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So Friday was Tracea's breast reduction surgery, and I'm happy to say that everything went great. She did awesome. She's at home now, healing up. I spent Friday, Saturday and part of today with her, helping take care of her. I'm so proud of her, and that she went through with it. I think she will be so happy once she is healed up. They say six weeks till she's all done healing up :) This is all pretty exciting for me, because she's been waiting so long for this. I'm just so happy for her.



That's it for tonight, other then tomorrow is the first day of school and I got a bad case of nerves.



Over and out. :)

Okay, I'll lay this one out for you. I was checking my email and came across one that was kind of painful to even look at. It was an add request for Facebook from someone I thought I would never ever have to deal with or hear from again. For the few of you who know me pretty well, know that I was sexually abused when I was younger. Well one of the boys that raped me, decided, "Hey, why don't I send Jackie an add request." What the flying fuck is wrong with you? Okay, I personally just don't get where that person would get it in their head that that would be okay. The last time I saw the guy he fucking tried to raped me and that was like 6 years ago, what made him even think of me? I can only really think of one thing.. and this has been really bothering me for some time now. Its that his cousin is playing my sister's wedding, and this stupid boy does music as well, so I've been thinking he might be coming along for the ride and playing with them. I've brought my worries up to my sister who has repeatedly told me that he is not coming to the wedding but she has yet to ask his cousin. I'm just so angry and confused, and I just feel so disgusted, like I need to take a shower or something. I don't know but the whole thing just seems so fucked to me. So really that's what's been on my mind tonight.







Other then that I have some good news. George is coming as my date for the wedding, we're going as friends. Tracea and I are talking again, and she was aproved for her breast reduction surgery, and I am going to be there with her when she goes in and comes out on Friday. Also I went and saw the new Quentin Tarantino movie, "Inglourious Basterds" yesterday, and it was amazing! Go see it! So a pretty eventful week so far.



I just really don't know what I'm going to do about the other situation, and what I'll do if he tries to write me. I just hope this doesn't keep me up tonight.

Well for starters, I'm really sick of this car crash holding me back. It seems like everyday life is effected by it. I cant get anything done, because either my body hurts so bad I want to cry or my head hurts so bad I want to take a hammer to it.



For those of you who don't know what happened, I was in a car crash a couple weeks ago. And it was a pretty bad one, we were merging onto the highway and were hit by a semi truck. My seat belt didn't hold me so I was flung forward and hit my head on the dash and then I was flung back where my seat broke and I was covered in glass. The doctors say that I ripped some muscles in my neck, and fractured basically my whole body. I'm still in a lot of pain to say the least, and it usually keeps me up all night. I'm looking at a 5-6 month recovery time.



As of right now I have one of the worst migraines I've ever had and I cant do anything really but stay in my room and cry. The doctor gave me some pills and just they haven't been helping at all. This is my first time out of bed since I went to the hospital two days ago.



I'm just sick of everything hurting, and being in pain all the time. I feel like an old woman with no one to take care of me.