So, it has been quite some time since I have logged into my account. I, for whatever reason, had no desire to even get on. I lost interest in a lot of things for a while. I fell behind on my school work and messed up one of my classes. Not a huge deal, I know I'll still pass it, just not with the grade I was hoping to get.
A lot has happened since the last time I posted. The wonderful "guy" that I thought I was actually going to have a chance with decided to change his mind 2 weeks after the fact. He decided he didn't want a relationship. And it absolutely tore me to pieces to the point I've almost damn near given up. I'm done being treated like dirt and like I have no emotions. Because I definitely do, and they are very powerful, at that. I felt like a raging storm when I was through with him after he called it quits. I actually just apologized to him, don't know exactly where that's going to go, but, I do realize now that him and I probably wouldn't work anyways, so it's probably for the best. I know he won't win my family's approval and right now my daughter having a roof over her head is more important than me getting everything I want. That and it's hard to go anywhere or do anything with her being so little yet, too. She doesn't not like strange people or places at all. I know it will get easier but I have about come to the conclusion that me trying to date right now would be impossible.
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