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I have come here

Just to inform you...

I'm NOT sorry,

For what I shall do.

I have no guilt

Nor shame,

For leaving you

To your life game.

Life holds nothing...

Nothing for me.

No purpose.

Only misery.

I'm in debt.

I'm in pain.

I cry, knowing

I'm not sane.

Cause I see me dead.

A grewsome scene.

My knife in my throat.

The bloodiest of dreams.

Chris will find me.

He'll call the police.

But I'll be long gone,

Still wishing for peace.



No one gives a fuck.

No one will care,

While at my corpse,

They'll stare.

Just another one.

Another fucked up kid.

You're better off

With what I did.

I went quiet.

I went alone.

I went to find

A new home.

I'm with the others.

Those like me.

Helpless, lost, dead...

Gathered alone in our misery.



I know.

I'm going to hell.

But it's probably

Just as well.

Mom. Dad.

I love you.

I just don't know

What else I can do.

I'm sick of hurting.

I'm sick of crying.

I'm sick of all the

Pieces of me dieing.



I'd feel empty

If not for the rage.

If not for all this hate

Pushing me to this stage.



Kristin...

Fuck you.

You took away

All I knew.



Rina...

Fuck you...

You drove me

To this too.



All of you.

You could see.

You all knew what

Was happening to me.

You watched me.

Losing my mind.

So all you fucks...

Leave your jokes behind.

You're all responsible.

You could have stopped this.

But you never cared.

You all wanted this.



The time has come.

This is what I need to do.

I just needed to leave

Something for all of you.

I hope you enjoy this.

I wrote it just for you.

This is it.

my final "FUCK YOU"

An erotic night in which she had planned

As I gave in to her every demand

Her skin like milk and body so cold

My soul once mine has now been sold

Her eyes they glowed in the pitch black room

With a smile on her face to seal my doom

Her nails so sharp she scraped down my chest

My blood then trickled onto her breasts

We shared our blood in the passion and fire

A taste so sweet that we both now desire

Eyes pressed you know nothing of what your doing,

you must know this energy, feel this energy, have this energy,

walk to me, sit with me, look at me

you already crossed the line

you walk with me outside, into the cool of the moonlight

my hair billows in the breeze, you smile

the shine of my skin is new, like I have just become apart of something,

something you know nothing of,

"show me why", you say

"show you what", I answer,

I don't understand why you want to see,

you know nothing, you are ignorant to my power,

to my light, or to my darkness,

the tan of your fingers glide down my side,

stare, you begin to trance, not because I want you to,

but more because you have to,

you kiss me, I kiss you, then smile,

you seem nervous, but you still want to know,

kiss, kiss, kiss, what about the rest of your wonderful figure?

I kiss you neck, my lips feel the blood rushing through your veins,

they can sense the warmth, like electricity pulling me to it,

I nick your neck, you shudder, then I lean back in,

ah, do you know yet? no, you want to know more,

I dig my nails into your back, just the way you like it I sense,

smile, I feed my every want, druck with feeling, with blood,

you begin to let go, to give in, you want to be done,

done you say? get what you wish for,

dry, done, you begin to fall from my hands,

lick the blood from my lips,

so you can taste life in form...

A Broken Mirror

A Distorted Face

A Shattered Heart

A Clear Distaste



A Fallen Tear

A Reddened Eye

A Downturned Mouth

A year Gone By



A Loaded Gun

A Finished Fear

A bloodied Wall

A Broken Mirror

I am here forever and I'll never dissapear, I'm not afraid of death so I never have to fear,



I ride the wind alone I forever walk the night, I see threw many eyes I am the shadow out of light,



When you take me by my hand and tell me you want to be like me, I think of the life I have to live and the pain you can't see, And you know about me now So my secret is no longer safe, the decision thats infront of me now will decide your fate,



I am the years that pass I've done what could be done, I live upon the pain I live alone as one,



I fly in the moonlight I run the forest floors, I live in another world I hold the keys to all the doors, When you take me by my hand and tell me you want to be like me, I think of the life I have to live and the pain you can't see, And you know about me know So my secret is no longer safe, the decision thats infront of me now will decide your fate,



I'd love to bring you in I love to play my games, I'd love to bring you in and watch you grow insane,



I do this from my hate I hate I can't find love, the closest thing I have Is the love I have for blood