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i want to laugh but i cant. i want to smile but i wont. your depriving me off everything. i want to feel more than this emotional numbness...i have no way though. i promiced a special person. at least he cares. i dont need you anymore, i want you gone. out of my life for good. i need someone to talk to. before i do something stupid.

like that song, in love and lonley. well thats my life right now. sure i may have some one around but i want someone to lean on. tonight i am watching fireworks with my dad. it will be sortof boring seeing as how i could be partying, but, spending time with my family will benifit sooner or later. preferably sooner.





i still love you

everyone keeps hurting me.

i thought i had you?

this journal stuff is written so others can read our feelings, i think.

but the only person i am writing this for probly isnt even reading it.