Religion..well,i am a christian,thou i am not a true beliver..sometimes,i'd like2think that there is one above us all that takes care of us and repays our good deeds,but i oftenly come2the conclusion that there is no one watching over us...its just us,hopin4a greater force that might help us when in need..its not fair2call urself a religious beliver just cause u have the selfish wish2be helped..is it?
Thou i am not a religious beliver,i do think that one is not entitled2take one's life..u simply cannot fuck'round with things that r not in ur power2create or give..
As i c it,ive done many stupid things along my way...ive hurt some of the ones that luved me just cause i refused2belive in the existence of feelings..u c,somewhere in the depth of my mind,rullz the idea that feelings make u weack,powerless and easy2be defetead..sometimes i do belive that runnin away from what u feel is more of cowardness than havin them feelings..but that would be just some times...:)
I'd like2appologise4many stupid things i've done,but im2much of a coward i guess..i just fade away with a sad look on my face whenever i do smtg wrong..i sortof slip away if u dont pay enough attention,i guess..
I luv wild creatures...i guess an animal would be one2...:D...4real now,luv cats and all other felines.smooth killers...:)
LEONARD COHEN LYRICS
Here It Is
Here is your crown
And your seal and rings;
And here is your love
For all things.
Here is your cart,
And your cardboard and piss;
And here is your love
For all of this.
May everyone live,
And may everyone die.
Hello, my love,
And my love, Goodbye.
Here is your wine,
And your drunken fall;
And here is your love.
Your love for it all.
Here is your sickness.
Your bed and your pan;
And here is your love
For the woman, the man.
May everyone live,
And may everyone die.
Hello, my love,
And, my love, Goodbye.
And here is the night,
The night has begun;
And here is your death
In the heart of your son.
And here is the dawn,
(Until death do us part);
And here is your death,
In your daughter’s heart.
May everyone live,
And may everyone die.
Hello, my love,
And, my love, Goodbye.
And here you are hurried,
And here you are gone;
And here is the love,
That it’s all built upon.
Here is your cross,
Your nails and your hill;
And here is your love,
That lists where it will
May everyone live,
And may everyone die.
Hello, my love,
And my love, Goodbye.
Countless sleepless nights i had..bad memories,nightmears..then came insomnia..used2stear at the sealin4houres,imagine what shadowes'd mean and replay moments of my amuzin life..torture is so tasty once u get the hang of it..
Quote:"Nothing begins, and nothing ends,
That is not paid with moan;
For we are born in others pain
And perish in our own."
Author:Francis Thompson
Chris Rea
And you my love
I do not sleep tonight
I may not ever
The sins of the past have come
See how they sit down together
Outside my window
Outside my door
And I know the reason what they’ve all come here for
You my love
My sweet, sweet love
Are what it’s all because of
Surrender is easy
I know you do me no harm
But your innocence haunts me
The most fatal of charms
Oh I must have done some wrong
On a dark and distant day
For I know full and well tonight
This is how that I must pay
And you my love
My sweet, sweet love
Are what it’s all because of
You my love
My sweet, sweet love
Are what it’s all because of
I do think that every one of us that is capable of makin some glourious thing should..i do not belive in sins,that is true,but2waste a capacity is such a shame..menkind bilt empires,great names echo through history,fame and glory made ppl legends..it is true,one's family,one's children,if ur lucky,one's children's children remember ur name..but when they r gone,u will just fade in a pile of dust,just like every other useless creature of this world..why not make the best of urself?...
Quote:"Sweet is true love that is given in vain, and sweet is death that takes away pain."
Author: Lord Alfred Tennyson
Love...that might be interesting2talk bout,but it aint...love,i belived in,i still do...sometimes i think that its the humanbeen's porpous in life,2love and be loved..its just that most of us lead their life porpousless..i might have loved,i might love right now..who knows?i dont think or talk about my feelings,my true friend knows that so well...maybe i just hope4'em feelings2go away,maybe im afraid that they'd become2real if i mention them...though i am petrified bout'em,i do feel a great deal...and its killin every bit of me that is still there...
For i do luv,and i do cry...i do not cry cause i don't have what i would desire,but i do cry cause i don't desire what i have got...
Destiny?..i dont know...i wouldnt like2know that my life was like pre-planed by god knows who..neah,random things at random times..all tied 2getter by one's will,the ultimate god and conscience...
Artist: Pete Murray
Song: So Beautiful
Found myself just the other day
In the backyard of a friends place,
Thinkin’ about you,
Thinkin’ of the crowd you’re in,
What you up too where you been?
(Just thinkin’)
And all the clothes that you wear,
And the colors in your hair
Shouldn’t change you
Now you tell me why it’s so
You bigger than mighty Joe,
(At least you think so)
God my fingers burn,
Now when I think of touching your hair
You have changed so much that I don’t know,
If I can call you and tell you I care
And I would love to bring you down,
Plant your feet back on the ground
Throw my smoke down on the ground,
Turn my head and I heard the sound,
(That reminded me)
Of the days so young and sweet
Always so much fun to meet
(At least I thought so)
Now you think your so damn fine
You can rule the world no not mine,
I don’t think so
God my fingers burn,
Now when I think of touching your hair
You have changed so much that I don’t know,
If I can call you and tell you I care
Now the scene that you’re in,
And the people that you been with
Just get to me,
But you think I’m not as cool,
As you are so beautiful
Well who you fooling
Well I’m here to tell you babe
The game your in is just a game
So damn pretentious
God my fingers burn,
Now when I think of touching your hair
You have changed so much that I don’t know,
If I can call you and tell you I care
And I would love to bring you down,
Plant your feet back on the ground
You think you’re so beautiful
(So beautiful).
The notable thing that makes mortales so much different,and their life so much tastier is death..the last sweet goodbye kiss that you will never4get, they that caressed the depth of your soul,the fact that no other's lips shall touch yours in that way,all of them are bliss,bliss given by the fact that you shall never again be in that place,with that person..no one will ever again love you as much, your heart won't ever again beat as fast, you will never again feel so much like burstin because every moment might be your last..mortal's life fades away and that makes it so much better..foolish mortals,not ignorance is bliss,but the fact that you shall die,that is what makes your life a thrill...don't be so stupid as2waste it, its the god's gift and an honour2hold...
Quote:
"In the shadows for all time."
Hedonism - Skunk Anasie
I hope you're feeling happy now
I see you feel no pain at all it seems
I wonder what you're doin' now
I wonder if you think of me at all
do you still play the same moves now
or are those special moods
for someone else
I hope you're feeling happy now
just because you feel good
doesn't make you right
just because you feel good
still want you here tonight
does laughter still discover you
I see through all the smiles
that look so right
do you still have the same friends now
to smoke away your problems and your life
oh how do you remeber
me the one that made
you laugh until you cried
I hope yo're feeling happy now
just because you feel good doesn't make you right
just because you feel good still want you here onight
I wonder what you're donig now
I hope you're feeling happy now
I hope you're feeling happy now
"Life is just like a box of chocholates"...it's up2u2make of it rotten chocholates or the sweetest of tastes...
Quote:"If we would build on a sure foundation in friendship, we must love friends for their sake rather than for our own."
Author: Charlotte Bronte
Some things dont turn out exacly how you thought they would,but some of them might just turn out fine...and some things that you thought you will never 4give you do 4give in some cases,cause you care bout one dear friend more than you care bout your morals or yourself.Some of the ones that you got2know so well and got2care bout will always be a part of your soul,whatever would they do and wherever would they be...so this goes out for the ones i will always care deeply about...
DEPECHE MODE - Only When I Lose Myself
It's only when I lose myself in someone else
That I find myself
I find myself
Something beautiful is happening inside for me
Something sensual, it's full of fire and mystery
I feel hypnotised
I feel paralysed
I have found heaven
There's a thousand reasons
Why I shouldn't spend my time with you
For every reason not to be here
I can think of two
To keep me hanging on
Feeling nothing's wrong
Inside your heaven
It's only when I lose myself in someone else
That I find myself
I find myself
I can feel the emptiness inside me
Fade and disappear
There's a feeling of contentment
Now that you are here
I feel satisfied
I belong inside
Your velvet heaven
Did I need to sell my soul for pleasure like this
Did I have to lose control to treasure your kiss
Did I need to place my heart in the palm of your hand
Before I could even start to understand
It's only when I lose myself in someone else
That I find myself
I find myself
Metallica
Nothing else matters
So close no matter how far
Couldn’t be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters
Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don’t just say
And nothing else matters
Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters
Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know
So close no matter how far
Couldn’t be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
And nothing else matters
Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know
Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don’t just say
And nothing else matters
Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters
Never cared for what they say
Never cared for games they play
Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
And I know
So close no matter how far
Couldn’t be much more from the heart
Forever trusting who we are
No nothing else matters
When shall it all end?...
Taste me...and nothing shall ever be the same...
p.s. : be aware !!! Poison-holder guarding . . .