I don't do drugs. I don't drink. I don't do crimes. I am not a gangster. I mind my own business unless your business affects me, in which case, I don't always bite my tongue. I don't like stupidity, ignorance or unintelligent behavior. I am tired of this racial crap, segregation by income level and anything else that sets us aside from each other. However, if you aren't willing to learn, don't come near me.
Believe it or not, I am a hard worker. It is unfortunate that my body can't keep up anymore. I have a lot of limitations when it comes to trying to find an actual job. I hate to see someone who hasn't worked a day in thier life and are fully capable receiving SSI/SSDI and someone like me who busted their hump as much as possible sometimes working 80 hours a week or 40 hours in a row and can't get the same treatment. Almost all of you complain about an 8 hour shift yet don't know what it is like to work a 40 hour shift.
I am an individual. I do not like categories and titles. Since we have to be in one these days; I am a Juggalo by way of life, Christian by Spirituality and as for politics I wouldn't be able to put myself into a catagory. I am not looking for a relationship. You are all asswipes and don't deserve my time. Maybe there is someone who is worth my time but I doubt it. I need someone who is good mother material to my daughter who I have full custody of and my other kids if the chance arises that I may be blessed with custody of or at least visitiations with. However, as it seems, that won't ever happen. I will not say that the perfect mate for me is someone with a car, house, loads of money or any of that; however, I don't want any scumbags either. Even then, I got more important things to worry about than chasing people around. If a woman thinks they like me, they better be ready to step up as a mother and allow me to work on my hobby projects or they will be begging for time with me; help make the time or there isn't any. If I have the choice between hobby and sex partner, I choose hobby. And I for sure am not choosing you over my children.
I have a long history of crap in my life. My past is my past, I want it to stay that way. Anyone who tries using my past against me can go to hell. I have enough of that from people who aren't legally supposed to do it. I carry a burden on my shoulder at all times, sometimes leading me to depression, anger problems, suicidal tendancies, anti-social behavior and other mental blowout fun. Don't try to lift the burden, you will hurt yourself, not help me. I like being a ticking timebomb.
If you dig through my likes, you will find lots of stuff. Some of which is of a happy nature and some that is dark. I also don't have everything clicked that I do like it. The thing is that I do have hope deep down inside that happiness may be out there. However, I can't count on it. From my experience, I am fated to be alone and depressed for the rest of my life with no chance to do what normal people can.
To be honest, I worked so hard while everyone else enjoyed life and tore my body apart to the point that now it can't keep up. I tore my mind apart. I tore up relationships. I tore up my own character. I have become a bitter and lonely person who can give a fuck less about your success. Now, all I do want to do is either die or find a way to enjoy life without the stress. It's someone else's fucking turn to be stressed while I enjoy myself. Problem is, enjoying life will never happen so give me death.
Anything else just ask.
