I love blood i put the laughter in manslaughter
IF you have any questions about me just ask i may answer you never know
I love saw movies and the crow movies and nightmare before christmas
I like bullet for my valentine and bleeding through for bands there are more of course but i dont want to list them
I am a quiet person and i can keep my cool but if u push me 2 far u will be drowning in your own blood
I love vampires and sharp objects and i have a passion for autopsies
I don't wanna feel like my heart is breaking.
I don't wanna see that my life is burning.
I see you alone your face is alive and bright but you cant see how weak you really are cus i could end it tonight
the clock is ticking, my heart is bursting through my chest and now i'm crying the tears are pouring off my face the chair is creaking her voice resides inside my head and now its over you put this noose around my neck
Your pulling teeth ripping flesh so u can lick the blood from ur fingers, so break my bones taste my skin let my death sing the end of this.
This blood turned into tears
A broken heart runs my body
Dripping forth until I give my life
I have become a sacrifice
It hurts me just to think of you
I void the pain that is unbarring
(To know that I take these sufferings from you)
Through this pain I refine
Tearing me from within
Screaming to be released but held fast by Your love
Hold me here
Break me until my face breathes upon this ground
Outstretched with my head to the floor
Spent of all my strength
Relying on Yours
Exhausted beyond repair
Stripped of all I had
Forced to die inside
Now I breathe a renewed Life
It is now I see without my eyes
If this is what it takes
To bring me to my knees
Then feed me pain until
I realize I am but a slave
Remind me of my need for You
Remind me of who I am
Shatter my emotions
Take them all away
Left alone to face You
Now You know my heart
Left only to speak what is true
See through this plague of flesh
With truth I say that I love You
Yet my heart betrays me
Be not far from me
For these voices
They must soon cease
Despite their betrayal
You died for me
You meant the world to me
All I have now is memories
Your love brought joy to my heart
You meant the world to me
Tears of sorrow stream from my broken soul
But I will see you again
When this world fades away
I will see you again
Only You know my pain inside
You've been there when no one else could be
When tears fall from my eyes
I know that You are always there
No matter what's in my heart
You are the One who cares
When I doubt, You stand by me
So I'm not ashamed to say the way I feel
I love You, You are my Everything
I cannot make it without You
All my efforts have failed
So that I will cry out in the need of You
Restore the strength of my Dependence
Send me through the fire
Make me pure again
Everything I am
I give it all to You
In Your arms I wait
I lay down my life
I am nothing without You
I see who you are and who else can compare
I meant what I said
I promised to stand by your side
Until the end
That's where we begin
From here to eternity
We begin understanding
It is our hearts that define
What has meaning in life
Some will ask how can this be but it
Was you who made me feel
How can I bear this any longer?
Arms stretched out only to hold separation
Take me away
I'm dying inside
Emptied before you
I will fight until the day
When I will see
Sight given to these blind eyes
When will I be taken from this life?
Take what is your
You deserve more than my life
Forever your eyes will hold the memory
I saw your heart as it overtook me
We tried so hard to understand and reason
But in that one moment
In that moment I gave my heart away
In that moment I gave my heart away
When I wake from this dream
Will your smile still open my heart and leave me transparent
When I wake from this dream
Will your smile still open my heart
Can you understand my meaning hidden in the roses around my eyes
I want you to know how much it means to have you in my life
Your love brings me close again in this instance this single moment
when our worlds collide
The wire of eternity twists around us
I can feel this river rising, moving up my back
I could never forget you
and I will never be the same
I can never forget you
and I will never be the same
The contingencies of another day unravel my senses
And now your distance is darkness
And now your distance is darkness
My hope has been beset by your absence
I decay from inside
From inside
Pain!
There is love, there is love, there is love
Love!
Love, there is love, there is love
Underneath there is love
I've watched them build
Upon these empty hearts
False hopes of lossless paradise
Gathering together
The dead hearts beat as one
Stillborn comfort feeding lies
Through answers of self denial
Divided between a dissolute self
And the sorrow of sincere devotion
Devotion
What is it that you find peace in now?
Where is your hope in this dark night?
White shutters enclose
The boundaries of my heart
I hold my breath
Till the steady beating is shut out
In silence I wait for what is real
For I know the truth of my perceptions
Nothing in life matters more
More than You
Matters more
More than You
When first feelings fade
I will still be here
I hold my breath
Till the steady beating is shut out
Beating is
For I know the truth of my perceptions
Nothing in life matters more
More than You
Matters more
More than You
This world was never worthy
But how can I call it unfaithful
Every promise was fulfilled
As decay crawled from it's throat
Like the dead rising from an open grave
Lips of splendor and tongue of deceit
All dying now as our fragile wrists hold only waste
Like those gasping for their last breath
We cannot hide there's nothing left
If All my sorrow has led me here
Then I would cry all of my tears
To have this chance again
And know there's more than this
And know there's more than you
Like those gasping for their last breath
We cannot hide there's nothing left
Is this your salvation?
Is this all you can give?
I will not stand in reflection
of someone elses dream
The gate to my heart has been weld shut
with the splendor of my aspirations closed in
how many years have we waited
for a ship that never set sail?
And how many days have we wasted
chasing a love that was not our own?
Is this your salvation?
Is this all you can give?
I will not stand in reflection
of someone elses dream
If music is
A mirror revealing
The depths of my heart
Then I will write
The darkest song
For without
Forgiveness
My soul is lost
All that is hope
Within destruction
Comes from you
For I have fallen
Fallen
If music is
A mirror revealing
The depths of my heart
Then I will write
The darkest song
For without
Forgiveness
My soul is lost
All that is hope
Within destruction
Comes from you
[Break]
For I have fallen
And there is nothing good
Within me yet I've
Been given life
I will
I will never
Deserve
For without
Forgiveness
Without forgiveness my soul is lost
All that is hope
Within destruction
All that is hope
I've looked straight into your eyes
And turned my head for the last time
Because I was scared to leave these walls in ruin
Like the fate of those who trust in themselves
We are alone and afraid
We've built our confidence
On broken dreams now left for dead
Yet we've been condemned
To chase these dreams that never end
Our selfishness consumes us
Until the whole world is not enough
Forgive the day that I erased your name
that I erased your name
For it's the memory of me that will decay
You sat and watched
As I nearly destroyed myself
Never had I felt so betrayed
That you would sacrifice my life
For no more than comfort
And now your love means nothing to me
You are a coward, the antithesis of a friend
Take action before there is
No one left to defend
For I would have stood by you
Right to the gates of hell
I never wanted
And I never cared before
Now take it all back
This is a new day
How I long to regress
To the days before I took upon myself
The obsessions of this world
A day of innocence equating beauty
For tomorrow may fall
And today is already gone
Now take it back
This is a new day
I have seen my world change
And then go back to where it came
In this vicious circle
We are all brought back to life
Only to die again
But without these barren obsessions
I am simply free
I see them coming
With shrouds to bury us all
Before we were born they shaped our lives
Leading us into an unmarked grave
In moments life could end
So I will speak while I can
This is my chance
My time to stand
We may fail alone but that is better
Than dying with them only to be forgotten
I for one would rather suffer now
Than leave this life without passion
This is our chance
Our time to stand
Now this is who we are
I'll never know the answers
And I'll always wonder why
...Why we're given grace we'll never deserve
And a second chance that we will never earn
For there is nothing I can do to save myself
Now this is who we are
I'll never know the answers
And I'll always wonder why
But You have let me start again
I'd rather be called weak
Than die thinking I was strong
It's not so much the pain
It's more the actual knife
Pretending the picture is perfect
I cut myself to sleep
I close my eyes for a second
And curse my fragile soul
I scream to hide that I'm lonely
The echo calls my name
Spit me out
I'm glad I don't belong
Save me the speech (I know)
You'll be forgotten and gone
It burns, it rips, it hurts
Shot for shot
Many bullets penetrate me
Embrace me
Tell me stories of golden gods
The precision in your voice
Pierce the walls that I've built
Your eyes reach deep in me
Expose the dark side,
Aching and emotional,
Expose the dark side,
Impossible to tame
Away from the light of the sun
Away I find what is really me
Throw yourself into the eye of chaos
Infiltrate me,
Sneak out before I awake
Take out the trash and burn it
Try and find a beautiful place to lay
These fragile bones of mine
So say goodbye to the world
We are the dead can't walk the earth
Scream your lungs out
Wait for laughter
You don't have to wait forever
It's the next disaster!
In times of make believe
No one really seems to care
Maybe I should care less
'Cause I will die too
They scream, You scream, I scream
We scream but no one listens
Abuse to feel superior,
Is it working for you?
We are ordinary people,
In a world build on stress
When we build walls around us
We end up in a mess
Surrender to nothing.
Or run, as far as you can
I'm trying to hold on to what I believe in,
But my heart is in a coma!
The black hole forever mine.
I need fear.
Push me out
Oh be brave
Show me signs
Should I feel shame for the questions that I have
If you could be
The things I need.
I'll crawl through knives
An inch per tear
When all is said and done
We'll know what's right, what's wrong
But does it matter then
When all is said and done
When all is dead and gone
We'll know who lost, who won
But does it matter then
When all is dead and gone
Feeding on life leftovers
I am writing to you
You should realize
It hurts in me, too
Find time and play with innocence
Like you ever would
I don't see you make any sense
I guess you deliver misery
Just like you should
I learned to mute the anger
I never thought I would be there again a moment, a dead end
I lost myself in here
I'll always belong to the shadow
Don't show me new results
I will never enter your heaven
Make the most of my dirty cell
Where there are only my bones
Please put them in use
Want to be part of a new dawn
The darkness disappears
Don't release these chains
Never been closer to myself
All your mistakes run though
As I realize what we become
The end is here to bid farewell
I'll turn to ash and hear them sing
Songs about my emotions dead and alone
Don't make an effort you don't know me anything
When the rain comes falling
I'll freeze I'm so afraid
When things start to flood me
I will drown in seconds
Fear - There's no way out
Touch of red
Break away
Nothing has it all
Bury the place I've been
I fear there's no way out
As If I ever had a choice
All in the hands of the energy
Once again feel the quicksand swallow me
Tonight = I won't struggle
I can be as angry as I want to be
Just watch me burn
I think you're way too cold
Just watch and learn
I'll never sleep here anymore
My house is not my home
I like you better dead
And I'm better off alone
I need to save myself before I drown
It took so long to see
The world your mind creates
It pushes me under
It hurts to think
Can't get the sums together
Would you draw my bitterness
Make the pictures fade
Could it be that I see
What's beneath when we fall
The truth in ever
I'm scared that I will be
Distract, push me in another direction
This wall that I stare into
It's getting old
Give me faith to reach for the new
Pull me apart and do me all over
I'll need a re-make
To make up for my mistakes
You Took a knife and carve it in
Want to see your faults
As a part of your pretty skin
Everyone has a tragedy
I want you to wear yours in pain
Oblivion can no longer shade you
Reminded by the tattered tissue
Everything you say is denied
I'll be the devil on this ride
Dark clouds in your heaven
Your end has only begun
You can scream but there's no rescue
I promise I'll make you sure you that die in time
I am the maggot
In your infected life
No matter how hard you try
I'll leave without a scar
I am a legend
In your infotainment life
It's when I say "it's over"
Blame me...
Escape me...
Well it's you who walked away
Tie me...
For my sake
To the dream that haunts you
I cannot frame, that's why I lose control
I aim, I stumble and I fall
Our adaptation can't be faithful
Your world does not attract me
This is the end you see
There is no more truth in me
As if you would deserve it
You are my enemy
Please me, deliver the insane
In the chaos I find peace
I never seem to understand
The time, the place and who I am
Define a way to stay alive
It's like I'm living a lie
Held down, strangled and abused
Cut down to half a member
Left with his hand tied
Everything points in the wrong direction
I feel it's taking over
Everything falls dark
Break me open
The desperate cry
to discover the loneliness and be to proud to show the wounds
will forever wander alone through the years
but I won't let you near
begging for you to understand
the fear that lives in my soul
which is an untouched spring
my body will be bent from the burdens
when the shaking floor of life-force
reveal its chasm underneath
if only one could be two steps ahead
Shame marries the guilt
introduces itself to the
concept of total loneliness
Sensations repressed
make friends with
Suicidia and
here the leeches begin to
suck away the lust for life
Shattered hope became my guide
And grief and pain my friends
A brother pact in a blood-ink penned
Declare my silent end
I need someone to break the silence
before it all falls apart
I need something to cling onto
before I break you in parts
I can't tolerate your sadness
cause it's me you're drowning
I won't allow any happiness
cause everytime you laugh, I feel so guilty
Sell me the infection, it's only for the weak
No need for sympathy, the misery that is me
No need for sympathy, it's only for the weak)
On bleeding knees I accept my fate
I parish and nobody will know
as my mouth remains still
my heart awaits me. filled with gravel
as the pain grows with each touch
I give, I scorn, I threat
