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due to new meds.
06:15 Oct 23 2009
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i might be online less. and also due to drama from another site i need to help a friend out.she just got dumped by her bitch girlfriend. meds making me sleepy....

love isnt real.
21:33 Oct 14 2009
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people when they say they love you.



they dont.





when they say they care.





they dont give a flying fuck





they say they want you to live.



but then they leave you.



who am i supposed to trust now?



who am i supposed to tell all my worries and compaints to?



people are such hypocritical jerks.



they dont love me they only love themselves.





call me emo. go ahead. i dont give a fuck what you say about me anymore.



ive endured such pain that i keep on having seisures.



everytime i think about what happened the seisures start and i get dizzy.



so the next time you think about saying i love you to me think "do i mean these words?"



maybe ill have a big seisure this time and ill bite off my tounge and bleed to death ill drown in my own blood. that will make everyone happy. you wont have to deal with my emo "bitchingness" anymore.

Romanticide (by nightwish)
22:29 Oct 13 2009
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God love and rest my soul

With this sun down, never ending

The feeling is gone, yet you ain't gonna see me fail

I am the decadence of your world,

I am an eider covered in oil

Happy hunting, you double-faced carnivore



Tell me why,

No heart to cry

Hang me high!



The music is dead, the amen is said

The kiss of faith is what I beg

A loving heart and soul for sale



Tell me why,

No heart to cry

Hang me high!



Leave me be,

And cease to tell me how to feel

To grieve, to shield myself from evil

Leave me be,

OD of lies is killing me

Romanticide...

Till love do me part!



See me ruined by my own creations



Leave me be,

And cease to tell me how to feel

To grieve, to shield myself from evil

Leave me be,

OD of lies is killing me

Romanticide...

Till love do me part!



Dead Boy's alive but without sense,

I need a near-death experience

Heart once bold,

Now turned to stone

Perfection, my messenger from Hell



Wine turns to water,

Campfires freeze,

Love letters burn,

Romance is lost

Lord, let me be wrong in this pain



Temporary pain, eternal shame

To take part in this Devil's chess game

Spit on me, let me go, get rid of me,

And try to survive your stupidity!

my cellphone is broken because.
21:51 Oct 13 2009
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a few nights ago a person on here (im not mentionaing any names) you know who you are. kept touching me innappropreatly in RP form. i warned him many times but he wouldnt stop. my boyfriend got online as me and told that certian someone off and then blocked him. then as he was telling him off i said "there goes my coven idea" and he got mad and hung up on me he didnt let me finish my sentence so i got angry and grabbed a small flashlight and stormed out the door and into the orchard behind my house i was headed for the river for some broken glass to use for cutting myself. mind you i havnt cut myself in almost two months(i just threw that out the frickin window)

well i didnt get there because i got to the river and didnt pick up any glass(the next day though i did)

i saw a snake an went home. well i called my boyfriend and he started acting like a prick so i got mad and said "call me when MY George comes back" then i threw my phone as hard as i could aginst the wall.

it broke and there were pieces sticking out of places that shouldnt have been and the keychain that was on it got broken......it was a big mess....so me and my bolyfriend made amends...but my phone is still broken...im not even sure if ill get a new one.i really hope my insurance pays for a new one. if not then i had better start looking for a job to pay for a new phone.....and yesterday afternoon i did go get a piece and i did cut myself with it....i feel very dissappointed with myself....cutting is something that bipolar females tend to do to release the stress....its a compulsion more than an addiction. id like that to get cleared up right now. im not cutting myself for fun i hope you know.

shes my sin lyrics (by nightwish)
19:19 Oct 13 2009
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Take heed, dear heart

Once apart, she can touch nor me nor you

Dressed as one

A wolf will betray a lamb



Lead astray the gazers

The razors on your seducing skin

In the meadow of sinful thoughts

Every flower`s perfect



To paradise with pleasure haunted by fear



A sin for him

Desire within

A burning veil

For the bride too dear for him

A sin for him

Desire within

Fall in love with your deep dark sin



I am the Fallen

You are what my sins enclose

Lust is not as creative

As its discovery



To paradise with pleasure haunted by fear



A sin for him...



Bless me, undress me

Pick your prey in a wicked way

God I must confess...

...I do envy the sïnners

emotional seisures.
18:04 Oct 13 2009
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emotional seisures arent really in exsistance in any medical book but its like this: you begin to feel dizzy your heart begins to race your head begins to hurt and then you start to black out but just before you do you go on a rampage of screaming yelling kicking and punching things over. i have these so called "emotional seisures" i also am bipolar. i take 19 different pills a day just so i can hold it together long enough not to hurt myself and/or others. these seisures may or may not go away as i get older. the bipolar disorder will never go away.im a very depressed person and i deal with and take in alot of shit from people and i dont need any more from random stupid idiots online.ive almost succeded in killing myself twice.lucky my boyfriend was there to talk sense into my drugged up brain. i want to stop cutting myself also but this compulsion to do things to hurt myself is too strong.

yeah i could try rubberbands and ice to stop cutting...but why would i use those when i could just make a promise to the people i love and not break the promise...one day ill stop...one day ill surprise everyone. but before that...i want everyone to stop blameing themselves