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The surge of energy I was feeling absolutely plummeted, and I hit rock bottom for several days. I think a lot of it has to do with low self esteem and the fact that I've been hurt so much and have lost too many good things due to no fault but my own. I've only heard from the new boyfriend a couple of times since we became "official" and what I don't understand is he makes time to check his facebook but can't make time to text me and at least let me know what's going on in his life or ask how my day was. I guess since we've known each other for so long we don't really need to talk like crazy to be "together," we both have our own lives and we know for the most part what the other is up to, so in the end I guess it's not that big of a deal. But I was extremely depressed and distracted for a few days until I heard from him, I was so scared he changed his mind. I can't stand being hurt again. I don't know how I'll ever open up to or trust anyone again if this fails. My biggest concern is how I'm going to get this one past my parents..I know my dad doesn't mind him, but definitely wouldn't approve of me dating him, and my mom...well, I highly doubt she is ok with him at all. He doesn't have a whole lot going for his life. But what's between us I feel like is more companionship at this point. If the relationship continues to grow that's one thing, but we're both happy with our lives and are okay just being together. I don't see wedding bells or kids, let's put it that way. But still the same I'm happy we're together, I just hope it lasts.



Other than that, as a side note, I finally bought a car. Finally after two years of not having one. It's nice to be able to kind of do my own thing again. Of course, within limits, considering I am a mom.