The day had come, I was leaving you
I had enough, we were through
You looked at me, with such sad eyes
In them, your truth turned to lies
So many times, you could fixed it
Instead, nothing, not even first aid kit
You let my heart break, and said no
To everything I wanted, and I had to let go
I love you still, and it hurts to walk away
But I realize, you just weren't going my way.
I was pulling, and you were pushing me down
So, much weight, I took to the ground.
I felt the cracks, within my bones
As you continued, to throw your stones
I cried out to tell you, NO MORE!
But, just as you did before.
There was no stopping, no replying
And now, I will be the one crying.
I allowed you, to walk all over me
And never let myself see.
That I deserved better than you,
Until I decided that I was through.
I walked down the aisle in a pretty dress,
Looking to the back where I would confess,
My love, my darling how I wanted you
How my heart just grew.
Breathing, I try to keep the tears back
I'm just not one to cry like that.
I stepped and one more breath I drew,
But, when I got there, there was no you.
The spot left empty, where you should have stood
A note instead, of how you could
Not go through with marrying me,
Because you just didn't see.
The point in making me, apart of your life evermore,
Feeling everything disappear from my core.
I dropped and hit the ground,
The air gone, I made no sound.
The people stood, and wondered why
You would leave me, here to cry.
I looked around, through my tears
And wanted to know, why through these years.
You said you loved me, above it all
Then you set me up, and let me fall.
My fears came crashing, and they hit me hard
My heart nothing, but just a shard.
People asking me, "Are you okay?"
How can I be, when you left on our wedding day?
The plans made, but here was no deal
In them, all my love to steal.
Shatters, I'm left to believe for now
But, can I recover somehow?
I don't know, but I fear that day
That you'll leave me anyway.
It just doesn't seem like you'll ever marry me,
Because I just can't make you see.
Maybe I'll get a pretty ring,
But my heart won't get to sing.
The last thing, I fear you'll do to me
Is never let us, come to be.
Love is but a word, or atleast he thought
To everyone he gave it, until he got caught.
One action, another he started a lie
And didn't expect, to be the one to cry.
Oh, fair angel how your words turn black!
When you try to make for another attack!
You take them, and devour them whole
Then expect hearts yours, when you stole.
Shattered your insides, you live in your past
And expect nothing, no blame for you to cast.
What a shame! A tragedy has come!
You at it's center, you are so done.
They don't want you, they push you away
No matter how it hurts, or what you say.
You wanted nothing, but the bodily matters
And then expected, to not have their heart in shatters.
I guess it works for you, since you lack a heart yourself.
You left it in a box, up on a shelf.
Fair raven, dark beyond reasoning
Years come through, and make their seasoning.
You grow old, your children grow new
You leave but little precious ones, from which blood you drew.
I stood in the door way,
And watched you sway,
With words you wanted to say,
Or atleast if I would say okay.
But harsh I was, because I turned around
And drove your emotions, into the ground.
I didn't care, my first time I closed you off
Your hurt look, as you turned and coughed.
You walked away, a sigh let out
But I couldn't touch you, or shout.
You decided on your own,
To make friends and not be shown.
You decided to ignore me for a time,
But I guess this is past payment for a crime.
Spinning on a blade, you stand below
Tipping to the edge, your face starts to glow.
Something in your eyes, keeps putting me on edge
Until I am pushed to the piont, of standing on a ledge.
Your song of love, comforts me at night
But you are but a song, not part of my light.
Yet your words, how they speak to me still
I feel as if, you're bending me to your will.
I spin, I twirl upon this blade
As you grow further out, until you find some shade.
My heart it cracks, to hear you sing away
I almost cut myself, to do away with the day.
Continuing to spin, on this blade
My memories of others, start to fade.
My mind, becomes entraped by you
I know it's over, and you're through.
Your goal, was to get me on this knife
Then use it, cut me with my life.
I feel it, but I don't cry out
My words lost in blood, how can I shout?
This blade, is my only friend now
And it's my fault, or atleast I thought somehow.
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