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Just ahhh, i realized i hadnt writen in here in a while and figured it was time for me to just let out some steam i have inside ofme.

well not raelly steam just thoughts. Everthing is coming back now. Why do things have to do that to you. everything is ok your going about your time and day jsut fine and then you start having those dreams taht haunt you and you cant take it anymore. you dont sleep cuz of it..yet you stay in bed all day hoping for jsut a few hours of calm shut eye. But nothing. you get caught with nothing. You are stuck with tears running down your face and a cold heart waiting for the right person to lash out at. AHHH why me.....

I knew this boy in high school very little. I believe i met him maybe once. or twice im not to sure. anyways i remet him through friends i had in high school and still stayed in contact with. This boy is without a doubt a great person and would make any girl happy. Yet he is not my type when i look at him i dotn fall to my knees yet when i talk to him i know how he makes me feel. i cant tell you i like him ..because i dont beieve i do. but i can tell you it hurts me to see him suffer the wya he does...he is in love with this person that does not give him teh tiem a day in the romance department. she just wants to be his friend and that is all. yet she is one of his best friends. Im soo different from him. i will never be anything more to him then what i am. Im a person who is different then anyoen else he has met. soem one who brings out the sexual side of him. but that is all i will ever be to him and most of the guys i am friends with....why is it that i can sleep with my guy friends and it means nothing to them......i must really be a toy ppl can play with .........

Well tonight i made a new friend,

it is strange how someone can look into our eyse and know everthing ou are feeling. because they are feeling the same thing. Have you ever felt like you are lower then dirt and that you dont deserve anything? wel think about it from a different point....think why you feel this way ....what is it that makes other ppl worthy of things and you not.....well guess waht..i have found out ..i have to be worthy to myself and be happy for myself and not let others bring me down like they have been...and this guy have showed me a little something....he has taught me..that others have it worst off and i should jsut stick with ppl who understand me and now be aroudn ppl who have no idea what is going on .