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People are so nice. Maybe its because I'm determined to be nice because its rewarding in soul. Its gonna take one heck of a Chanukah miracle to get us out of this. And I'm just delusional enough to believe it.

There are so many rants that I've withheld. I think the only thing bothering me most is that I'm not gonna spend the special thanksgiving/chanukah with anyone I love during the day. Just gonna work, yeeh.

I had such a great time today. I spent about six hours of nonstop talking. We walked and walked and I was freezing but once I held his hand, I actually felt warm. Chinese food from Wo Hop and a red velvet cannoli from Little Italy. I feel extremely comfortable with this one.



After the date, I came home and went to a thanksgiving themed party. I'm totally stuffed lol.

Ha, it figures id have a nightmare. "I can't be late! It isn't right, what do I do? The trains aren't coming and its already 11:25 ." lol What a stupid dream, all about today. AND I woke up at 6:30am. -.-

Today, this morning I'll be meeting this guy for the first time. I guess I was so excited that I was traveling in my sleep, lol. He's probably on a train by now because he has much more of a travel than I do. My train is only 40 minutes to an hour at most.

I usually meet first dates at Chinatown because its so touristy that if they happen to be a creep, there are enough people around for me to be safe. Well, here starts a good day! :)

More bad news. We have to go to housing court the day before thanksgiving. :/ It's been so hard to spend time helping everyone at home, working 60 hour weeks and trying to make time for myself. For the next two weeks I'm going to work 50 hour weeks because I would like to spend some time with the family on Chanukah. I'm thankful for all the food and clothing I get. Its helped a lot. I don't expect gifts like most people. I don't believe in it. But the amount of people who give without having been asked is very heartwarming and unexpected. Though I may not have a roof over my head for long, I really appreciate every penny. :)

I keep not writing here because I'm so distracted by this awesome man. Last Sunday on the way to therapy, I almost got hit by a car. If there hadn't been a parked car for them to crash into, I don't think I'd have been typing this right now. Heh.

My therapist kept telling me these past weeks that she thinks I'm obsessed with dating but I don't think I am. I just want to keep on trying. I know, I know, I shouldn't be so excited but I am. I can't help it. We have so much in common. And he's intelligent. That's a huge plus.



We end up talking about food lol. And get into conversations about something as simple as how good carrot juice is, to what our favorite cheeses are to how much we miss summers watermelon.

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DuckStar
05:48 Nov 20 2013

Hey, sometimes through dating you learn a lot about yourself. Including what you like, what you want, and what you'd rather do without.



Good luck with the dating!

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I went to a briss today. I didn't pay attention to it, I just cared about the food. Lol What don't judge me? >.> The had a ton of chocolate.

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BLOODLIFE
01:28 Nov 19 2013

I go for the fish balls ... just make sure they are 'fish balls'!!!

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I'll never understand people who go out of their way to insult other peoples beliefs and make bunches of contradictions just to feel better about themselves, while never completing anything. Then again, maybe you've insulted me by being one of them. Don't worry, I'll butt out. I'm too busy working on myself.

I'm so freaking excited. Eeeeee! :D I can't wait to meet this guy. I want you!! Smart, sexy beard and vegetarian. Rawr! Lol

Is it more important than working extra shifts to meet you? Hell to the fuck yes! :P

I wish you were out of my thoughts. It's killing my peacefulness. There is no going back.

I used to write a lot in another journal, then erase it. I feel trapped because I can't express myself with so many unwanted adds. People might have described me as a troll but I'm not. I feel for people, I secretly love them as much as I hate them.



I enjoy the kindness I receive from randoms but lets face it, I can be a stuck up bitch and why not? :/ I'm picky! I have all the passion in the world as an artsy type but if you can't crack my shell, then I might as well be stuck as a loner.

Dear whatever the heck,

Please let them have pumpkin curry today, like last year.