you wil regret it
the thougth hasnt hit you yet
but dont worry you will
you'll move on
thinking your life is great
feeling free and single to date
then it will hit you
you'll fall to the floor
the pain is soo bad
you say you cant take anymore
you'll wonder where i am
since im not answering my cell
while you sit there and wonder
im walking out the door
then it will hit you
you'll fall to the floor
the pain is so bad
you say you cant take anymore
but that is when you'll see
you dont get to me
i dont care anymore
cuz im already out the door
as i watch you in pain
thoughts go on in my brain
of you hurting me
not so long before
but that is when you'll see
you dont get to me
i dont care any more
cuz im already out the door....
Everythime you looked into his eyes
you saw love warmth feelings and understanding
you loved everything word his lips released
you loved when he held you
kissed you
and loved you when you were down
but then he changed
first it was a bruse of two
then a spraned wrist
then soem broken ribs
you have to ask yourself one thing
is that love....?
Someone says something
someone gets hurt
tears fall
fall from your eyes
a mistake was done
a friend lost
no one cares
but you
you are lost in fear
fear of thought
you think the mistake was true
someone told me once
that your brain is like a cd player on repeat
you keep hearing the mistake over and over again
being losT in confusion
the Hurt
all done by one liE
the Pain
the teArs
all kIlling you iNside
the love
your heart Worshipping Him
all amazinglY specail things
the happiness once there
now gone from Me
in one second of dishonEsty
the untruth
the lies
i am consumed in
the hatred
the hurt
i am feeling
the tears
the fears
all a waste of time
so smile
and F*** em
When i said...
"i hate your hair"
i realy liked it
When i said.....
"I hate your clothes"
I really wanted them
When i said....
" I dont care if you leave"
I really missed you
When i said...
" I'll always love you"
I really meant it
you tell me ill be mad
and tha ti wont like what your doing
you open your mouth
and tell me the news
i cant believe what you are telling me
your letting him back in
youve been through this before
but wait i must be a little hypicritical
since i was there once
i looked into his eyes
i got drawn in
i fell again
he never saved you
I hit my knee's
I lost everything
Yet i still went back
It took time
My life was horrible
without him
trying to fight this feeling inside
it took time
and a realization of now i deserved better
unitl you believe you deserve better
your never going to realize
that you do deserve happiness
NOT PAIN....
I woke up from my dream
with a panic in my breath in my throat
I never knew why
Iwould wake up like this
with a coldness up my back
and a tear running down my cheek
I roll over and take a deep breath
an arm crosses my stomach
hold me
I feel his strength
his passion
the feel of his touch
takes awa the painc in my throat
the tears fade
and dont return
until the next time the feelings take over
my heart starts to race faster
the love going through us
warms me
i roll back over and hide my face
the arms strength still around me
the tears start to fall
but only I know
they fall and fall until I fall asleep
he never knows
I cant let him see me like that
My fragile state
The state where i am totally helpless
the only one that had my heart is him
he has total power over me
if he saw me this way
I wouldnt be strong
so I hide, Hide away
until I feel secure enough for me
to let go and cry in front of him
let my tears fall and not be scared
not be scared of being so fragile
that day will come,
THAT DAY WILL COME
i tell myself to be strong
and i am in your arms
one day I may not be strong
i may need your strength
when that times comes
I know you will be there
helping me through
you will be there
then I'll be ok with the statement
TEARS=FRAGILE
because with your strength
by my side
ill be able to be fragile
then ill be able to let the
tears fall........
Not touching,
Not seeing,
Not feeling,
Yet you know me
You seem to look inside
you take my life
and make it something worth
something that is definatly
just pushed aside
something you inside feel likes its nothing
You walked in at the wrong time
But your always there
you know when i hurt
you can sense how i feel
You can tell im pushing
im pushing will all my strength
You want me to hold back
you think my pushing is just a way
a way for people not to see me
not to want to be near me
not want to feel my heart
YOu want people to see what you see
the thing that you can understand
yet know inside that it is there
you want me to love again
you want me to feel again
you want me to be HAPPY again.........
my body aches for the touch of yours
i yern for your body near mine
come closer to me
i wont bite
i want you
you want me
plz take me
Thoughts are going in my head
about you and waht you are doing
i dont think why but all i can do it think about you
i have never met you
yet you are here with me in my thoughts
i can see you blush
i can hear your heart beat
your nervous
wow no that is me
im too nervious
your just a dream
your too good to be true
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