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Maybe i'm insane

but I guess that's okay now.



I swear, everyone will betray me in the end.

maybe that's why im abusing them now.



I feel so sick.



i'm trying to blame you

But I know I let you do this to me.



I was stupid.

But alot has changed now.



You changed.



Don't get along, huh?

What about all summer?



Was this your plan all along?

To make me insane over your toxic presence?



Well, you succeeded.

This is war.



I have weaknesses

But so do you.



You betrayed me.



now, you will face the consequences.



I'm strong.

And you will never see what you've done to me.



You will go down if it's the last thing I see.



I'm after revenge, and I will get it.



I can't believe I let you take advantage of me like this.



So many thoughts choke on your precious memory.

How could you do this to me?



But nevermind that now.



this is war.



You may have won the battle



But I will win my heart back.

I'm crying...



So, what?



I'm hurting...



So what?

No one cares.



But I can be better... I can wipe my tears away, redo my makeup. No one will ever know. I will put bandages on the cuts and ju-



Just what? Keep pretending everything is okay? I'm sick, and I know that. the people I trusted make me sick. I know that, I don't need to hear it from anyone else.



Appearently I do.



But what do I know? I'm sick, remember?



Don't feel sorry for myself.



I don't.



Oh, sure.



Really. I just feel sorry for other people that refuse to help themselves.



But what about me?



What about me? No one would care anyway. I need to stop expecting that other people care. I need to stop caring about people that don't give a crap about me.



That is easier said than done.



I know that. So what now?



Just keep suffering. Just do it quietly so that no one has to pretend they give a damn. That way I won't be lied to.



Sounds good to me.



No, it doesn't. It sounds awful.



But what other choice do I have?

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HaZyFaErY
18:58 Jan 26 2011

I care. I haven't been around a lot but I care.

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