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I'm into all types of different supernatural things, witches, vampires, werewolves, mermaids etc. I always have dreams of being a vampire...it's strange and I would love to know some answers for how I feel, why it feel like being a vampire and why I'm dreaming of vampires and whenever I'm showering I feel like someone's watching me...I have black hair, green eyes, I'm not going to say I'm skinny but I'm not fat...but I'm not what I want to be, I just want to be curvy but I wish someone would just accept me the way I am. I'm more of a tomboy then an actual girl and I'm bi sexual. I'm different from everyone else and it's strange, people seem to get along really well and then there's me...I know I'm different and I just don't think the humane life is for me. I'm open to talking to anyone, doesn't matter what/who you are, I don't judge and I don't believe in monsters. I only see a monster as someone who does something terrible and doesn't feel remorse, but like I said, I don't judge.