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I am so tired of people tearing each other apart, what does everyone have to say about types anyways? Who is to say that you won't fall in love with someone that isn't whom you pictured yourself with? Do we really know what our types are? I don't really have a "type" to tell you the truth and I am sick of being compared to some girl that some guy dated. I am not them and will never be them. You can't make me into a "type."



I am not the skinniest girl on the block nor am I the fattest. I don't see much problems in my thick skin, I get down on myself sometimes because I feel that I should be able to wear certain things but can't. I don't see myself as someone that every male on the planet would desire but to the ones that do, it makes me feel good about me. I am not some piece of ass though and I will step on your face if you try to make me out to be.



I am by nature someone that is intellectually inclined, I really love to talk but sometimes people believe me to be a bit air brained. I can't focus sometimes, but it doesn't make me an idiot. It makes me HUMAN. I have had issues with my intellectual aptitude since I was small. The reason being? My own father would call me dumb. I have worked through the issue but still I have moments were I am not really all that sure about myself.



It really grinds my gears when I see people tear someone down just because of the way they look. Is it not the personality, intellectual mind, and the spirit that counts anyways? You may find yourself in love with someone that isn't what you thought you'd be attracted to physically because they match the needs not the wants. I know exactly how that goes, and with love it finds the beauty in the flaws of people.



So, when someones tries to see if I am their type, I just want to simply respond "I am not your type, I am my type."

Past- simply something that reserves as memory to help better for the future or hinder it by choice. I choose to grow, and grow I will.

Everyone has a way of controling or not controling their actions. I know that I don't have perfect control over mine, but I do think that sometimes people need to control their's a little better. I am sad to see that so many cannot.

Time isn't relative when it's your heart,

You can press it down, and push the part.

Yet even time sometimes can make things grow,

And it's very true, you are what you sow.



And even if I could erase bitterness or anger,

The fact is that you will always be a danger.

We care too much, you and I

And it's that care, with which we die.



Still even throughout what has been done,

I can still see what we had for fun.

I call out someone elses name for love,

but I still see what was above.



I still dream of you everynow and then,

And know that my love for you is no sin.

You were my first, and you take a big part

You are still occupying a huge piece of my heart.



Though no one understands it, no one will.

I realize it now and forever, I love you still.



I could erase everything I ever had, but sometimes it's harder to do so when you are sitting there not ready to let go. I am letting go of things that made me unhappy, but I can't let go of what really made me happy to begin with. Maybe no one will understand, love is a very beautiful emotion and I can't stop loving someone just because they treat me badly. I have the rights to keep them a way from me, but that is all I wish to do.

I have been sorta following the gossip going on about Jon and Kate plus 8, but that is because I work were there are magazines and when you get bored? Yeah, that's right I fill my head up with nonsense and I sit there discerning were the media has spinned words out of purportion, and what the truth really is. I have come to some conclusions, Kate is very strong to be moving on and raising EIGHT kids. I mean JEEZE!



I have seen a couple of the episodes, but I don't like reality TV that much. It kind of gives me a head ache and if I wanted reality I would not watch TV I live in it just fine. Yet, as I have seen Kate is all about raising the kids, and Jon doesn't seem that invovled. She has to yell and get him to pay attention.



I mean the media can say she is a controling person, but when you are trying to take care of 8 children plus a husband that obviously isn't interested, I mean that is a natural reaction right?



I was just reading up on it since they are getting a divorced, and while Jon is throwing it out there that he has this new girlfriend. Good for you Jon, be an adult about things. >.>



Well, as I was going through the comments on this story this comment popped out at me.



"I think the last thing in the world the Gosselin family needs is to continue this ridiculous TV show. Have they not learned any lessons over the last few years? They took a month "off" but in reality, what amount of time is that to deal with a very intense family situation? I think the major downfall in this family is that you have 2 parents who became money hungry and exploited their children. Plain and simple. What kind of hogwash of a line is "We agreed to do a tv show to document our children's lives"? Other people have large families and don't have tv crews following them around day and night. They did the show to make money. Right now, those 2 older girls are brats (especially Maddy) and the other 6 are going to kindergarten. There is nothing in their lives even worth filming anymore. Wake up, Kate...the show is over. Do you honestly think people are going to want to watch your kids grow up year after year? Even the Brady Bunch lost their charm eventually. All things considered, this was the perfect time to wrap up this show, with all the kids going off to school. I sure hope they don't attempt filming the kids at school because if MY kids were at that school, I'd make some noise about any filming going on where children are trying to learn. My last comment is that I suppose the love of money over family and its sad consequence can be summed up with one observation...Has anyone seen the Gosselin family with a cross or cruifix in their household? Do their children ever say a nightly prayer? Have they ever taught their children about saying Grace before they sit down to eat? I have never seen an ounce of Love of God in their house/tv set. Maybe that is why their marriage was not strong enough to last. That, and Kate Gosselin being a control-freak, demanding, and overbearing witch!"



Alright, you may think what does it matter? I have to agree that they shouldn't continue on with a show with the children. I mean divorce is a very confusing time. You see two parents who love the kids very much breaking apart. How can you possibly understand how those children feel? And calling the older one's brats? I mean that may be true, but children act out in strange ways when they don't know how to deal with their emotions.



Another thing, they start talking about how they didn't have enough love for "God." I about puked when I read it. I mean you can have a love of "God" in a home and still get divorced. In fact Christians get divorced as fast as those that are any other religion if not, twice as fast. Funny isn't it? I think it's rediculous when someone uses lack of God as a means to say something has failed or the use of god correctly as succeeded.



I am not saying there isn't anything up there watching over us, but it's a bit ignorant to think that a lack of "Godly" love had anything to do with a failed marriage. Silly people.

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nobodysfallenangel
10:29 Aug 02 2009

Kate has been cheating on Jon for a couple ofyears now with her body guard. He tells all in a bookl he has been writing.. Kate is a controlling manipulative hellish horror of a woman. She is very abusive towards him.

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unpretty
02:39 Aug 09 2009

My point isn't to sit here and talk about who is wrong or right in the marriage. I am sure Kate is a bitch and Jon deserves better or vise versa. What I am saying is that there is no way that just a lack of godly love was why their marriage failed. As you can see it's cheating and not being able to communicate.

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