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i Am having such a horrible day...my msn is not working properly . its doing weird shit that i cant help and im sure ppl are going to get mad at me for things i cannot control. I have ppl being deleted that i never deleted and stuff like that and blocking the ppl im in the middle of a convo with. I havae no idea how ppl are doing it but its happening. Im almost had the point where i jsut need to get a new account. We will see...GRRRRRR

soooo sexually frustrated......

I am soo blushing and i cant stop it.....i cant hlep this feeling.....wow my stomach is in knotts...what cna i do ....when will these feeligns go away...i dont want them too.but i know it cant be true......

Beautiful by Joy Drop



IF I WAS BEAUTIFUL LIKE YOU

OH THE THINGS I WOULD DO

THOSE NOT SO BLESSED WOULD BE CRYING OUT MURDER

AND I'D JUST LAUGH AND GET AWAY WITH IT TOO

LIKE YOU DO

IF I WAS BEAUTIFUL LIKE YOU

I WOULD NEVER BE AT FAULT

I'D WALK IN THE RAIN BETWEEN RAIN DROPS

BRINGING TRAFFIC TO A HALT

BUT THAT WOULD NEVER BE

THAT WOULD NEVER NEVER BE

'CAUSE I'M NOT BEAUTIFUL LIKE YOU

IM BEAUTIFUL LIKE ME

IM BEAUTIFUL LIKE ME

IF I WAS BEAUTIFUL LIKE YOU

I'D BE QUICK TO ASSUME

THEY'D DO ANYTHING TO PLEASE ME WHY NOT

I SEE THEIR REACTION WHEN YOU WALK INTO A ROOM

BUT THAT WOULD NEVER BE

THAT WOULD NEVER NEVER BE

'CAUSE I'M NOT BEAUTIFUL LIKE YOU

IM BEAUTIFUL LIKE ME

IM BEAUTIFUL LIKE ME

IF I WAS BEAUTIFUL LIKE YOU I'D HAVE SO MANY FRIENDS

ALL FIGHTING FOR MY TIME TO BE NEXT IN LINE

SO IF I HURT ONE I WOULDN'T HAVE TO MAKE AMENDS

BUT THAT WOULD NEVER BE

THAT WOULD NEVER NEVER BE

'CAUSE I'M NOT BEAUTIFUL LIKE YOU

IM BEAUTIFUL LIKE ME

IM BEAUTIFUL LIKE ME

Couldnt sleep yet i have work to be done, My brain is too full of stuff that is going on in my life. or what isnt. I feel like in a thousand pieces just floating in mid air and if i just leaped off the edge then things would be ok. but no i stay guarded...i stay here holdin on to waht i think life is.....is that life.......

Just like the song lyrics go...." she wants to go home, but nobodys home, its where its lies, broken inside.., with no place to go ..no place to go...to dry her eyes... broken inside....she's lost inside...lost inside.."

that is how i feel......i went home and no one was there..she knew iw as going to be there as well....she is doing this on purpose.....ahh...i jsut want to die.....i hate hurting. i dont wnat to hurt anymore. i want to be happy and smiling. and live my life the way i want and not in soo much pain...but i guess that is what i am destined for..........

I cant understand when i hear his name i jsut want to fall down. i cant seem to get away from that pain..did i ever let the pain go .....willt he pain be wtih me forever..i dont know..i know that i cant hold on this way anymore. i need to jsut let out and go screaming