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If you know could you tell me because I have no idea who the fuck took over my body.



Who am I?



Outwardly I am a 28yo wife and mom of two gorgeous girls. I am seemingly happy most of the time. I am loud, annoying, stubbord, and hexed with this horrible thing called OCD. (there's a lot more to the outward me, but seriously- who the fuck cares about that?)



Inwardly I am a child crying out for someone to save me. I got married to my second husband out of necessity and I tried for almost 3 years to convince myself that I was happy and in love. I truely think that I have never been IN LOVE, I love my husband . . . but I settled and I am now realizing how truely unhappy I am. Part of me wants to be optimistic and embark on that neverending quest for true love, but a bigger part doesn't believe it exists. I have a few friends that I love, but nothing like the "happily ever after" bullshit we are fed as children. I am also highly depressed most of the time because I believe in a seemilngly unreachable goal . . . . maybe one day it'll happen, probably not - poor little sad me. ::tear tear::



Enough of the mindless bitching about my horrible life - I'm making myself sick with all the blatant truth. Feel free to bitch at me for all the whining and moaning.

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Tamari
20:25 Apr 17 2008

We have a lot more in common, then I originally thought.

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hi . . . I am me. Mostly I think online journals are a bunch of bullshit, they are usually for people with no friends and no one to talk to or those who's lives are so retched that they have to entertain themselves by delving into the lives of others . . . you know - super nosey ass people.

Unfortunately I fall into both of those cattegories from time to time - nevertheless I am following the bullshit and posting in my journal.

So being the hypocrit that I am I will probably posting on this quite often, although some of it will be songs or other's poems - for those times when the only words that can describe how I feel need to be stolen. For those of you who care to know who I am that one is coming up shortly.

I bid you- tootles.

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mysticwinds
22:30 Mar 01 2008

Journals are good...for we see in some of them...we all have common thoughts and problems.



We are not alone in ways we feel abou things in life.

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