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It's going to take me a while to level up. This is because I am not on this site very much. The only reason I am here is to keep in touch with a couple friends. It seems they don't have yahoo messenger or a cell for or anything. So this is our only way to communicate.

So... I was in a chatroom on yahoo. And someone said that Mary Poppins was hot. I had to laugh at that. But Anyway, we got onto the subject and someone else said that they were told that Mary Poppins was a dominatrix. Come to think about it... she very well could be.



She bent everyone in the Bank's home to do her will. She's controlling but is graceful about it. But the whole banks house loved her for her assertiveness.





Just something to ponder on.

Well, I have been living with my family again. It royally sucks. Especially when my idiotic brother is here. He's worthless and will never amount to anything. He's on probation right now for drugs. He goes to his meetings and takes someone else's piss so that they don't know that he's still doing drugs. I really feel like calling his probation officer before he goes to court and giving them a tip that he's still on drugs and what he has been doing to pass the tests. That may sound heartless, but I don't really care. At least he'd be locked away where he belongs.



My mother came home and it seems that every little thing she gets pissed off at. My brother's can do no wrong when she's near them, but as soon as she's away she talks about how worthless they are. It's really annoying. I wonder if that's how she is about me as well?



I'm going to college and can't seem to be there enough. The past week I have been really sick though. So I haven't been able to go to class. That leaves me with watching my nieces. Don't get me wrong, I love them, but their father and step-mother need to stop being so damn selfish and take care of their own kids. This transition that they are going through is the time that their father and mother need to pay attention to them. But they are too busy thinking about themselves or others.



Sometimes I feel like I want to hurt someone or something. I know it's not normal. I've been on my meds and everything. I need counseling, but have no way to get there if I do get it. Everyone is willing to take something, but not willing to give. I think I will make counseling appointments at my college.



I really need to find my own place. First I need to get a job. With this economic crisis right now, I don't think that's going to happen anytime soon. But I am filling out applications and sending them in. I just... It's annoying as hell. Waiting and waiting, only to get an interview and be told that you're basically not good enough. It's a horrid process. I don't have much experience in anything, so it's going to be that much harder. But, I'm trying and I'm going to keep trying.

May 16th, I got into a car accident. I was Southbound on HWY 41 and Central Ave. I had a green light and was going about 60-65 mph. A truck on the left side ran a red light and I smashed into the back end of his truck on the passenger side. Both airbags were deployed and the good car that my WAS, stopped itself on the side of the road. I was driving and my mother was in the passenger seat. We got out of the car because it started smoking. My mother called 911 because I was shaking so bad and I couldn't think straight. The truck that I hit kept going and never stopped. Perhaps the person driving didn't have insurance. I don't know. Anyway, some nice person stopped. He was a registered lifeguard. He stayed with my mother and me until the CHP got there. It took about a half hour. The ambulance got there.







The Outcome: I sustained a sprained arm and many bruises. My mother has a bruise on her stomache and back pain. Other than that, we made it out alright. More than I can say for my car. It is totalled.







Anyway, I just wanted everyone to know.







Love,

Alea





Update: I went back to the hospital on May 22, 2008. I have a concusion (sp?) and my life is in shambles. On the up side though, the CHP found the bastard that caused the accident.