when i was 12, i had sex for the first time.i got pregnant for the first time. my mom didn't even know i was pregnant , the father denyed the fact that i was.he told me he didn't want any thing to do with me or the baby.9 months go by and on march 29th,1999 i gav birth to my son,riley-james matthew-jacob johnson. after i gave birth i called up the father and said i couldn't take care of him.the guy said he would come pick him up the next day from the hospital and take him home with him.for three years they lived up in hudson florida.when my son turned 4 they moved to minnisota to live with his new wife.two years went by and i only got to talk to my son on the phone .so when he turned 6 i was able to see him .him and his dad n his dads new wife were down in hudson visting family members. i went up there with my friend ,who helped me out through out my whole pregnancey, we got up there and i was able to see my son after 4 years. he came running up to me saying mommy over and over again. well that was a couple months ago. on july 23rd i got a call from his fathers wife saying that they got into a car accident and they died on impact.i cryed for the next three days. losing my son was the hardest thing to ever happen to me.i will miss him soo much.
you scream at me for something so little
i feel so different from you
like we are two totally different women living
in the same house but
living so far apart
growing up you were my best friend
now that i am older
we lost all that we had
growing up from what i remember
having no father
you were both and you always will be both
in my heart you have been
in my head you will stay
but in my live you wont leave
i cryed over bf after bf
you never did comforted me
i turned to food for what i needed from you
i get new friends you get uoset or mad when
i want to get away from here and hang out with them
why can't you see i need my space
i need room to grow and
learn from my mistakes not yours
i'm not like you.so i wont have the same mistakes
ket me learn my own way
let me grow up
let me live my own life
let me be myself
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