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Happy Halloween everyone. Woke up this morning not feeling well, I guess maybe my emotions are getting the best of me. Last time I felt like this was when my aunt passed away. I've been in my feelings a lot lately and not to mention crying. With today being the last day of the month, my birthday is in 11 days.

A few minutes ago I got word that my grandpa passed away. He fought long and diligently but it just wasn't enough. The cancer was just to harsh. This month I lost my uncle Ricky, my grandma, and now my grandpa. Hurt and crushed doesn't even begin to describe how I'm feeling right now. I don't even know how I'm going to even try to carry on. :(

Haven't been at the hospital all day since I haven't felt good since last night. It's probably because I haven't hardly ate anything to keep my strength up. Moments ago my mother informed me that they started the dying process so my grandpa can pass away and now I'm sitting at his bedside so he's not alone when he passes. This will mark the 3rd loss this month for me. I was hoping he would make a recovery but it wasn't to happen. Me and him may have been at odds for awhile but we sure had some great memories, like riding on his motorcycle, him picking me up from school or taking me places, calling me by my nickname that I didn't care for lol, going out for ice cream and him telling me I couldn't handle a banana split when I begged him for one. We had some really great memories that I will always cherish forever and ever.

MordakusxMortalitas is my big ball of sexiness! That is all for now! XD

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MordrakusxMortalitas
18:55 Oct 27 2015

Everyone wants a piece of me! lol

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slipknotbabe356
19:14 Oct 27 2015

Pfft I'm not sharing! XP

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Sitting in the hospital in the cancer center of the hospital and Grandpa still isn't doing so great. The doctors had the oxygen on a level 15 in hopes of getting his oxygen back up. The doctor has advised us to go ahead and get ahold of the family and tell them to come in and see him as in a way of saying a final goodbye. When he goes this will be the third loss in this dreadful month. Everyone is getting so excited about Halloween while I'm over here depressed as hell dreading to pick out my next funeral attire. I'll be glad when this month is over, scratch that, I'll be glad when this year is over with.

Things I've learned tonight. Don't set your Whirlpool Cabrio washer on Bulky Items even though you have a bulky jacket or you might just flood your kitchen. That is just what happen moments ago. A waterfall in my kitchen. Never going to do that ever again! lol

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MordrakusxMortalitas
04:34 Oct 27 2015

At least you got to watch me be sexy and drinking alcohol lol

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slipknotbabe356
05:09 Oct 27 2015

LMFAO!

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Back in the ER once again. Grandpa is not doing good once again. He's battling pneumonia and now it's much worse than it was before. *sighs* it looks like I'll spending more time in this dreadful place.



Yesterday we buried grandma. It was a decent ceremony and it was a decent autumn day. She is finally at rest and not suffering anymore and hanging out with my uncle that we buried a week before. I miss them both so very much. :/

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xxEmaeraldxx
00:35 Oct 26 2015

Awe hugs Slippy. Sorry for the loss of your grandma and I wish tour grandfather a speedy recovery. Bless xx

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slipknotbabe356
00:43 Oct 26 2015

Thank you Emmy!

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Since I cannot post this on Facebook because of certain people, I'm going to post this here. When my uncle passed away he willed my dad his gun collection. He wanted those guns to stay within the Grant family. Sometime between Monday and today one of his guns came up missing. It was a 9mm pistol semi automatic. The ironic part is my cousin Stephanie cornered him and said she wanted it and my dad told her no. Today was the day my dad could go pick it up and was it there? HELL NO! That's because she went and took it. You have to be very gutsy to go in someone's house and go through a deadman's room and steal a gun that's supposed to go to someone else! I swear everytime I'm in the same room/place as you I find another reason why I hate you! I hope my uncle's ghost comes and haunts you for the rest of your days and the guilt eats you alive knowing that you stole something that never belonged to you in the first place.

Attempting to make Cheesy Ranch Potatoes for the first time today. Hoping it turns out ok.

Re-done the background on my profile and I think it looks pretty cool! :)

Today has been one of the most saddest and one of the most hardest days of my life. Today I said goodbye to my uncle. We removed him from the ventilator so he could pass away peacefully. My heart is absolutely broken, but I'm glad that he is no longer in pain. The next few days are going to be hard. Going through photos, planning the funeral, fighting his girlfriend to get his stuff back, and figuring out who gets what. God give me strength to get me through those days.

So it's no secret that 2015 has been a shitty year. First my grandmother decided she wanted to spend the remainder of her life in hospice care. She's been having issues breathing and her health is deteriorating ever since. Next my grandfather has been diagnosed with stage 4 Lung Cancer and is currently fighting for his life. Now as of today my uncle had a massive heart attack. He was at work when it happened and I'm just glad he wasn't by himself when it happened. It was the widow maker kind of heart attack. Right now he's in the hospital (obviously) they put him on ice to try to get the swelling down in his brain since his brain was without oxygen. Now the other issue we are having to deal with is his so-called girlfriend, who doesn't want to follow the rules that were set up for her. We had it set up that family gets first dibs on seeing my uncle first and she has disregarded that rule and went before any of the family to see him. She was absolutely rude and hateful towards my cousin, Tara and acted like she had no right to see my uncle when she's a member of the family and had every right to see him. When my dad went in to see him, the so-called girlfriend was practically laying on top of him trying to keep him warm when he was supposed to be chilled like mentioned above to try to keep the swelling down. I swear if she doesn't cut the shit out I will snap!