05:24 Nov 27 2016
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Was going to wait until I got home to write this journal entry, but since someone was very impatient to wait for all of the details, I'm writing it right now.
First off the travel to Iowa went smoothly. We made it there in one piece after leaving 6 in the morning. We made it there at 10, it was a 4 1/2 hour drive. Some of us were cranky, ok maybe it was just me, since nobody wanted to stop for food along the way. I ended up taking a 3 hour nap and felt better afterwards when I woke up and ate a little. I visited with my aunt a bit and hung out with my cousin's wife and we went for a drive. We went out for ice cream and had a little chat. I listened to her vent about my cousin. I won't bore with the details of the conversation, plus I'm not sure if I remember anything about what was said, but long story short it is pretty much the final straw with him. That was pretty much the extent of my first day here.
Day 2 which was Thanksgiving, by far was a really hard day for me. If some of the people who are on my friend's list on Facebook are on this site, you would know that I was a victim of being brutally bullied by my own family and those who I thought were my friends who joined in along with them. The election has really brought out the worst in people this time around because of who was elected. It just figures that I can have family post such hateful shit for over 6 months, but nobody bats an eye, but if I'm not online for 24 hours and post my thoughts, feelings, and how worried I am, people jump down my throat and suddenly I am public enemy number 1. The difference between me and them is that I said what needed to be said and I left and logged off and left. Before I even left I shared a post on facebook to help encourage women to report sexual assault and ended up dealing with a cousin of mine who decided to take it upon himself to make slut shaming remarks and state it was ok for a woman to be sexually assaulted. It was pure disgusting. I ended up coming back later that night and deactivating my account after they started in on harassing my mother. I ended up making a brand new facebook account and starting over again because of them while throwing 10 years of memories away. They took it upon themselves to bash me over my thoughts and beliefs on my account that they didn't realize was empty for over 2 days. The bashing went on up until the middle of my birthday, which I never celebrated because of them and it was because of them that I shut everyone out of my life that day. They never even realized what they were causing me to do.
Now back to Thanksgiving Day, it was hard being in the same room as the people that publicly bullied me on social media. I didn't greet them or hug them or be friendly towards them. When someone does something to hurt me or screw me over, I hold grudges and I am bitter to the very end about it. None of them realized how badly they hurt me. So when it came time to eat, to uphold the tradition of telling everyone what we were thankful for I pretty much laid it all out there for them. When it was my turn, I told them I was thankful for not hanging myself after dealing with the constant brutal bullying that I went through because people don't know how not to be offended about stuff other people said. Of course the ones who bullied me reacted like how I expected them to which is them being both shocked and surprised about it. One of the three apologized to me while the other two knowing them didn't think they didn't anything wrong. The other members in the family were stunned and shocked and ran up to me and hugged and told me that they valued me and that they were glad I was still here. After dinner I went out and went shopping, which was the biggest mistake of my life. Too many bat shit crazy people were running about. I had to run some people over with my shopping cart so I could get through the huge crowd. I can tell you that I will never go shopping on Thanksgiving ever again. I came home and ordered the newest updated Skyrim game for my Xbox One and my new ipod case and got a great deal through Amazon.
Yesterday was honestly a great day. Black Friday wasn't as bad as shopping on Thanksgiving. I had to go to two different places to score my Amazon Fire Stick with alexa. I'm going to have it jailbroken to get unlimited content on it. I cannot count how many times I had to smack people with my purse to get through Best Buy to get the movies I wanted that were marked down. I ended up with a nice decent stack of comedies and one anime film. Target I literally had the run people over with the cart to make it through the aisles so I could find what I needed. Target shopping was hellish. I came back to my aunt's house with great loot and new stuff to watch.
Today wasn't too bad, nothing much went on. I cammed for a good two hours and vocally spoke to the attendees of my cam. I was definitely in great company today. I then had to assist in putting christmas lights up, which we got half way done, but it ended up looking pretty awesome. We had a birthday dinner tonight for a cousin who turned 31 and ate cake. Tonight all that's going on is preparing to leave tomorrow morning to go home and some relaxing. All in all it ended up being a somewhat decent trip.
Also if nobody hears from me just assume I'm alive. I will be watching my fire stick and dealing with people being in and out of my house putting new windows in.
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