i don't know how to act
i got horrible news dec29th
my father died
should i be upset yes
am i not really
maybe its shock
or maybe i am just dead inside
i barely knew him
it was his choice
no one will tell me where the funeral is
or anything
so i can at least send something if unable to go
what to do
when ur caught in a web unable to get out
when that side hates u for no reason
other than u were born
what to do when u need to see him
even when he is dead
just to be sure what they say is true
what to do when all ur options are gone
what to do when ur forced to believe
what the family that hates u says.
i have awakend
slowly it has happened
im getting more power each day
learning new things i can do
sometimes its fun
sometimes its scary
when u can reach out and touch someone
who isn't real or in a dream
you go where your heart sends u
you never know what will happen
i feel the urge to feed it gets stronger
as thedays go by
i hide all that i am
from everyone in fear
that no one will accept or understand me
so i go through this alone
i do not know any other way to do it
i don't understand any of it but i will fight
as i walk alone i will awaken
time is not here
not on my side
goes too fast
and then too slow
the day feels never ending
the night goes by too quick
if only i could make the night last longer
the days quicker
time feels like it stops and freezes
what to do when ur bored
what to when u crave blood during the day
but you don't go out for fear of being discovered
how do u help what can't be changed
when things are as they are
and all u want is more time to do everything u dream
someone tells u they love u
only to stab u in theback
y do people try so hard to be someones friend
when in the end all they get is pain
i tell the truth and and i am the liar
bombarded by hateful words
and ill i think about is revenge
howill get even wit everyone who has hurtme
one way or another it will happen
i am not to be betrayed
so if its to be ill remain single and alone
like i was meant to be
dn't got time for ppl to say shit to me or bout me
so im done trying to be friends and done trying to be in a relationship
i will never betrayed again.....
one day
ill come to you in the night
you will be scared
but only for a lil while
then you will feel alive
like you have never felt before
you will see the world how i see it
as a playground full of dinner
as you wake ill teach
as u grow hungry ill feed u
as you crave sex ill give it too u
cause im the thing thats in the darkness
one you need to watch out for
sneaks up too get u when ur not lookin
my little girl
you came so early
my water broke oct28th
my labor started oct31st
you were born nov1st
you were so small i didn't know what to think
i was scared u wouldn't make it
but you were a fighter
you wanted to be here
i wanted you here
that was a month ago
now your bigger stronger
they say you will come home soon
i can't wait
but at the same time i am scared
you got sick needed a blood transfusion
now your doing well
but i am still worried
we will get ready to take you home
you will get sick again and we will have another delay
i love you so
but i don't know if i could handel anymore prob
so ill be positive
i love lookin in your eyez babygirl
your a fighter
your my angel
your my peace in this world
your my serenity in this crazy life
thats why ur named serenity
u mean the world to me
and i am glad your finally here and all mine
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