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Why is it that when i want to go out or just even leave for a walk? IM running away. Everyone is always telling me im running away..>Well i want to know what people think im running from. i was the one who was suppose to know this...I was the one who was suppose to understand me.well i didnt think iwas running. And you want to know what..maybe i was..i was running. running awy from love. I have now come to that conculsion. wow. I run from love. i thought once i get away. i would stop running from love but i have done it a second time. It hurt to be soo close to him and now i have run away. I have run once again. I guess i didnt want to get hurt. I guess iwill always try and run...but when wil i find that one that will stop me. THe one who ill hand cuff me to him and say . Your not leaving . YOu cant reun. DOnt be scared to love me.........

Well, a few weeks ago i could have already told you i got asked out on a date by a really sweet and great guy. Its just strange to me though. I dont feel like im good enough or that i deserve to be going out and having a great time. Its just not me to be asked out on a date. Strange on how i feel about getting asked out. you would think it would make me happy .b ut its not...i just feel like maybe he doesnt know me well enough to realize im not what he is looking for...Maybe im just scared he has actually seen me and knows what im like and tha tis why he has asked me out. i have known him for a while now....I just dont know what to do.....

the weirdest thing just happened to me today. my friend that i have known since high school that we hung out a few times with and hasnt seen me in a while cuz i jsut moved back into town asked me out. He said that he didtn know what he was misisng until i was gone.....im soo estranged by this......

For some reason after this wonderful day that i had, i just feel like i want to go to sleep and never wake up. Have you ever had those days where things are just going soo good and then it hits you like a brick to the head that everythign is soo wrong in your life and you have way of changing it or helping it get better......just some thoughts....

Well i was sitting here tonight after getting home from visitng family and i got a little weird ache in my stomach. i cant really explain it. It feels like somethign is missing in my life and i cant quiet seem to get a hold on to that anwswer. its strange i tell you i dotn know how to explain it. maybe im just going through some changes and i have to get use to it i guess. who knows. does anyone know. hey if anyoen should know it should be me right. Confused...did i make the right choice in telling him the truth...i dont know..i know nothing....im lost in thoughts.....

Well the other night i was visiting my friend Lisa and she couldnt sleep neither so we decided to take some pictures. It was a very interesting night. She took pictures of me that i actually liked and i thought i didnt look half bad in either. So i figured why not share them with my friends.

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Have you ever felt you are just stuck? You cant move your arms and legs wont move a muscle. Your mouth wont open to say the littliest things to help you understand what is wrong. Your trapped in the thoughts that are goin gon in your mind. The mind wont let you go. YOu still dont understand why and no one else around you can understand why your starting to do things you use to do and going back to what you were.