing...
life is something i dont understand as one of my current friends state "life changes to quick or you to try to conrol it" and that is why i take life in strides. and let it let me make my mark on history. but if ud lke to know more u can message me anytime. :)
but for now i bid u farewell.
just a little note. if you add me as a friend or add my journal to your favorites please let me know so i may do the same...thank you and may the darkness protect those to whom you care for most...
*slight update*
happy holidays to all and my your new year go even better.
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ok ppl. here is the drift. i just realized that soon my mom might get a VR account. and she is ubber cool, and slightly dorky. i dnt kno wen she will make hers but i will let yall kno soon enough. no i dont find it weird that my mom wants a VR frankly i find it cool. but hey she young. she 34. so im all good to have her not only as my mom but as a very good friend of mine. shes married. so guys. lay off. thanx. and untill next time..
hey guys. sorry but internet is down at the house. only have a few. but i will get back to all who have rated me. thanx.
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so yeah. just started at this new skool....and i feel like an outcast!!!! ugh!! i dnt kno anyone and so yeh. the only ppl i tlk too are the ppl i need to tlk to, to get thru my day. and thats it. but i mean hey. why not ya kno? who needs to kno ppl that could just backstab you? i realy dont wanna kno anyoe anyways. i do better alone. but being to myself im known as the skool freak cuz i dnt tlk....well till next time.
*yet again another update*
well... im 18 as it says in the begining. and in a few weeks i find out if i might have a baby on the way!!! im not only excited but scared. im hoping for a boy but inmy family females rule!! literally...in all the kids in my generation there is one boy so yeah...well wish me luck and i will keep all posted!!!
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ya kno...id like to just let everyone kno...if for any reason i am not on in the next couple of days/weeks i am helping the family of one of my new friends deal with that she had commited suicide yesterday morning...and anyone who thinks poorly of the act can go to a different page....thank you and have a nice night....
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i was just at the doctor. my mom is no longer in denial....she now has verification that im pregnant...as if me throwing up every ten minutes wast proof enough.........well there are only so many signs before someone gets the picture....but there is only so much someone can do.....
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where has time gone??? already im a week away from being 6 months!! but the months will pass just like before. :) and soon my baby will be apart of this new world. CAN'T WAIT!!!!!!!
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can anyone help me? i've been slapped with the true colors of who my supposed "family" truly is. constantly getting calls, saying that i should give up my baby, telling me that i should just leave it some where. or even, why didnt i just get an abortion. but i dont see why my "family" is telling me these things. i mean im 18 and it shouldn't bother me since i live no where near them. but i mean it does hurt being told your not going to ba a good mom, and that im pretty much worthless. any advice? message me if you have any. thanx.
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So 8-14-11...OFFICIALLY the scariest day of my life. as my profile above states. im pregnant. and will be 32 weeks this friday. but the worst thing that could've happened. i went into pre term labor. and well i was worried we wouldnt be able to stop the contractions in time. but thank the goddess we did. and not its a waiting game to make sure i can carry if not to full term than atleast for another 2 weeks. wish me luck everyone.
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39 weeks this friday. and well. already had to be admitted to the hospital 3 times. so scared something might happen. but only time will tell. less than two weeks to go. will post pics as soon as i can. i know ive said that alot but its the truth.
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as of 5:34a.m...oct.17, 2011 im the proud mother of a healthy baby girl!! her loving name is Luna Mar-y-Sol Mier! and we are now home! :)
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So....is it fair not to care if the father of my daughter left us at the hospital right before she was born? and not be back since? and then getting a text from his sister telling me that we (me and him) were over bc he had another girl? but for me to just laugh and say ok and move on with my life and with our daughter in tow. should i find him for her? or just let her live without him??? open to advice.
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hey guys and gals...if i seem quiet..or non responsive to yall. im sorry but i just got news that one of mine and ShesMyGoddess' dear friends passed away this morning....so yeah. RIP John....
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ive realized one thing. im blessed to have such an understanding mother, beautiful daughter, and 2 loving younger sisters. the support from all of my friends,and in return i give my support to each of them fully. :) i love the life ive been handed. and now thinking back on every mistake ive ever made im glad i did. simply because if i didnt i wouldnt be the young lady i am today. :)
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im updating to let everyone know...that i was just shaken so badly i might not be on for a while. and letting people know i have NEVER been married. engaged yes. but married no. idky this person said i used to have a husband but i didnt appreticate it.....
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been a while since ive been on here. sorry about that guys. got a job as a cashier. :) so ive been working. thinking about going back to my home state. and yet at the same time if i do the i have nowhere to go. soooo. yeah. but hey. if theres anyone who wants to talk feel free to message me and i will get back as soon as i can. :) thanks for stopping by.
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So where do I begin.. its been a hella long time since I last logged in. But that's ok. And I know this is where I describe myself but what better way than do it in blog form. Lol anyways my daughter is getting so big she will be 3 in october and its hard to believe that I feel much much older than I am. Lol bye bye thatnks for glancing at my page.
