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The pain
04:33 Dec 25 2008
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I hate this time of the year.Everybody ask me what I want for Christmas,And my response is nothing ,There really isn't anything anyone can give me that I need, well not materialistic anyway.I can't get it through everyone heads That I really don't celebrate Christmas anyway.I just don't conform to such traditions.Halloween now that I celebrate,I love that holiday.Around this time of year I get so depressed.If it's one thing I need is peace,I guess peace of mind,My heart aches for what I don't know,maybe for whats been lost,maybe for my past,this I do not know,if I knew I would have fixed it a long time ago.But the only one who can give this to me is me,and maybe I'm just not ready.It's insane that what ever it is hits me worst this time of the year...Why?this too I do not know or do I.......

Another thought.....
06:12 Dec 14 2008
Times Read: 572

Another thought,I have so many you know.I keep having this one dream over and over,Me being a big believer of Karma,past lives'sand all that ,I keep having this dream,The year is 1843 and I see me as plain as day ,and it's like I am really there Like I'm re-living this life over again.I feel something that I can't explain every time I wake up from this dream.I need to find out more about past lives to be sure.Just on more thing for me to work on..........

One more day....
04:28 Dec 09 2008
Times Read: 575

Well another day almost gone.Not much to say about it.I'm still bored but thats my own doing I guess.There is so much to do and I just don't know where to start.Or maybe I do and just don't want to start,I just am not sure where my life is going at the present time.I need to do more soul searching I need to re-group and start doing what I'm suppose to do ,for me,I think it's time to take care of me for a change.