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I am a Sire as well as an Assistant House Master of House Lunazure. I am also Master of Cercle Satanique De Sang mentorship, if you would like to be mentored, please inquire about it, by messaging me. House Lunazure is now run by wonderful Master Vampire and site Administrator: Nekirena. I also am proud Master Mentor of Cercle Satanique De Sang, and if you are under level 80 and wish to be a part of my mentorship, message me and also check out my mentorship page here - Click Here
I wanted to note, there are more pictures of me in the next title down.
BTW the song playing on my portfolio is Only Smiles by: Periphery
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What Makes a Great Profile:
In my opinion, what constitutes a great profile. A lot of information on the person and stated with proper grammar. Profile is easy to read and the information is easily found. Informaton is conformed into scroll boxes or a navigation box preferably and not scattered all over the page at various points. Information is not in HUGE fonts that are some strange color and hard to read on a complex background. I also do not like an animated background for someones profile, as makes page take too long to load, especially an animated background on top of another background, it's just too much going on for my eyes to take in. Best to keep it simple, have one background for your profile, and have it be non animated. I also do not like when pictures are HUGE and take 5 years to load, and there are a trillion of them. Save the larger pics for your portfolio if you must I'd say. Last but not least, not one thousand billion protection stamps that constitute most of your profile. You can save those for your portfolio as well. If anyone does need help creating or updating their profile, or help with scroll boxes and such, I am happy to help.
I have to add here in regards to the new profile skins and layouts, after skinning one of the new layouts called oracle, I skinned it correctly and customized it to my liking and still I prefer the classic. The new layouts and skins are great if you're into trends, trends normally die out I'm afraid. Nothing beats a classic as it turns out.
My profile is the Classic Blue layout skinned, I customized the journal, stalk me, bite me and portfolio icons as you can see. I also customized the Vampire Rave top and bottom logo.
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Brompton Cocktail by: Avenged Sevenfold
(Out of time...)
Doc, I'm dying, I'm feeling compromised (feeling compromised)
and so dehumanized (and so dehumanized)
I lost my final fight to disease, I feel that this is where it ends
I need that shot to enter my vein
My Brompton Cocktail blend
Cause I can't feel my face
I won't struggle on
In a world so cold
In a world so wrong
I'm not running away, been fighting this so long (so long)
Such a price that we pay, we gotta be so strong
in a lie...
I'm tired, induced euphoria (induced euphoria)
to help me move along (help me move along)
I wanna meet my maker in peace, i want to feel alive again
So put that smile back on my face and mix it strong my friend
I Cause I can't feel my face
I won't struggle on
In a world so cold
In a world so wrong
I'm not running away, been fighting this so long (so long)
Such a price that we pay, we gotta be so strong
And I take my life tonight cause I have the right to die how I wanna
and leave how I arrived, so alive
I believe my sins have been forgiven
and I believe my choice will save me from this life
please don't question why
my sins have been forgotten
I believe I'll find peace in afterlife
please don't question why
I left this way
Cause I can't feel my face
I won't struggle on
In a world so cold
In a world so wrong
I'm not running away, been fighting this so long (so long)
Such a price that we pay, we gotta be so strong
And I take my life tonight cause I have the right to die how I wanna
and leave how I arrived, so alive
(Alive)
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Digital Bath by: Deftones
You move - like I want to
To see - like your eyes do
We are...downstairs
Where no one can see
New life - break away
Tonight...
I feel like more
Tonight I...
We make the water warm
You taste - foreign
And I know - you can see
The cord - break away
cause tonight...
I feel like more
Tonight...i feel like more
Feel like more
Tonight...
You breathed - then you stop
I breathed - and drive you off
And tonight I...feel
Feel like more
Oh! tonight I feel like...
I feel like more
Tonight I feel like more
I feel like more
Tonight...
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Two Weeks by: All That Remains
And you neglected I called you out don't please
I said we're stronger than this now
you resurrected mistakes years past it seemed
and they exist to still haunt you
and still you feel like the loneliness
is better replaced by this
I don't believe it this way
and I can see the fear in your eyes
I've seen it materialize
Growing stronger each day
I could see it as you turned to stone
Still clearly I can hear you say
don't leave, don't give up on me
two weeks and you ran away
I remember don't lie to me
you couldn't see that it was not that way
swear I never gave up on you
I wanted nothing but for that trust again
and brick by brick you would take it
You feared of phantoms and none exist but you
you still saw fit to destroy it
and still you feel like the loneliness
is better replaced by this
I don't believe it this way
and I can see the fear in your eyes
I've seen it materialize
growing stronger each day
I could see it as you turned to stone
still clearly I can hear you say
don't leave don't give up on me
two weeks and you ran away
I remember don't lie to me
you couldn't see that it was not that way
swear I never gave up on you
and you neglected I called you out don't please
I said we're stronger than this now
You feared of phantoms and none exist but you
you still saw fit to destroy it
and I can see the fear in your eyes
I've seen it materialize
growing stronger each day
I could see it as you turned to stone
still clearly I can hear you say
don't leave don't give up on me
two weeks you ran away
I could see it as you turned to stone
still clearly I can hear you say
don't leave don't give up on me
two weeks and you ran away
I remember don't lie to me
you couldn't see that it was not that way
swear I never gave up on you
I could see it as you turned to stone
still clearly I can hear you say
don't leave don't give up on me
two weeks and you ran away
I remember don't lie to me
you couldn't see that it was not that way
swear I never gave up on you
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Collide by: Skillet
We have fallen
We have fallen again tonight
Where do we go from here
When they're tearing down our lives?
When all they want is
When all they want is
For us to live in fear
How long can we hold on?
Can we hold on?
Hold on
There's something deep inside
That keeps my faith alive
When all you can do
Is hide from the fear
That's deep inside of you
Something, something, something
Something, something, something
To hold me close when I don't know
There's something deep inside
That keeps my faith alive
We are healing
But it's killing us inside
Can we take a chance?
When faith and fear collide
We can make it
Step out and take it
We can't live feeling so numb
How long can we hold on?
Can we hold on?
Hold on
There's something deep inside
That keeps my faith alive
When all you can do
Is hide from the fear
That's deep inside of you
Something, something, something
Something, something, something
To hold me close when I don't know
There's something deep inside
That keeps my faith alive [2x]
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Shameful by: Atreyu
You should have ran for days,
you embrace, you betray
I am sick to say, you're a sad cliche
but when you ran you tripped and fell
on a path that led you straight to hell
this is the salt in your wounds
this is my I told you so.
If you knew, what I know
would you move, like you do
with malicious discontent you went about,
hell bent to destroy but did you have a reason why.
Here's to lowering caskets of old friends,
through choice and consequence we'll birth a new day
with the death of an old and (Start over, start over)
here's to bearing hatchets with those
who you'd never call your friends
we'll birth a new day with the death of an old and (Start over, start over)
Can you breathe in, reach in, and let it out?
The evil inside, thats eating you out, tonight.
With every venomous move, I will suck you up and spit you
get out of my life, get out of my sight.
Here's to lowering caskets of old friends,
choice and consequence we'll birth a new day
with the death of an old and (Start over, start over)
here's to burying hatchets in those
who you'd never call your friends
we'll birth a new day with the death of an old and (Start over, start over)
You let yourself get carried away.
Don't act like you're ashamed.
You let yourself get carried away.
Bow your head now accept the blame.
You let yourself get carried away.
Bury this with you a waste.
Now its time to see, what you don't mean to me.
Now its time to see, what you don't mean to me.
Now its time to see, what you don't mean to me.
Here's to lowering caskets of old friends,
choice and consequence, we'll birth a new day
with the death of an old and (Start over, start over)
here's to burying hatchets in those
who you'd never call your friends
we'll birth a new day with the death of an old and
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Just Stop by: Disturbed
Just stop.
Enough of the venemous critical comments on my life.
Just drop the judgement, and all of your pseudo-involvement in my life.
Sit back a moment, and look at the miracle starting in the light.
Dont stop the moment, and let the incredible happen knowing that
All that you want is to criticize
something for nothing.
And all that I want is forgiveness one more time
to be the best in the world
Just stop with all of your little deliberate problems with my life.
Enough of all the crippling terrible pain we feel inside.
Step back a moment remember how the miracle started in the light.
Take back the torment; I'll only enjoy this moment knowing that
All that you want is to criticize
something for nothing
And all that I want is forgiveness one more time.
I know that
all that we want is to feel inside
some kind of comfort with all that we've done.
We can hide.
We'll be the best in the world.
All I ever wanted was to be a real source of compassion.
From the moment that we find ourselves drowning in.
All I ever wanted was to be a real source of compassion.
From the moment that we find ourselves drowning in.
All that you want is to criticize
something for nothing.
And all that I want is forgiveness one more time.
I know that
all that we want is to feel inside.
Some kind of comfort.
With all that we've done.
We can hide.
We'll be the best in the world.
We'll be the best in the world.
Just stop enough of the venemous critical comments on my life.
Just drop the judgement and all of your pseudo-involvement in my life.
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Song of the Dispossessed by: Dead Can Dance
The river is deep and the road is long
Daylight comes and I want to go home
Awoke this morning
To find my people's tongues were tied
And in my dreams
They were given books to poison their minds
The river is deep and the mountain high
How long before the other side
We are their mortar
Their building bricks and their clay
Their gold teeth mirror
Both our joys and our pain
The river is deep and the ocean wide
Who will show us how to read the signs
The earth is our mother
She taught us to embrace the light
Now the lord is master
She suffers an eternal night
You blocked up my ears
You plucked out my eyes
You cut out my tongue
You fed me with lies
Oh lord
Oh lord
Oh lord
Oh lord
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Crestfallen by: Smashing Pumpkins
Who am I to need you when Im down
Where are you when I need you around
Your life is not your own
And all I ask you
Is for another chance
Another way around you
To live by circumstance, once again
Who am I to need you now
To ask you why to tell you no
To deserve your love and sympathy
You were never meant to belong to me
And you may go, but I know you wont leave
Too many years built into memories
Your life is not your own
Who am I to need you now
To ask you why to tell you no
To deserve your love and sympathy
You were never meant to belong to me
Who am I to you?
Along the way
I lost my faith
And as you were, you'll be again
To mold like clay, to break like dirt
To tear me up in your sympathy
You were never meant to belong to me
You were never meant to belong to me
You were never meant to belong to me
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Take A Picture by: Filter
Awake on my airplane
Awake on my airplane
My skin is bare
My skin is theirs
Awake on my airplane
Awake on my airplane
My skin is bare
My skin is theirs
I feel like a newborn
And I feel like a newborn
Awake on my airplane
Awake on my airplane
I feel so real
Chorus
Could you take my picture?
Cuz I wont remember
Could you take my picture?
Cuz I wont remember
Could you take my picture?
Cuz I wont remember
Could you take my picture?
Cuz I wont remember
Yeah
I dont believe in
I dont believe in
In your sanctity
You privacy
I dont believe in
I dont believe in
Sanctity
A hypocrisy
Could everyone agree that
No one should be left alone
Could everyoone agree that
They should not be left alone yeah
And I feel like a newborn
And I feel like a newborn
Kicking and screaming
Chorus
Hey dad what do you think about your son now
Ah hey dad what do you think about your son now
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Stillborn by: Black Label Society
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
Blinded (Change to Blind Me)
Erase what was
Stillborn, I have become
The feelings I once felt are now dead and gone
I've waited here for you for so very long
So empty
Just a shell of a man
Stillborn, this I understand
The feelings I once felt are now dead and gone
I've waited here for you for so very long
[But], I've waited here for you, so long
[But], I've waited here for you for you
The feelings I once felt are now dead and gone
I've waited here for you for so very long
[But], I've waited here for you so long
[But], I've waited here for you so long
[But], I've waited here for you so long
I waited here for you for you
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Slept So Long by: Jay Gordon (of Orgy)
Walking
Waiting
Alone without a care
Hoping
And hating
Things that I can't bear
Did you think it's cool
To walk right up
To take my life
And fuck it up
Well did you?
Well did you?
I see hell in your eyes
Taken in by surprise(surprise)
Touching you makes me feel alive
Touching you makes me die inside
Walking, Waiting
Alone without a care
Hoping
And hating
Things that I can't bear
Did you think it's cool
To walk right up
To take my life
And fuck it up
Well did you?
I hate you!
I see hell in your eyes
Taken in by surprise
And touching you makes me feel alive
Touching you makes me die inside
I've slept so long without you
It's tearing me apart too
How'd it get this far
Playing games with this old heart
I've killed a million petty souls
But I couldn't kill you
I've slept so long without you
I see hell in your eyes
Taken in by surprise
Touching you makes me feel alive
Touching you makes me die inside
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KimDracula by: Deftones
The earth
Will see our eyes
Go blank tonight
The earth will rot away
Go blank tonight
I, I really wish these snakes were your arms
I, I really wish you'd make up your mind
The earth
Disguised a way
Don't blink tonight
The earth
Will see our eyes
Don't blink tonight
I, I really wish these snakes were your arms
I, I really wish you could make up your mind
No Blood More More Blood
I, I really wish these snakes were your arms
I, I really wish you'd make up your mind
Blood Down More
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The Last One For Life by: Eternal Tears of Sorrow
I hear the silent whispers,
Darkness still upon me,
All those empty words
from the buried heart
I don't know where fear ends
and where hate begins,
It's all the same to me,
Life is falling apart
Hand in hand...side by side
I walk with fate in the night
The red fluid of life is flowing right along my arms,
I feel the sweet blade diving deep inside,
This moment I've been waiting for so long a time,
when I know the last cut will be for my life
I've looked through the eyes of pain
and seen the smile of death
I've wandered in the shadows of my fears
The feathers of a white dove
were stained by darkened tears
The final tune is soon to be played
Hand in hand...side by side
I walk with death in the night
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Here are some poems I wrote. These poems, along with the rest of my work, can be found in my journal. Following the poems are 3 photos I snapped while on Fire Island one summer, I love it there.
Planet Hemorrhage
Wish this world would consume you
Evil clinging to the earth
rage and misanthropy
I see no reason to appease you
you have worn out your stay
here in hell
All the ashes of the earth
every last breath of death
Lord knows I saw it coming
time throwing up to expell
Fatal moons are so numbing
If you only live to tell
Begging for you to fall
crawl upon the steel earth
bleeding
denying your rebirth
Parasite of my mind
Put to rest
to comprehend this all
at your wake would be best
Through the mires of this mind
At the gateways of all sin
tragedy has many vines
forsaken
All the dischord of this world
echoes of apathy
Heaven knows I'd seen the beast
how could I not see
Wish the gods would devour you
Your feet would be bound
your body ablaze
Banal moons feast for days
lepered tongues have no taste
Fall upon the still earth
Greet your maker
horrid fate awaits
suffer forever
Through the trials of disdain
the riots will clamour
in the refuge of ones lives
it all burns away
I have a cauldron for you
it bares your name
return to the execution
for you cannot escape
I am the soul collector
the spirit evictor
I shall have my way
All the dischord of failure
Insanity applauds
you have met your maker
Create to destroy
hidden stigmata
youth shall be undone
How sharp the awakening
on a path of destruction
you will succumb
Benevolent mind schemes
serve you no good here
in the bowels of rank and fear
Serve your creator
that's how far you've fell
My breeds king here
heed this reckoning
or you're doomed to repeat
Cloaked by the thunders of the oblivion
in bellies of abyss you'll exist
a prism of chaos & sacrilege
Without the hands to forage
you'll surely rot away
& one with the earth be encased
on this planet hemorrhage
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Sanity Siphon
So much binds within us
Fraught with decay and stigma
The years have had their way
I know the path lies within
Something deeper moves me
And I need to remember
Virtues at my feet again
Soiled are my past regrets
I am one with all the pain
Heavy with dread
Shadows swarm from overhead
My heart beats an eternal rhythm
As the dead of night contends
So much grinds beneath the flesh
As the warm wind comes again
Another year will come to pass
I know the rain will be immense
Flooding deeper still
But I need to remember
My skin it peels
Layers upon layers
Still somethings gotta heal
I am one with this cruel game
Gone is my sanity
As another nightmare reigns
Is this the fate I can't escape
My lungs refrain
Falling faster in my dismay
As the warm night smothers
And I need to recover
Moments lost but I remain
In such discord
A troubled vessel
Another century invades
Nothing hear to save me
My doom grows deeper
And I live to remember
Shadows warn
I'm overcome
The darkness looms
Nowhere to run
My blood it gushes
Becoming,
A ritual like siphon
Is this the fate
My holocaust
My spirit raped
The war drags on
Must I live to remember
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Apocalypse
To see as we do
the pain that sears the insides
private thoughts are many
shared can divide
Felt all I could feel
ripped straight from me
with words built for war
A heart never more pure
Love lost in between
the days are endless
pain the consequence
I am as I have always been
To see as we could
what fate may lay to waste
trouble reciting words
soaked in blood
love surging the veins
Look and you shall find
the sacrifice that blinds
see inside ones heart
you can't deny
passion is suicide
Never will it die
It will linger on
in the mind
every crevice of ones fears
will reform
And be reborn as tears
Torn visions lay asunder
lightning rolls amongst the thunder
As stars stricken the sky
how can it be denied
Look and you shall find
the sacrificial divide
within our hearts gripped with time
To see it through
to see as we do
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After The Flesh
When the coldest wind takes over
when my sores are sewn
broken and bleeding
Is all I will be to you
Consequence of nothing
stifled by thier ignorance
tell them nothing of yourself
and let that be your best defense
Lay I am now
motionless
rescue this the flesh
and leave me to my own
devices
Suffer this I do best
the clouds of dread have thickened
pack me in my hollow bed
In this the coffin I'm forever damned
when the warmest blood sheds
when the scars have withdrawn
when the waves wash over
salting all my lesions
I will be shown through
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Cicatrix
Your lies spilt over my world
Damaged goods
Damaged being
Scarred from the inside
Scarred on the outside
And nothing could be heard
Over your silence
It set apart you from this earth
It tore apart us in its whirl
Time to find my own hell
Pretending to be living
Signs I saw in you
The way out
Time to break the spell
Still it can't compare
To the dormant
Stagnant shell that
Is the heart of you
Detached from reality
Detached from everything
Prisoner to your own captivity
Self prison
Self-parasite
Vacant of emotion
Nowhere to hide
Pretending to be living
Suffering I saw in you
The way to dig deeper
Death came in layers
Decaying from the inside
Apathy on the outside
Had to separate myself
Apart from the end that starts in you
The pictures below I took with my digital camera. I had to zoom in quite a bit. The pics were taken one summer in August while on vacation on Fire Island (located off the coast of Long Island, NY). I was standing on a dock in the town of Cherry Grove at sunrise.
Clicking on the above graphic will open up a video for Tool, in a seperate window. It's for their song: Aenima.The video is so great, it's tremendous, and it does get better and better so keep watching it all the way through.
Clicking the above graphic will lead you a video I constructed on YouTube for the song Cult of Chaos by Arch Enemy, set to scenes from the movie Priest
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Talent without discipline is like an octopus on roller skates. There's plenty of movement, but you never know if it's going to be forward, backwards, or sideways. - H. Jackson Brown, Jr.
Being born is like being kidnapped. And then sold into slavery. - Andy Warhol
The single biggest problem in communication is the illusion that it has taken place. - George Bernard Shaw
You don't lead by hitting people over the head - that's assault, not leadership. - Dwight D. Eisenhower
It is to be regretted that the rich and powerful too often bend the acts of government to their own selfish purposes. - Andrew Jackson
The tree of liberty must be refreshed from time to time with the blood of patriots and tyrants. - Thomas Jefferson
Although only breath, words which I command are immortal.- Sappho
I think the person who takes a job in order to live - that is to say, for the money - has turned himself into a slave. - Joseph Campbell
Can a nation be free if it oppresses other nations? It cannot. - Vladimir Lenin
If a lion could talk, we could not understand him. - Ludwig Wittgenstein
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