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so i know i havent been on here in a long time and i have been kicked out of umbra octo due to my lack of presence here but i feel as if i should let everyone know whats going on with me since most of you are like family...umm..well to start off i have been missing due to a mental breakdown caused by the break up of my ex fiance lizz...i know most people would and have said just get over it...but the fact is it was easier said then done...im not gonna lie and say i dont miss her because i do but the simple truth is i am fully aware that she is never coming back and i needed to accept that fact...i know i have been absent for several months and i do apologize for this...i had personal matter of which i had to attend too such as spending 48 days in the hospital due to a suicidal drug overdose on perscription pills...i do hope everyone understands and supports me through my tough times although most will probably say "so what i go through tough times also" but i must say that everyone handle every situation differently and unfortunetaly i took the break up badly...so i guess i will stop this journal here in hopes that i still maintain the friends i once had and am eager of regaining my status of the house Umbra Octo...