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Words not spoken
01:58 Mar 21 2017
Times Read: 318


In 1998 I was going through a lot in my life when I wrote this, 3 yrs into a marriage and not happy with how events had turned out and and the feeling of wanting to be with someone else, but remained faithful this is that poem



So much to say

So much I think

Each Penny I have

is for my thoughts



Many Years

and many months

How much can I take

So much that is on my mind



I try hard to speak

To say what my heart has felt

But all that is spoken is nothing

All but silent, not even a whisper



I want to hold on to some

but then what is held is gone

gone with a spoken word or thought

never again to be seen



To try and search is an endless game

A game that all have sought

but never returned

but also never found



But to not seek

words are found

not in our thoughts or mouth

but in writing

Sight Beyond Sight
01:58 Mar 21 2017
Times Read: 319


1998 it would seem I was pouring a lot of emotions out, I felt empty not sure as to why



Oh woe is me

can anyone out there hear me?

Can't someone even see me?

What must I do for someone to notice?



My heart cries out so much

but yet no one listens

visions envelope me, to show me the way

but yet I turn my back



Please someone tell me to listen

I need to find what path leads me

Leads me on my quest

A quest of travel, traveling through time



But I must have help

I must be noticed first

Only then can the two of us travel

Beyond the sea of realities



If found I can show all

I know all,

but only if someone can hear me

One life, two beats
01:57 Mar 21 2017
Times Read: 321


again another poem written in 1998. At this time my marriage was failing, I was struggling with alcoholism, depressed and hating life. I was out of control and so were my emotions at the time when I wrote this because I was falling in love with another man and was torn between my marriage and him.



What can one tell if their love is true?

How can it be said if the heart beats for two

Those inner feelings felt for both, yet can lead only one life

Which to choose is the question asked?

Then so is the heart beating for two

The one loved and living with

the other one that yerns to live another life

The heart now torn in two

Is only left with a broken heart and sorrow

So it can only be said that life has to go on

and a choice must be made

For only then can the pain, suffering and sorrow

be left behind