Hello my darkest love and twin soul,
Perhaps if you are reading this then you are one part of the the same eternal and boundless soul that I belong to. Perhaps you too are a part of the night, the moon, the darkness. Perhaps you shall become a beloved friend or a friendly love? Or maybe... maybe, I am setting my hopes to high. It is most probable that to you I am simply an image, a username, and the very limited writing that you have so far read. I doubt that you know my deepest secrets or how I work. Hell I doubt that you even know my true name. Yet maybe someday you will learn all this and more, that is if I have not scared you away yet.
To begin with I am a mere womenchild of the young age of 18. I am still captivated by the smallest of things including coloring books, dolls, shooting stars, hopes, dreams, and the idea of happiness. Additionally, one of my greatest loves are my four kittens and their beautiful mother. They are a mere four months of age yet are some of the most gentle and loving spirits I have ever met. In fact one of my lovely boys, Spencer, is currently "perched" on my shoulder watching as his grandmother types.
On the other hand I am a women and quickly taking my place among the ranks of adults throughout the world. I am very ambitious, driven, and there are few things that I am truly clueless about. I have seen many things that most people could never even dream of. I have buried my own mother, I have nearly lost my life and soul to addiction, I have felt alone, yet I have overcome all of these struggles and more. I have the childish hope to conquer the world and the grownup drive and knowledge to do so.
Unfortunatly, I fear that I am boring you or perhaps have already scared some people off. Before I leave I would like to leave you with some things you MUST know before contacting me.
1) I DO NOT CYBER and will quite simply block you if you even bring it up to me.
2) I will not deal with your drama, it is quite simply an unnecessary strain in my life.
3) There might be times in which I will disappear from your company for seemingly no reason. It is not because I dislike you but rather becasue I do have a life outside of this site.
4) I am a very complex being who will undoubtedly leave you at a loss for words as I have left many of my very closest friends.
5) I can either be the best friend you could ever imagine, or your worst nightmare. The choice is up to you so choose carefully.
Yours truly,
Neko, daughter of Lillith
These are the things that make my cold heart beat-
The rain
Kissing in the Rain
Dancing in the rain
Being bitten on the neck
Being bitten anywhere
Kissing
Blood
The feel of nails on my back
The idea of laying on a bed of nails...
or in a coffin
or breathing fire
Vampires
Zombies
Spirits
Ghosts
The voice inside my head
Sins... especially breaking them
Dreams
Sleep
Falling asleep with a cold pillow and blanket
Things that eat you
Things that will cuddle with you
Feeling safe
Feeling loved
Knowing that regardless of how I feel tommorow will be a new day
Originality
Self expression
DIY
Piercings
Multicolored hair
Crazy nights with my friends
Skinny dipping
Streaking
Crazy dares
Street racing
Burlesque
Freak Shows and my dream of joining one
Watching fire burn
Freaking people out
Pushing the boundaries of whats "normal" and "acceptable"
Doing things just to show that I should never be judged
And to prove that I will never be who you want me to be
These are the things I loathe-
Arrogance
Stupidity
Sheep
Prejudice
Government
