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Well I know better but I am still getting my hopes up that things and the economy are getting better. I know I live in my own little world but dammit if I have to be the only positive light in my world then thats what I will be.

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cadrewolf
22:57 Jul 01 2009

I am hoping too dear

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I am trying to understand life and all of its little quirks. I love my family, my job isn't bad, I have a decent house, and I am aware that I have more than most. I know I have as many problems as most, but why is it never enough. why is there always more or not enough. Confusion seems paramount. for instance we were finally making headway. had the budget set and was following and was actually looking for a free paycheck next month. then downsizing happens and now I am lucky to find the optimism I normally have because I feel like were back to where we were last year. Progress seems to not feel like progress until you've gotten where your going. Living paycheck to paycheck sucks like hell.



Yet I still can't help but put a smile on my face, and fake till we make seems to be my key phrase these days. I am just tired of struggling. I took a chance on chance and played the lottery but am not putting any faith or hope into it just did it because hey if 1 dollar can turn into 125million then why not. so tomorrow when I pull myself out of bed there will be a smile upon my face and I will charge forward and make things happen no matter how I feel deep down.







Inspiration isn't something I do on purpose. People still tell me that they find inspiration in the things I do and say. I find solace in knowing that my life brings other peoples lives a ray of hope. so perhaps someone who reads this will understand and know that even though things are the roughest they probably been in a very long time there will always be a reason to get out of bed and put a smile on your face. Even if it is a fake smile wear it upon your face until a real one can take its place and you will be amazed at the difference it can make.

the light of day was just within reach and then the tunnel got lengthend and yet im unable to feel greivance over it all. for when one opportunity is lost another is gained, perhaps the next opportunity will be whats best. I hope the economy does settle down and come back to some semblance of peace for everyone sake. Money is just money but when theres no job to be had the money because the all important factor. This thought makes me feel sad.



Life in general is hard, Marriage is a full time position, and sometimes in life there just aren't enough rocks.

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PandorasBx
02:05 Jan 08 2009

You said it girl....

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economy and corporate cut backs. Hubby was laid off today simply because when they opened the store he was the last manager hired so he was the first to go. It sucks because his income was what sustained us. Mine helps but inst enough. we scrambled today looking for other jobs but there just doesnt seem to be any available. very depressed right now but am trying really hard to be positive.

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AudraElaine
02:19 Jan 07 2009

I wish you and your Hubby the best of luck with the job hunting. In the mean time, might I suggest to go ahead and sign up for unemployment right away. It might not be enough, but it'll be something. It might give him enough breathing room to get a fine tuned resume together and find that "dream job".

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PandorasBx
04:15 Jan 07 2009

I'm sorry Jenn and just when things were getting better :( Keep your head up doll *hugs*

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vampfan2009
21:27 Jan 09 2009

you are in my thoughts.

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