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Life is just a sorrowful pain inside the deepest part of my heart...But For now I have to suck it up and pretend nothings wrong. When I smile you'll think I'm happy, but really I'm truely dying inside. Love breaks my heart. You know who you are and you know that I want to die but you careless because I'm an ordinary girl, living by my past, the one I hate and dread. I try to change for you but you don't care you're a player and thats the path you've taken in life. I just want you to know that, just because someone ruined your life doesn't mean you have the right to screw up mine...I love you more than anyone I've ever cared about and you choose to ignore that...So I'm going to die some where now, no one will ever see the hurt and pain you've caused. No one cares that behind my smile, are tears of rejection and love. You've made me want you more but you still treat me as if I mean nothing to you, as if I'm just a one time thing.I know you just want sex, but I've seen past that.I've seen a person no one see's in you.One that wants to be loved, but you chose to find it in all the wrong places.Maybe someday you'll understnad how I feel...When I die for you maybe you'll understand how much you mean to me. Maybe you will find that deep down inside you truely did care. But then it will be to late.It's already to late I am already dying inside.The way I feel is so unexplainable, but you'll never know, and nobody else will either.I've locked my emotions deep inside my heart, and the only person that can unlock them is ~YOU~...Enjoy you're life now, and in the future maybe you'll waste your life on one person and wither away, just the same as I'm doing for ~YOU~