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Fuck the world, make it your own. Make the people wholooks down on you pay.
Well when I was born my tissue in my left leg wasn't grown properly, so I'm half crippled in my left leg. I'm half crippled because there is a medication I take for my knee and upper thigh to move a little.~ When I was four I was rapped by my cousin, with a wooden spoon.~ Soon after my dad had died of cancer and so I had to repeat kindergarten because I had a mental breakdown of the incident.~ Three years ago I was diagnosed with bipolar, and the first year we couldn't afford the medication and it was hard for me to go through life, and I wish I could go back and fix what I did, but i couldn't help myself. I had tried to commit suicide.~ Four years ago I was diagnosed with a nightmare disorder. Which the doctors say I'm one of the worst patient to ever have this disorder. Because they are so vivid and real I wake up sometimes to the things that happened to me. It was so bad one night that I went into a coma for a week.~ I was shot in the back a year ago and so I have to take medication for that because the nerve never healed right. And when I was on the ground dying slowly my brother committed suicide infront of me. Because he thought it was his fault.~ My step dad had abused my little sister and my baby brother. And had sexually harassed me. I was scared to death that he was going to rape me. But I'm glad he has left us because he can never hurt us again. Even though he left on Christmas day,and took all the money I'm just glad my family is safe.~ My mom is an alcoholic, so a lot of the time I'm the mother of the house.~ I get bullied at school for just being me, for wearing what I like. They know I'm stronger then them but they also know my weakness. And most of the time they use it against me and that's how they hurt me so bad. One time I had two broken ribs and a black eye.-I love to hear the rain dripping down my window, and the thunder just banging at the door.* Skateboarding is one of the things that make me feel like I'm on a cloud.* When I watch movies I love to watch horror and scary movies, just to see the blood and hear the screams.* The taste of blood is what I want the most.* When my emotions take over I love to paint them.* I draw weird creepy things.* I love to play video games that has blood in them amd the killings that I've thrive on.* I write horror books and poetry.* I love to read poetry and horror books, also romance.* I play the cello, the violin, the viola, the piano and the bass guitar.
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