So i have a new boyfreind.and im happy with who i asked. its kinda funny the way i asked him out but hey it was cute at the same time.the other day it rained and i was outside at the park swinging in the cool rain and he saw me while he was riding his bike he told me he always wanted to kiss someone in the rain i thought that was sweet so we kissed in the rain. The guy i've finaly got over was the first guy i kissed in the rain. but know that i think of it that kiss didnt seem to mean anything to him.and now it means nothing to me.im glad the new guy is in my life he is helping me alot.but i still wish that i had listened to all my freinds when they told me the old guy was no good but i refused to listen i wanted to belive there was some good in his heart but it ends up the only time it seem's that he has good in his heart is when he wants something.but now i am happy i feel alot less stressed . i can finaly sleep without waking up alot. I'm calmer to. he taught me lots for those 7 months I liked him but now its over im not letting him back into my head.
I've moved on
i quit my job... moday is my last day..i cant stand it anymore...those people suck..its not worth it.but i had a great b-day..im so happy..some how 6 of the people from the party my freind through me ended up at my house all night..i woke up to my freinds cell phone. i thought it was mine then i renembered i dont have one..i have'nt in about a year. so i woke up and noticed 6 girls asleep on my floor.and i went out side to find a guy at my door.but i had fun for the most part..
its my 17th b-day....my freind is thowin me a party later on today . she's awsome...and i decided guys suck and to not invite any of them to my party..all they do is try to get down my pants and i dont need that today.. but im in a great mood..
so i decided to write today....well i got a job i work 8 hours and 45 minutes a day makeing 7 dollars an hour..ya ..so the guy ive been in love with stoped telling me he loves me,stopped holding my hand, stopped biting me...stopped kissing me, stopped having sex with me, so im gussing he stopped liking me..well fuck him see what i care he never loved me anough to be with me in the first place so i guess its all for the best. now i have to chose which of the 4 guys that keep asking me out do i want to be with.i wish a new guy one that is better would come in to the picture that way it would be easy all i would have to say is i want to be with him and i would be happy.but things never end up the way i want them.things never end up the way the should.things never end up the way there predicted to end up.things never end up happy.so its obvious i wont get what i want i never get what i want.oh well i sound like im emo. at least im earning money now. and have freinds that are there for me. i may never have the true love ive always dream of . but why do we dream they are what we can never reach................
p.s. love hurts .....get over it...i will
*-alyssa-*
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