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My heart and soul are both filled with light yet darkness for i have to worry about my dads health and my mans and mine. my dad has had several massive heartaches since i was born and now has diabetes 2 along with bad back and legs. my man who is only 29, ex army and military though they can call him back in has a serious disease that quite a few have though its not heard of very much. no its not aids or anything like that.

me myself have disability too and im only turning 25.

my life has not been easy one for me for ive moved around alot when i was growing up,had to say bye to true friends and get backstabed,betrayed,pushed around and used by those who have claimed to be my friends. ive dated guys who used me,abused physically/emotionaly/spiritualy/and any other way they could,walk all over me,do drugs and so on. ive learned that my mom is not the person i thought she was when i was a kid instead she is a person i disown. sorry but there is a very good reason. i have given her plenty of chances to be in life but she keeps messing up.

i am now with a great guy and have been for two years. he respects me,loves me,cherishes me and so on. though im in love with him and a man from my past who was my ray of light years ago and still is today i am happy with my man and will not leave him for anyone.

i deal with the pain and troubles life throws at me though at times i do get very depressed and cry alot or just get mad.

My soul deals as best it can and if that is not good enough for some im sorry but i can not help you.

everyone has troubles in their life and can not be full of goodness and happines always. life comes at us hard sometimes and mine has been full of hardness and troubles with a few good spots of light and love.

i had my best friend/uncle die less than 2 weeks after i turned 16 so i was real down then. that is when my first love/soulmate poped into my life and thank goodness he did too. he gave me light and joy and love when i really neeeded it

well that is enough for now

BLESSED BE

Signs of the Zodiac - Cancer



Glyph of Cancer



Glyph: Cancer glyph



Symbol: Crab



Ruler: Moon



Exaltation: Jupiter & Neptune



Detriment: Saturn



Fall: Mars



Polarity: Negative/Female



Element: Water



Quality: Cardinal



Opposite Sign: Capricorn



Colour: Sea Green, Silver, pale blue



Phrase: I FEEL or I CARE



Quote: People who live in glass houses shouldn't throw stones - Proverb



General Characteristics: careful, caring, cautious, changeable, clinging, cuddly, deep feelings, emotional, everything will be loved, protected, cherished; hearty, helpful, home-loving, homemaker, imaginative, intuitive, kind, loving, maternal, moody, over-sensitive, panic-stricken, patriotic, pensive, possessive, protective, resourceful, shrewd, soft, solicitous, soppy, strong attachments, sympathetic, tenacious, thrifty, touchy, tough, vulnerable, warm, winsome, worried



Body Parts Ruled: breasts, breastbone, stomach, alimentary canal, lower ribs, womb, pancreas



Objects and things: history, home, water, boats, cooking utensils, gardening tools, home appliances, photographs, potted plants, souvenirs, swimming pools, sailing, sewing, cooking



Foods: cabbage, lettuce, mushrooms, olives, pumpkin, turnip, verbena, tarragon, milk, fish, fruits, vegetables



Flowers and trees: larkspur, acanthus, trees rich in sap, saxifrage, white rose, flax, chickweed, convolvulus, lily, water lily, maple, geranium, cow parsley



Animals: those with shells



Countries: Scotland, Holland, New Zealand, N.& W Africa, Paraguay, Algeria



Cities: Algiers, Amsterdam, Berne, Cadiz, Genoa, Istanbul, Magdeburg, Manchester (UK), Milan, New York, Stockholm, Tokyo, Tunis, Venice



Gemstones: moonstone, pearl



Metal: silver



Fixed Stars and approximate degrees: 6 Mirzam; 14 Sirius; 19 Wasat; 19 Propus; 25 Procyon

The sign of Cancer witnesses to the importance of a sense of belonging in human life. It is, more than any other, the sign of home and family, but, fortunately in view of the conditions of modern life, not necessarily home and family in a literal sense. Having the Sun in Cancer, what you are striving for, whether consciously or not, is a sense that, whatever your circumstances, there is a place on earth, or an experience, or a group of people, or an interest, which can give you a sense of belonging, where you can feel at home and that you are a member of a family.



The sign of Cancer also witnesses to the importance of roots, or origins, of considering the present in relation to the past. Many people feel they can ignore the past, yet feel something is lacking from their lives. Cancerians enrich the present by honouring its links to history.



Since Cancerians have a need to feel they belong, they can be very reluctant to let go of or move on from situations that give them a sense of emotional security, and sometimes it is necessary to move on. Cancer is ruled by the Moon, and to have the Sun in the Moon's sign can indicate a reluctance to leave the realm of Mother, childhood home and family in order to undertake the solar task of becoming an individual in one's own right. This task is symbolised by the move from Cancer to the next sign Leo, which is ruled by the Sun.



Cancer is a water sign, and the psychological opposite is air, the thinking function. If you chart is lacking in planets in air, you are likely to find it difficult to view emotionally complex situations in which you may find yourself with any detachment. This can lead to compatibility issues in love relationships. You may be described as 'over-emotional' by people whose charts are dominated by the element of air - and maybe you see them as too detached! Suppose you have the Moon in Aquarius - an air sign - to complement your Cancerian Sun. You may be instinctively drawn to an ideal (an air phenomenon) that conflicts with your need to belong, and you have to perform an inner negotiation to honour both parts of your own nature.



The above is just a brief sketch of the sort of qualities Cancer should be aiming for. If you are experiencing difficulties on the way, the rest of your birth chart will indicate where these difficulties are, and a consultation would very likely provide clues as to how to deal with them. All aspects of our nature, as represented by the planets in signs and houses of our charts, need to be honoured and respected if the Sun is to effectively pursue its aims.