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it's petals so soft........it's a phantom beauty........so beautiful so rare.......beauty beyond any compare.........gentle and delicate.......so very harmless it may appear..........yet their is a lesson for you to learn.......some things are much much more than they may appear........the roses fatal defense it's thorns have such a wicked bite........the tear of flesh.......the crimson puddles of blood.......you learn quikly a painful lesson...........I grow these roses for a reason.........and they last throughout every season........

You told me you loved me and that you would always feal that way............you told me you need me but your so far , far away.........you told me you would make the pain go away...........I told you I loved you........and i'll be with you one day..........I told you i need you and I still do to this day............

You call out my name...

but you get no answer...

you claim your love eternal...

even though you may never get any in return...

to your love you are invisible...

to shy tosay a word...

all you can do is sit back and watch as your love takes every heartbreaking blow...

and vow that you would never cause your love pain...

with each passing blow you grow sick and want to make their pain go away...

but your to shy...

you just sit their helplessly and witness your love be torn apart by vicious love time and time again...

I could have loved you...

but you always walked away...

I wanted you...

but you only wanted him...

I waited for you...

but you never came...

blinded by your lust...

you burned my angels wings to dust...

the last petal fell...

my rose withered away...

now you want me...

but I no longer want you...

my love for you was bitterly tainted...

now you pick through the ashes...

in hope of maybe one last ember of my love...

and all I can say is I could have loved you...

and goodby...

Behind thos eyes I can see you'r sorrow,

behind those eyes I can see you pain,

behind your eyes I can see everything,

when I look into your eyes I can read your thoughts,

but you cant read mine,

a wall to hide my pain,

my sorows,

you look into my eyes and see a wall,

I built this wall with years of heartbreak and agony,

you see my scars a reminder,

every self-inflicted wound holds a story,

a story of love,

a story of hate,

the story of my every heartbreak,

behind those eyes I can see it all...

The night is young the dew is fresh...

a silence or tranquility looms in the midnight air...

only to be broken...

broken by the sounds of endless quarrels...

I sit in my room observing the hurtful exchanges of painful words...

words so painful they should never be heard...

the night goes on...

the quarrelsome lot getting more agravated as the fued continues...

when finally resolved the quarrelers each storm out in a rage dangerous enough to take the life of another...

their constant bickering sickens me but who can chose how their cards in life are delt ?...

not I...

I tell my love goodby...

but theirs no need to cry...

i'll be their with you soon...

beneath a sky so gloom...

our moments passing it begins to rain...

angel tears for a love so true it's beauty slain...

each angels wings turn to black...

for such a beauty the world will lack...

a crimson their eyes will turn...

a reminder of lovers bloodshed so gloomy a day...

as their turns from ivory to ebony...

and from bold to black...

you look at the heavens and what do you see ?...

a single black feather gliding down to me...

the feather drifts on a world so cold...

it touches the ground...

and you hear the sounds...

the sound of darkangels pain and suffering...

and the bloodstained earth will be forever cursed...

the darkness falls for my beloved...

my wounds gape no longer but fade and heal not a scar left as reminder...

with our love no room for mere lust...

trembling in the freezing cold you're loving warmth surrounds me...

and with your loving comfort to guide me my heart will never be led astray...

as the wind blows and the river flows the forest sings a simple melody and the wind carries it along with the sweet scent of love the night grows cold or so i've been told my beloved beside me to love and to guide me to comfort me with a sweet yet simple kiss...

these eyes cry tears that are not of this world...these tears that sparkle a crimson black...blacker is the soul that these eyes behold...a deeper crimson in every ebbing wound...and a heart blacker than ever thought possible...these tears I cry are not of this world...

lovers blood spilled on the chappel floor for a love labled unpure...

labled an abomination...

though who decides wether or not this love is pure knows nothin of wich he speaks...

the labeler is blind the labler knows no love...

the labler will suffer for the love he has undone for there is no law against love between angel nor demon...

I lay against the bleeding tree...

the tree under which I bleed...

I bleed for sorrow...

I bleed for hate...

awaiting for the end of me...

waiting for the pain to pass...

for my tears to run dry...

my life is spent no time for a goodbye...

soon I will be bled dry...

as anger turns to love...

the stars twinkle above...

my soul is dying...

I recall my dreams of flying...

flying among the icari...

laying against the bleeding tree...

my days are sadly spent...

but if anyone had love for me...

there would be no bleeding tree...

the day I first met you

was the day I began to live again...

you took the pain away...

you promised you would never leave me...

you promised you love was here to stay...

your heart so warm against mine we declared our love true and everlasting...

as the days passed by our love grew stronger...

as days passed by thoughts of suicide were no longer...

I lived for you,

you lived for me,

we had hopes of our own family tree...

as seasons came and gone

our love proved strong...

but on that day you said those horrible words...

those words that tore us apart...

accused of cheating I lay broken on the floor...

crying,

dying,

wishing for your presence,

longing your return...

you cheated on me over a presumption...

those cruel words choked me and ceased my heart...

those cruel words broke me...

those words left me hollow and weak...

words I wish you could unspeek...

lost in my sorrow my last words wil be...

I still love you...

but do you still love me?...

Thoughts of life,

thoughts of death ,

thoughts of every single breath...

memories long since past,

dreams of a future so far away...

will you live to see tomarrow?

do you live for yoday?

dreams that ceast to exist...

life in the dark,

will you live to see the light?

a heart broken,

a dream expired,

is the beginning really the end?

a world of love and light...

a world so dark and cruel...

your first breath,

one step twards your last...

comforting warmth...

turned to dicomfort and cold...

dream or reality?

i've been torn apart at the seem...

thoughts of tomarrow,

thoughts of today...

your icy cold lips

your velvety fingertips

those eyes of yours

your icy cold eyes

lost in those eyes

so deep so blue

eyes that can stop a thousand knives

frigid and bold

i am lost in the cold

my soul has been sold

mesmarized by those eyes

eyes so cold they burn

they burn straight into my soul

your wicked smile

your molevolent snicker

lost in your eyes

there is no compromise

those captivating eyes in which i trust

i know i am no object of lust

obey i must

lost in those icy cold blue eyes...

i rather die than live a lie...

i rather die than live this horrid lie...

he holds me tight in the dead of night...

he murmurs into my ear...

words so tender and sweet...

"i love you" an "promise me you'll never leave me"...

these pills i pop...

to make my mind stop...

i dare not cry...

for i live this lie...

the pain won't subside...

he bites my neck...

scratches his nails up my leg...

my heart begins to beg...

up my leg he goes...

though my clothes are still intact...

i feel like such a whore...

but i dare not fight back...

he says he loves me...

i dare not say that i don't love him back...

i cannot sleep...

i dare not weep...

i rather die than live this lie...

my heart he tries to buy...

all i can do is sigh...

for this lie i live...

i rather die than live this lie...

days pass

I count down to the

days I will see you at last,

i've grown weak without

you by my side,

without you I wanna die...

my memories reflect

our time together,

your eyes reflect

your love for me,

I cannot recollect

a single memory

of sadness when

i'm around you...

you turn my infamous

frow upsidedown...

the warmth in your voice,

your love that shines bright,

beside you I cannot cry,

you make my soul fly...

of course our love

forbidden by selfish jealousy,

in my grasp a single flask,

I drink a poison not knowing

where I will go,

but this I know,

our love will forever flow...

the pain inside,

the cut so deep,

they call me a creep,

I need sleep...

I can feel too,

my heart overflows

with hate,

sadness,

and love...

in the deepest dark

I have a life spark,

I look different,

you see me as a serpent,

you yell and scream repent!

i've nothing to give for your lent...

the moon crescent,

my love awaiting decent,

my wings exposed,

contradicted,

crushed by surprise,

a secret angel,

I arise...

a crusader amongst

a carnival of kings,

a maiden of light,

a dragon of fright,

such a site,

such an exciting

show,

swords meet,

arrows fly,

a fiery breath,

a valliant death,

a crusader amongst kings,

a maiden on angels wings,

clouds disperse

revealing the light

of a lovers verse,

the wizards curse,

the maiden struck down,

the funeral accompanied

by a clown,

grief and sadness restores

peace throughout the land,

crusader and the last remaining

king feast,

into the sky the dragon flies,

and thought the angel fell

all is well and never again

is there a single spell...

my heart it overflows

with all that is unpure,

touched by a demond,

pierced by loves arrow,

lost in the madness,

im sinking in sadness,

enveloped by confusion,

love,

sadness,

torment,

and hate...

life without my lover

not worth living,

trapped between

childhood and adulthood,

too smart for my age,

yet not smart enough,

dreams of escaping the

wrath of psychotic

and paranoid parents,

by mortal law I have

no say in life,

too old for games,

too young for a job...

alone in my room I sob,

bruises all over,

my heart once repaired

by the stitches of love,

by a mother and fathers

greed is once again

shattered...

for my lover i yearn

in hope that he may find me,

behind a shroud of jealousy

and neverending sadness...

sitting in sadness,

I embrace the madness,

you pour your wine of love

into your seering cup of hate,

a kiss to seal my fate,

a kiss that once seemed

so sweet,

now your kiss has teeth,

those teeth that rip into

my heart,

a kiss I should have never

trusted from the start,

alone in the dark I writhe

in pain,

I bear your mark,

your lovers stain,

damned if I do,

damned if I don't,

and damned if I slit

my throat to end the pain,

to trust in you was my only flaw,

I was caught in your deceiving

claws disguised as a lovers paw...

your kiss,

your smile,

the warmth in your heart

it's always been there

from the start,

it's like a fiery blaze,

and around you im

enveloped in a comforting

haze,

those lips,

those eyes,

those eyes that burn,

that kiss that scars,

each scar your mark

not a scar of sadness

nor madness,

a scar of love deep

within our hearts,

our love a devil

on angels wings,

our devil,

with it's sweet voice

it sings,

our beautiful song of

love,

and never of hate...

The world has ended,

our fate was sealed,

now we must embrace

our punnishment we

cannot yeild,

for our sind of love

and hate,

in the dark and such

seering heat,

we have an eternity

of suffering laid

forcefully at our feet,

take my hand for I am

affraid,

I cannot take this path

alone,

though I seem to look

so brave,

we walk together hand in

handover burning coals,

glass and sand,

hold me my master,

my love,

for I am still your loyal

love slave,

through the dark we

walk hand in hand

each step we take we

sink deeper into a sharp,

burning and sinful sand,

the burning arrows that

peirce our sides,

we pause to remember

beautiful bluegreen tides,

the gulls singing,

the sun shining bright in

the sky,

we remember how quikly

time did fly,

we approach tall gates,

gates to satans judgement,

we musn't be late,

we sit a moment we kiss

and cry,

saying our last goodbye

to a world we may never

see again,

we walk to the end,

a tear hits the sand,

only to arise a steamy mist,

I say to you,

I love you,

and I hope eternity will fly

quikly by,

but till then for eternity

we'll cry...

The sting and stain from every scratch,

love and pain are one,

memories that once caused me grief

now supressed,

numbed away and forgotten till the fealling fades...

that beautiful feeling that makes everything ok again...

scrapes and scars left to tell the tale of every attempt,

every attampt to shut it all up,

to make these feelings and these thoughts go away...

this way i know is wrong,

but who is there to say what is right?

to help me to show me a better way out,

someone to hold me,

to care for me and hug it all away...

to speak that beautiful lie and tell me "it's ok"...

The tear in my flesh,

the warmth breath in my ear,

that warmth which draws me near,

the heart that jumpstarts my cold heart,

the tender warm lips that tell me all that i ever wanted to hear,

the love that causes me both joy and fear,

the joy of love sprinkled with the fear of loss...

the scent of fresh blood fills the air,

that calms me when he nibbles my ear,

the blood that makes me forget,

that makes me forget the grief of loss...

the love that leaves more and more scars each year...

melting down,

breaking fast,

I don't know how much-

longer I can last,

heart grows cold,

limbs get weak,

in desprate need-

of your loving heat,

eyes glaze,

memories fly by-

and begin to fade,

I need to be in your arms-

the only place I feel safe,

slipping fast I can feel-

the grave,

my life only your love-

can save...

there are teardrops-

on the floor,

tear drops of an icy blue,

each teardrop holds a memory-

of a dream we shared,

a teardrop for the secrets-

we kept,

for the goals we met,

and now teardrops-

for the blood-

I let...

those blue eyes,

eyes as blue as-

thes sky after-

a storms cleared,

those eyes that-

beheld me when-

I cried,

those loving eyes,

they tell me live-

not die,

those blue eyes-

that could never-

lie,

those eyes that-

give me wings-

to fly.

I lie on the floor

bleeding,

bleeding for you,

screaming for you,

wishing for those dreams

to come true,

those wanderful dreams

of you,

dreaming of the day

you hold me in your again

and say baby I love you...