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Nice long shower. Neon pink nails and a new pair of black Rugged Outback boots. :3

Meh, it's gonna snow today, all day. Don't get me wrong- snow is lovely. I don't have boots. I forgot to buy myself a decent pair. :( The pair I had, Rugged Outback steel toes, that I loved, died last year. They totally kicked ass. That's the true reason to get steel toes. >.>



I've been wearing crocs with socks all this time. Fashion police can kiss my ass. :P



Think I might cancel out the doctor's. :s Make it for this Thursday instead so I don't die in the cold. lol

Nervous about tomorrow and the doctor's appointment. I don't think I'll have anything done so fast. They'd have to make a whole other appointment. When/if I do, the other doctor said it'd be outpatient surgery and wouldn't take so long to heal. Said that most doctor's remove it and do testing after it's out.



They think it's a cyst. Not the normal pimple kind, more like one caused over time from some sort of trauma. It feels like a hard rock in my knee, near the side, in the front. I've had it for some time... never thought about it till I got up the guts to ask.



Good news to me is that it doesn't seem to be cancer. I only assume it's not. :P



It still scares me. Yes, the girl who can sit through piercings/tattoos and giggle. Out of all the past minor surgeries done, awake, and I'm scared shitless at the moment. xD



I wonder if this surgery will put me to sleep. I never experienced being put to sleep before. Not even for my wisdom teeth, which were taken out while I was awake and 15 years old.



I know I'll be okay. Extremely scared, yeah, but okay. :P

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PandorasBx
22:03 Nov 26 2012

Keep that positive attitude Rose, I'll be thinking of you ~huggles~.

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Iamhell
05:45 Nov 27 2012

Good thoughts and energy for you :)

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I have Tim Tams! Yay! :D :D :D Katy and Erin have been telling me about these for the longest. I *had* to taste the Australian treat. :3

I was shopping at Target, I once read on Wiki that they can only be gotten during the fall. Apparently October to March, so it's in the winter as well. The one I tasted was chocolate Crème. o: They also had caramel, didn't try that though.



From wiki about Tim Tam's in the US-

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PandorasBx
02:49 Nov 26 2012

You said you tasted them but not whether you liked them or not little missy :P

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xRosex
02:54 Nov 26 2012

I LOVE them. :D

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Lullaby
08:07 Nov 26 2012

Yum yum! ;P

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I've rested for hours and have hardly walked, my legs ache bad. Sucks, this week is going to be busy. As long as I don't over lift anything (Haha, that's a joke for this Saturday...) I should be fine.



3 hours need to pass faster. >.> I want to get some new clothes, then rest more, later.



Played Wii boxing earlier, that didn't last long. The game fucked up in between and I couldn't be bothered re-starting.

Was playing a browser game in the art chat. Someone gives you a letter or word to put into your search bar and you post the first link that comes up. Person in green asks, "porn", she gets a sub-reddit link, the other guy gets pornhub and I end up with a link to Swift and Shift online. Lmfao Wat!

Y my searched gotta be innocent? And what da fuq kind of porn is Swift and shift? lolol

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Lullaby
10:21 Nov 23 2012

LOL!

It has some pretty ick stuff. :P

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I am, so, SO glad I didn't go celebrate with anyone today. Family told me what was up at the party we were invited to. She said I would have been siting there bored out of my mind.

Not that it was that boring, only that I have an attitude problem where I hate everyone. lol

Had a nap earlier. In the dream all I wanted was the fruit pies that are apparently no longer being made these days. The ones by Drake's. Then there was a piercing in my hand. O.o I'm thinking I must have slept on my hand to imagine that.

A huge container of salsa. Fancy pumpkin pie. ♥

I'm already full.

We also got mashed potatoes, sweet potatoes, stuffing, a whole already cooked turkey, potato salad, and so much other stuff.



I've only had one piece of pie and some salsa with chips; so stuffed, can't eat another bite. I want more though, lol.



It's a holiday miracle! We didn't go shopping, this happened.

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PandorasBx
22:30 Nov 21 2012

YAY! Funny how the more you eat in half an hour you want more lol. God bless the holidays :D

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We're celebrating this early. Long story short and lack of details. Let's just say, yay, we've got food! :D



As long as I have food, I feel like the luckiest girl in the world.

Yes! I found purple nail polish! That is gonna make my day. :D

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Lullaby
07:26 Nov 21 2012

I wish. ;_; I love orange and purple together, but it's gotta be bright orange. Yellow/orange also work, and so do yellow/brown. :3 ALL of those colours work together, really. :D

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I don't even know what the point was of going there. The guy hardly did anything. Said I had flat feet and that was the problem. You've gotta be kidding me. I spent my whole life with that, haven't played many sports that last few years and now that is why my hip hurts? Pftt. They said they need x-rays. Hello! Why did I take them last June for you to tell me nothing now? Then for them to tell me I need special soles in my shoes. I don't want to wear shoes. Hell, I can't afford this bullshit.



Oh well. At least I know so far that I think I'm right about what I was worried about most. *BUT* I have to go to a whole other doctor to get my knee checked out. -.-' Possible surgery for that. Ugh, the thought of it makes me uneasy. Nothing so bad, a quick removal of something there, if anything. I have no idea because I have to make an appointment. I'm leaving out details, since I'm not a doctor and can't tell you what it is that's wrong on my knee yet.



Thanksgiving this Thursday. I honestly don't want to celebrate. I want to be alone...

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Lullaby
04:12 Nov 21 2012

I wish I could lay my godly little hands and proclaim in a godly little voice, "Roser, be healed!" but I can't. I wish I could fix your pain. :(

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xRosex
04:26 Nov 21 2012

My mother did that to her mother once and it worked. xD I should ask her to massage my hurty places or something.



I'll be okay!

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Nothing like a long shower to soothe the mind.

-I wish I had a hair cut. I miss where it slightly curled at the end in one curl. It's many curls with the length it's at now. Feels a bit wild and out of place.

I never used to like hair cuts. Everyone seemed to want to force it on me and I didn't like that. Now that I have control of what *I'd* want, I feel it's time to care for it more.

-I wish I could find my neon pink nail polish. My hands haven't been rough in months because I've been without stupid work which used to ruin them. Must have misplaced all my polishes. T_T

They've all grown so long. :3 Not any broken. (No jinx on that. heh.)

Today I hadn't realized that I have to head to the foot doctor for my leg. I know the other doctor had mentioned an MRI. Thing is, I still have piercings that haven't healed and I'm not going to be able to remove everything...



Another thing on my mind is that I have to mention something else about my leg that I never did tell any doctor. It scares me. To talk about that is. It's probably nothing, or I can keep telling myself that. Panic attack, here I come!



I'm pacing as I write, heh. Guess I can be worried for myself beforehand. Trying to read up on symptoms online.



I should just... go on and tell him about it. Afraid that it will eventually end in a surgery. I don't know. I'm only assuming.



I should stop writing and overly thinking about it.

Sibling sneaks off to lay in my bed. Somehow manages to sleep exactly in my spot on it. I yell, omg, not *that* pillow, it's the one I drool on when sleeping. Lmfao She got up so fast it was funny. >.>

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BLOODLIFE
13:53 Nov 19 2012

You're just wicked :-p

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ladybriarrose
17:16 Nov 19 2012

Funny AND effective. Score! *laughs*

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Maaan, who the fuck reports my image like that? They fuckin' log me out and ask me if I'm spam 'n shit. It's all because I wrote specifically *not* to report me. Innit? The whole share gets reported, yet I can still have it up? This makes no sense. My tattooist has naked people on his wall, in an artistic fashion.



Well fuckedy-fuck. I want to remove backstabbing bastards. Don't even get me started on what the rules are. I've read them and some dickwad knew I wouldn't be fighting back for it.



How do I know it was reported and not a random take down? Because I know people with worse images. Because I have worse images collected somewhere else and to this day, they aren't taken down. You've got a lot of nerve, whoever you are, reportin' shit.



/End rant

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BLOODLIFE
11:32 Nov 19 2012

I wrote a witty retort on that FB post and found I wasn't allowed to leave you comments :-(

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xRosex
11:38 Nov 19 2012

Aww. xD



If it was the one from a few seconds ago it might have been because I erased the post itself. xD Then re-worded it.

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tr1n1ty01
11:52 Nov 19 2012

People are out of control on fb with reporting images. I admin on a 18+ page on there and people report the most stupid crap. If they don't like what they see, they just need to unlike the page....



Let others enjoy in peace...

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xRosex
11:56 Nov 19 2012

I know the feeling. I've seen some pretty epic pages go down. ):

Not mine so far.



And I guess to make it clear what sort of nakedness I was talking about- it was hardly any sort of nipples on a piece of artwork.

Don't think I wrote that in this entry for those of you who haven't seen it.

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> Click on someone's wall.

> Listen to their musics.

> Omg, ear candy.

> T_T Damn them.

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Lullaby
22:20 Nov 18 2012

My fault? >_>

Sadly, that's the only song by that band that's like that. The others are all... trans-poppy.

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Lullaby
22:20 Nov 18 2012

My fault? >_>

Sadly, that's the only song by that band that's like that. The others are all... trans-poppy.

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xRosex
23:20 Nov 18 2012

Trans-poppy? O.o I know what it means but that sounds so weird. :P Like Transfat popcorn, Idk. xD



Yes, it is your fault. xD Don't know how you knew.

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Lullaby
10:23 Nov 21 2012

;P

I am a ninja!

Hahaha

Because you liked the song? xD



Not all are trans-poppy, but they're different. I was listening to the band talk on the radio, and they were laughing at how many people really adore the song, considering it's not their usual style. But hey say their style is "Whatever comes to mind" so... it works lol.

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"You've got a drinking problem Rose." Something a guy said to me last July. And you know what? I think it's gotten worse. To finish his statement, "You drink so much of that damn water!!" Hehehe

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Lullaby
23:21 Nov 17 2012

Brb, seven hou- :P

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xRosex
23:57 Nov 17 2012

7 HOUR PISS!



That happened after my nap today. xD

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Found a better copy of Werck-It Ralph! Yay! Re-watching. :)

I yelled at a package of paper cups for falling down. That's when I heard everyone laughing at me. Then I realized how silly I was acting and smiled, too. >_>

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Seshat
16:05 Nov 15 2012

STUPID CUPS!

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Woke up irrationally angry. Angry at everything and anyone. Then I stub my foot on something, which ends up being sharp and yay for a cut going across my toes. -.-



Grrr, GRRRRRR. I only hope I don't snap at the wrong person. Beating up an inanimate object isn't going to solve a foot slashin'. xD

People just ask for too much. I went with plan B. Was enjoying myself, but this one wants this and that and she has to do her home work and put away the rest of the food and... and I fucking had it, crying out "why", for 5 minutes. My Medusa ran up to me, meowed, took her paw and pulled my hand to pet her. xD



I know I have good friends and animal friends that don't want to see me like this. I don't even want to see me like this. My friends are wonderful.



Thing is- I can hide the feelings all I want, but they are there.

Shit happens, time for me to move on.

I have an idea.



I'll tell ya, I've got a vindictive way of thinking. I can't help it. Updates on what happens tomorrow.



Tonight is just getting started. Either way, I plan to watch more of Boardwalk Empire when I get home. Get my mind off of things.

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xxxPoisonIvyxxx
23:34 Nov 14 2012

Love Boardwalk Empire!

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xRosex
23:41 Nov 14 2012

Started watching it yesterday night. It's awesome. :P



Thinking if I go with plan B of watching it when I get home, I might even order pizza. hehe

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Lullaby
01:48 Nov 15 2012

O.o



I am so, so jealous of you right now.

I want Boardwalk Empire and pizza. :(

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Half of me doesn't care anymore. Maybe it's my inner demons so to speak. The other half says, you don't know unless you try.



To even bother going or to go with a possibility of feeling all moody after?



My feelings tell me there's a 75% chance that I'm not going to like who I am in about 3 hours time.

Wow, what a good show. I should be sleeping. >.> I want to watch all their seasons.

Tomorrow, hmm.



I feel much better.



Wait, WAIT. o_o I just realized I almost missed someone's birthday. Opps. Looks like we're seeing each other anyway though. xD



I can be forgetful. :x



Tomorrow is going to be a hit or miss. If shit ain't working out, then, oh well. If it does work out though, I'd be very happy for once. I'm... not holding my breath is all.

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Lullaby
07:35 Nov 14 2012

He better be nice. :o

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I had a nightmare that I ate a Pokemon. It tasted like candy. Then two guys were chasing me because of that. One had a shovel. o_O



Wtf? xD



Okay, I get that most of these dreams end up with me eating something but why am I now attacking Pokemon? xD

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Sabastianthebat
02:42 Nov 14 2012

Thats pretty hilarious =D

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You know what I feel like? A ton of bricks. Ugh. My whole body aches like I got sick. Maybe it's from the flu shot? xD



I want to waste the whole day in bed. x_x

Don't over think, damn me. Stay strong. Be blunt. It'll all be okay.

3 year anni if I had the original.

Here it was, I just wanted someone to talk to. My reason for joining. To get away from what was going on at the time. One cold November night, doing laundry near the computer cafe'.

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BLOODLIFE
12:17 Nov 10 2012

...and a legend was born :-p

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Oceanne
14:53 Nov 10 2012

Heh,I like that one BL.







Glad you came!!!

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Blood tests results are back from when I went to the doctor's a few days ago. Vitamin D is low. Just like last time.



Idk what I'm doing wrong. ._. Besides the usual "Fuck you sun, I go out at night, man." :x



Lolol



Blah, well, I have to pick up pills for that.

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tr1n1ty01
15:24 Nov 09 2012

I had the same thing except she said I had none! :/



Took 2000 IU of vitamin D a day. I need to get back to that as a matter of fact.

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xRosex
15:28 Nov 09 2012

Doctor also said I have to take B12 because of my new diet. xP



Guess I don't eat what I should be eating. Tsk on me for being picky.

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Off to manic land!

Hyperactive thought strand.

Frantic creativity,

Talented ability.

Three days melt into one,

Slumber is shun.

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Lullaby
01:14 Nov 09 2012

YAY! ♥

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I'd walk to the end of the world with you if we could, hand in hand.

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PandorasBx
03:10 Nov 07 2012

♥

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"You can be my Tentacle Monster. :E"



"U know I'll always be urs. :3"

I'm the brat who has too much time on her hands. I'm in such a mood. Everyone's sleeping and I want them to get up. I want their company like an attention seeking pet. lol

I want to cook and clean and make 'em happy but I can't seem to find half my clothes so I can go out to buy stuff. xD Guess that part will wait a few more hours. No "surprise breakfast time". hehe

I had a dream that I was on a quest for iced coffee and I never did get it. -.-'



I must be stupid, every other dream is about food.

:x

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Lullaby
18:36 Nov 04 2012

Better than nightmares about being murdered~

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I feel sick and bitchy all at the same time. I'm going to cook for myself and I don't think I'm above growling at anyone who asks for some. :x They all had their own food today, it's my turn.

Fuuu. The parts of my hair that were sprayed blue now have turned my hair red/brown. T_T

Those few days after Halloween when all the chocolate is gone and all you have left is hard candy.



I'm here sucking (Which really means biting, chewing, crunching) lollies and I can't sleep. Woah sugar rush. I want a banana.

I woke up on the wrong side of the bed. I can't wait till next week. When we can meet. You're the one who seems to make me happy these days, even when I hold doubt over everyone when I shouldn't. You prove me wrong. The one time I like being wrong. :)

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PandorasBx
02:56 Nov 02 2012

Oooooolala. Glad you have someone that makes you feel that way Rose, you deserve it.

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You're too cold.

Make me sick and don't have anything fun or worth celebrating.

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deathnitegrl
10:54 Nov 10 2012

Indeed :(

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