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Greetings everyone, my name is Chris. So this is my first foray into an online vampire community. Im here because in my area its difficult to find other vampires or anyone really that is open minded.

I began my awakening around 8 years old when I began to realize I different somehow from others around me, though at that age, I did not know how. I felt that I was somehow more aware than those around me. Kind of like everyone else was just going through the motions of their lives walking around in some haze. I guess what I am really started to sink in when I was 14, I had noticed now and then great conversation always left me energized but I had dismissed it as my being an intellectual. What really opened my eyes was one day my cousin and I were having an in depth discussion on some aspects of the occult. I could feel myself getting hyper but now I noticed that my cousin was getting rather tired. I wrote it off as simple fatigue, ( it being almost midnight) but then he did something I will never forget. He asked me to stop draining him. Naturally my reaction was one of surprise, I did not even realize I was doing it until he brought it to my attention.

So like most normal people, i was a little freaked out, and felt a little guilty. I ended resolving to never do it again. So I spent time building my walls and erecting shields, content that I would never do such a thing to anyone again. and that was that, or so I thought.

Around the age of 16 I had fallen into despair, I did not want to be around people, I was depressed and tired all the time. Well about the same time I began practicing various methods of occultism and in general draining myself until one day while with a group of friends I realized to my horror that I was draining from all of them to replenish myself. Well at that point I could no longer ignore it. So weeks later and lots and lots of research I slowly began to accept what I was.

Sorry if this is a bit long but its been a long time since I've been able to share this with anyone.