Hello, My name is Jacob Wall, my Vampire name is Sigan. I was awakened 3 years ago so I am still new to my nature. However I am managing. Curently I am going to school In Santa Monica.
I joined this site in hopes of findig a community that will be able to help me with my new lifestyle. I live by the code of honer from which flows respect for everyone including donors. Even though my strongest urges for blood is somewhat under control I find it dificult to control my emotions at times. I am hoping for someone to come forward with advice to help me. My current situation prevents me from being able to find a willing donor. And I refuse to give away our secrecy as a society as a whole. So I am stuck with medium rare steaks and any form of blood that is present on it. Like always it helps but does not completly take away the urge for more bood.
When my awakening period began 3 years ago I had to go through the whole thing by myself with no help. The one thing that I wanted most was for someone to tell me that everything was going to be alright. I began to feel angry all the time at the world, at times I wanted to go on a rampage for some strange reason. I would feel this anger whenever I was around a large group of people. One day while I was working I nicked mself in the hand by accident. Without realizing what I was doing I imediately begane to suck at the wound. That is when I realized that I was different.
I began researching for answers. I then I came across several vampire sites. As time past I began realizing that I was a vampire. At first I didnt want to believe it, I told my self I was just imagining it, but I wasnt imagining it, I was a Vampire. As I sit writing this I am still scared a little bit about my nature. I dont now when the urge for blood will strike and if it does I dont know how I will react. However the most important thing is that I have excepted who I am and even though I have these urges for blood I know I can control myself it just takes a strong will which at the moment is somewhat a little weak, hence I feel angry. I know however with help and guidence and perseverance I will be able to completly control my nature.
Your result for Awakening the Hero Within: Hero Archetype Test...
You are the Creator!
38% Innocent, 42% Orphan, 69% Warrior, 61% Caregiver, 80% Seeker, 51% Lover, 56% Destroyer, 87% Creator, 56% Magician, 45% Ruler, 71% Sage and 76% Fool!
Goal: Identity
Fear: Inauthenticity
Response to Dragon/Problem: Claim it as part of the self
Task: self-creation, self-acceptance
Gift: Individuality, vocation
Addictions: Work, creativity
The Creator is the center of improvement, always striving to create and better her/his surroundings. The Soul is the center of the Creator’s dance, and it seeks to find a deeper sense of self and wisdom even at the price of the Ego’s functions of keeping us healthy and functioning. The Soul is the source of our freewill, and the healthy creator can tap into the potential, creating circumstances while others feel acted upon by her/his actions.
The Creator is driven to be authentic despite the costs. Creators are threatening to Warriors and Seekers, who are very concerned with how things are ‘supposed’ to be.
Shadow Creator:
The Shadow creator creates without any sense of responsibility for what s/he is making. The Shadow Creator often will deny his/her responsibility in events. Most often, the Creator is shunned by the community, and a Shadow Creator seeks to create to disturb the community from which s/he is shunned. If a creation comes out badly, a Shadow Creator will blame circumstances.
You are the Hanged Man
Self-sacrifice, Sacrifice, Devotion, Bound.
With the Hanged man there is often a sense of fatalism, waiting for something to happen. Or a fear of
loss from a situation, rather than gain.
The Hanged Man is perhaps the most fascinating card in the deck. It reflects the story of Odin who offered himself as a sacrifice in order to gain knowledge. Hanging from the world tree, wounded by a spear, given no bread or mead, he hung for nine days. On the last day, he saw on the ground runes that had fallen from the tree, understood their meaning, and, coming down, scooped them up for his own. All knowledge is to be found in these runes.
The Hanged Man, in similar fashion, is a card about suspension, not life or death. It signifies selflessness, sacrifice and prophecy. You make yourself vulnerable and in doing so, gain illumination. You see the world differently, with almost mystical insights.
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