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You make me want to scream

I hate you.

You left me here to die when I needed you the most.

Get out of my face.

I never want to see you again.



You make me want to cry.

You don't care.

I honestly wonder if you ever did.



Everyone is right.

I was stupid for trusting you.

I should have never opened up to you.



but you showed me life.

How beautiful life could be, espicially with someone else.

Even if you didn't believe it yourself.

You built me up.

You made me feel alive for once in my life.



You were the best thing that ever happened to me.



But you wrecked it.

You got scared, so you betrayed me.

Then you blamed me.



You lied to me.

You broke me.

You made me fall for you, with no intention of catching me.



So why am I still hanging on?

Why cant I move on?

Why do I still think about you?

Why do I still dream about you?



why can't you just wake uo and realize I am not the one to blame this time?



You almost killed me when I did nothing wrong.

You betrayed me.

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unknownskull48
01:59 Dec 29 2010

I can relate on this one.

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Why do I care so much about people that don't give a crap about me?



My thoughts are choking on your presence.



You made me fall for you with no intention of catching me.



Don't forget me.



If you're so strong, why was it so easy for me to scare you away?



If all I have left is nothing, i'll give you nothing.



You took everything. What's worse, I let you without a second thought.

And I still would up to this day.



You are too strong.



I dreaded the day you had to leave. Now, I dread the day you come back to break me all over again.



Break me once, shame on you. Break me twice, ill take the blame too.



Why can't things just go back to what they were?



You're right, I don't know you. I don't know where my friend went or what devil took over the body that so preciously was left behind.



You lifted me. You tore me down. You tricked me. You broke my heart. But I would do it all over again to see your face.



You think this is immature? Think about what you did, then call me childish again.



You think this is obsessive? Try letting go of your past. Yeah. It's hard.



I tried to let go, but you saved me. Now I wish you hadn't done anything.



If I promise to be your slave again, will you talk to me?



at least now im not numb like you.



I remember when you were here. Why can't you come back?



If I shut my eyes really tight, it almost doesn't hurt as much.



Sad songs were written to give people like me a feeling of not always being alone.



I don't regret knowing you. Only knowing what you've become.



I didn't do anything, but I am begging for forgiveness.



You did everything, and you don't even care what you did to me.



You will never know how many times ive cried over you. Or for you.

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unknownskull48
02:01 Dec 29 2010

:'(I cant finish this one.

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I'm sorry. I didn't know I scared you.

But you lied to me. You betrayed me, and you took advantage of my heart. My stupid, wild heart.

My only comfort is that you lied to yourself, too.



You blew it out of proportion, and made a mess of things.

But you still blamed it on me. And I took the blame without a second thought. Because I knew what it felt like to have someone else take everything from you. I knew what pain felt like and how it can make you act.

But the truth is that I didn't do anything.



I'm sorry I tried to care. That is my biggest flaw... that I care so damn much, about a person that doesn't give a shit about me.

But I know im not alone there... you don't care about anything. You think that you are the only one that has ever been hurt before?



You were the one that was hurt before. You know what it feels like. I know, because I was crying for you. Now I only cry because of you. Are you trying to make everyone else around you suffer, too? Is that it?

Because you did a pretty good job with me.



You have no idea how terribly you hurt me. And you never will. That is one satisfaction you will never have. You took everything from me. You stripped me of everything I am worth. And what's worse, I let you do it.

Because I didn't care about myself or my own feelings... just that you were happy.



You bit me when I was only trying to feed you.

I tried so hard to make it easier for you.

Because I knew what I could do for you. But you didn't give me the chance.



I feel so vulnerable now. I hide my feelings well... that is one thing we will always have in common. But hiding isn't going to do anything.



I promised you I was going to be here for you, no matter how long it takes. I haven't lost hope... maybe one day that will make a difference to you. It feels like I am waiting for rain in the middle of January. All im getting is snow.

But the seasons will change. And I am still wishing that so will you.



I have nothing left. But then i'll give you nothing. I will give you everything. I did that last time, and you ruined it. You ruined everything.

Then you blamed it on me and left me to clean up my own belongings. My heart was thrown against the wall, broken into a million pieces. My common sense was gone. My soul was crushed.

And you were gone.

But I picked myself up. It may not all be completely fixed... only you can help me with that.



Remember. Please.

You said you would never forget me, and I believe you.

Remember my embrace, and the way I held you as you tried to sleep. Remember laughing, and going to the beach. Remember watching the fireworks, and where we were when the earthquake hit. Remember telling me I looked like a man. Remember riding the roller coaster two extra times, and ducking our arms at the low parts. Remember getting closer that one night in my RV, and you were telling me about your past. Remember your dad hitting the grilled cheese with a stick, and going rock climbing.



Those memories made up the best Summer of my life. why did you have to take that away from me?



You told me how strong you were. How everything that happened made you stronger, and that you could take on the world. You lied.

You're weak. But the strong thing to do is admit that to yourself. Then accept me for what I am. A giver.



Don't tell me you don't need me. Don't push me away. Don't lie to me, because I know the truth. The truth that you have proved to me you can't handle.



You need to grow up and accept it. You need to be a man instead of hating me just because it feels good.



I'm not psychotic.

I'm not clingy.

I am not obsessive.

I am not immature.

I am not wrong.



I am your friend. And I am always going to be there for you, even if it kills me.

It almost does.



I'm not going to lie. It's hard.

It's hard to be here, waiting out in the rain. Walking two miles in the middle of the night, hoping to get a chance to see you. It's hard, knowing I miss you and not being able to text my friend for fear of never getting a response. It's hard waiting for my lost cause to wake up and realize what he did to an innocent girl, having your sister ask me if I hate myself.



It isn't over. I'm not going to stop fighting. You don't deserve to make me give up trying.



Now it's my turn.

Tired.

Tired of the pain.

Tired of the false hope.

waiting.

dreaming.

praying.

Begging.

Pleading.

Crying.

suffering.

dying.

searching.

trying.

earning.

caring.

trusting.

talking.

yelling.

lying.

shaking.

learning.

failing.

changing.

giving.

thinking.

loving.

laughing.

masking.

pretending.

screaming.

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unknownskull48
02:00 Dec 29 2010

Agrreed.

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