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Oh, hello. I'm bored. Nice to meet you.



"AAHH!"



Who was that? Hmm. No matter. Come along then, what shall we do today?



"HELP!"



Oh do not mind that person, he is of no importance right now, nor will he ever be. So do come, step into my chambers...and see a world beyond your imagination.......



"NOOOOO!!!"

Today is another day. I'm very tired. I have to get up earlier. Which in turn makes me stay up later.



Joy.



Oh.



I have a booooooooyfriend.

He's soooo cooooooooool.

He's sooo fuuuuuuuuuunny.

He thinks I'm seeeeeeexxxy.



In other news:



I'm listening to Staind's new cd I got from BMG. STaind rocks!



C Ya!



-SW

Ah what a wonderful day it is!! It's dark, cloudy, rainy...a typical brooding day. I love it. Plus the fact that it's on the day I totally despise, and the fact that I'm still mad at my co-workers from yesterday... things could not get any better than this.



The lonliness....



The rain....



The dark clouds overhead....



Me being pissed off....



Considering all those things, I just want to curl up in bed with my b/f and sleep. *Dreamy eyes*



My co-workers don't know what they just did. They did the worst mistake of their lives...



They fucked with a witch.



Now I feel revenge coming....



And it's not pretty.



They get what they deserve.



And I will do nothing but do a karmic retribution spell on them just to make what's coming to them, faster. I can see it now...both of them knwoing the hurt they caused me. I'll show them...



Hahahahahaha....Ahahahahahahah!!!



-SW

If the headline wasn't a clue, I'm fucking pissed off!! Some stupid fat chick, who's supposed to be an adult, (Define adult) started fucking teasing me about my fucking last name. Fucking bitch, go to hell!



All my fucking life I grew up having to listen to that shit. I'm fucking tired of it. One more person does that to me and I will fucking kill them!! I didn't kill the fat bitch cause she's my coworker and I'm at work.



I know where she lives....



I know her cell #......



I can totally fuck up her life and she'll never know who it is!!



I need to punch a brick wall.



I need to throw her fucking fat head into a brick wall.



That would make me feel better.



Oh, one more thing....



Yes, I teased too. I quickly learned that it wasn't fun and quickly got tired of saying the same old thing over and over again.



I didn't like teasing others and I didnt' like to be teased.



I hate people.



They should all die.



"Me and you and a dog named Blue."



Yeah. That's it.



"We'll sit alone on a dark chunk of ice, at the top of the world. And the stars above, below, and between us, will never shine brighter. As we drift away, into space."



DEATH TO ALL PEOPLE!!!!!

Fucking idiot website this is!!! I just wrote all that for fucking nothing. Had to log in again b/c the stupid piece of shit website logged me out b/c I idled too long. Fuck that! That's retarded. I'm in my journal, typing. how the hell am I idle?



Fucking bullshit.



I'llbe damned if I rewrite it all. No one's fucking reading it anyway so what the fuck? Except my b/f.



I'm not even going to tell you about the movie I watched yesterday. Why, b/c you don't fucking care. None of you on this website care about a complete strange. I'm nothing to you.



Fine.



That makes 2 of us that don't care.



-SW

I have a migraine. It really sux dick! Well, not intentionally, anyway. At my b/f's house, hanging out and stuff. He's a great person. He really is. I thank the Lord and Lady for him everyday/ He's sooo understanding. Just wish that sometimes I wasn't so shy around him. I'm confusing the hell out of him b/c of it. I would text him something that just comes off the top of my head, but when I talk to him in person, it's like major self-conscious issues!! Oh well. Hopefully, I'll get over it. I'm actually getting tired of being shy around him, but I guess it's something that has to come naturally....just like everything else. Since he has patience with me, I have to have patience with myself.



I'll try it. That's all I can do. And he keeps telling me he understands what I'm going through and that he can wait. But can I wait for me. If he reads this, he's probably going to reply to it via hotmaill and tell me to callm down and stop being so freaking paranoid!! ;-)



So......with that being said....I am no longer able to talk about things for lack of anything worth talking about.

See ya.



-SW

Today, as always, I woke up in a bad mood. Why does it take me so freaking long to get ready for work? I have no clue. See, I get up, relieve myself, then go back in my room to get ready. I get up at 5 am and by the time I get out of my room with all the shit I do in there, it's going on 5:30. I'm so aggravated that the lights are flashing on and off everywhere I go.



On a different subject: I'm wondering about something. Maybe it's just me, but I think I'm in love. Even though I've been with this person for only about a month now, he's so goo to me, it makes me wonder if it's just me or if it;s true. I might be one of those ppl who fall in love too easliy. He hasn't said it and I haven't said it. Out loud anyway. And the fact that he loves to do things with me and buy stuff for me like it doesn't even matter, I don't know. I'm rabbling.

(SSSLLLLEEEEEEEP!!!)



Anyway, is it too soon to tell him? Horoscopes are saying now's the time, but what do they know?



Apparently, it isn't the right time to say it or else I would have already. It's one of those thoughts that sound pretty damn good in your head and when you say it out loud, you catch them by surprise and then you wonder if they still like you.



On that note, I think I'll wait until he says it. Which, of course, he could be waiting for me to say it instead and then we'll be waiting for god knows how long until it blows up in our faces and it won't mean that much.



Like I said, I have no idea, I'm rambling. Need sleeeeeeeeeep.



Later,



-SW

Today is Thursday and it's going slow. The week was fast until today. Tomorrow's going to be even worse. With hardly anyone at work, it's going to go slower than a turtle! Or snail!



I must be frustrated because the light above me keeps flickering on and off. My brain waves have been highly active for some reason.



Yesterday was great day....until I got off work. I was stopped at a light and I saw this little mouse running across the street in front of me. It was in the other lane and I couldn't get to it. The light turned green and I had to go. I prayed to the Goddess to protect it and when I pressed on the gas, I heard it squeal. Before I sped away, I saw the carnage. I was to the point of tears for a defenseless creature.



My poor boyfriend is getting hassled at work. Maybe I should do something like tell them all to leave him alone.



We both miss each other fiercely and I can't help that either. he's the sweetest man I ever had. Hope I won't get too much of a surprise when he loses his temper! ;-) He has yet to see mine.

It doesn't really bother me, we've only been going out for about a month, but it is serious.



I have to get new glasses today. I finally broke my old ones of 7 years. I lucked out when my boyfriend told me I could use his glasses. He has the same prescription 5 years ago as I do now. It was funny how that worked out. He wears contacts all the time. But that's cool.



Yeah, my car is evil. I still don't have it legal. It sucks dick. Of course when you think about it, that might hurt! ;-)



Anyway, I'm starving. I forgot my snack in the car. Maybe I'll just pick some unlucky person from the bathroom.....



I just remembered....I have accounts to do. So, might as well do them and get them out of my hair. Maybe the time will go faster. (Crosses fingers). I'll write more later.



-SW

Hmmm. Today seems like another day. But I can't help that if I wake up the next day, Fall will already be here. Which is fine, I love Fall; the beautiful, crisp days, coupled with the golden, scarlet, orange and brown colored leaves. Along with some green still in the mix. The days are still long and warm enough not to have the a/c or the heat on. The nights are just long enough to savor the rising of the stars and moon. To feel content in the brevity of the coming winter. And know that you're alive.



That's what Fall is to me.



-SW

Yes, as the title implies, I have a fun day ahead of me. Have to get through work first. Aahh!



Oh, sorry. Didn't mean to scream. Just bouncing off the walls excited. I'm going to the Festival of the Little Hills today with my bf. Then we're going to have movie or game night at my place.



"Fun fun fun til her Daddy takes the T-Bird away..."



Sorry, must have a split personality thing going on.



Anyway, I'm sleepy. 6 hrs of sleep. Haven't had decent amt of sleep since moving into my own house. I've had nightmares, on and off the whole yr here. Don't know why, but because of that, eventually, I've gotten to the point of not remembering aney of them at all. I do, for a split second when I wake up, but it immediately disappears. I need more sleep so I can get back into that routine again. That's part of my precognition. Can't lose that. Although, I have discovered another power I had because of it.

My bf calls me his 'little magician.' He thinks it's cute. I think it's kick ass to have that kind of power. I always wanted to have a power like that. But don't worry, it won't get to my head. I know I don't have full control over it, I can control little things, like lights, computers, stuff like that.



I have "Angel Theme" in my head from the tv show. Need the lyrics.



Anyway, I'm just babbling. And cackling. Since I'm a witch and all. ;-P



TTFN



-SW

I have a new boyfriend. He's really generous and nice. I met him over at my gay friend's house almost a month ago. He said he had a crush on me and had been wanting to go out with me since then. I just hope this crush is actually the real thing and not just something that will fade.

The reason I'm skeptical about it is because I've never had a guy crush on me before. I'm serious. never. Until now.

I like him a lot too. He treats me good. He says he thinks I deserve to be treated nicely.

EVeryone's saying I've got a good thing here. I just hope I won't scew it up. I mean, it's not like I'm wanting things to screw up, I mean, this could really mean something. And I don't want it lost because I can't control my anger, or I say something wrong. That's just how I am. Maybe soon I won't be so skeptical about it and just accept it for what it is.

I feel so left out on this website. So the story of my life begins again. So.... what to do about that situation? Well, the um, ignoring part isn't b/c of me. Other people here are doing it. I'm just writing in my journal and posting it. Whoever reads it, does, if they feel like rating me or replying they will. But they don't. I thought this website was different than all the others? Guess not. Yeah, I know my profile doesn't scream at you. I prefer to be the quiet one. (Plus I really don't know how to get the web layout thing figured out.) I like to hide in the shadows. Subtle. Alone. Mysterious. Dangerous. (Sigh)



Oh well. I shall hopefully see more of you write me about something. Until then,



Darkest Blessings,

-SW

I am soooo confused. Okay, my boyfriend wants to take our relationship really slow. I on the other hand, since we've been friends for 4 years, want to go to the next step. I'm ready for that, but he isn't.



I should wait, huh? If that's the case why would the universe have another person come into the picture? Is it purposefully trying to make me screw it up?



Everyone that I've talked to says that if I really care about him, then I should wait it out.



My one co-worker has the same exact relationship, only they argue all the time.



So maybe the question really is: Can I wait for him? If I'm ready to got that next step, can't I seriously wait for him to catch up?



I definitely understand the situation. So I have a choice. What would I miss with the other guy if I wait for my boyfriend? And would that other guy also wait or go somewhere else? Hmmm.. decisions, decisions.

I shouldn't be this tired. I didn't workout or anything. That's probably the reason. Oh well, no matter.



I can't wait until this weekend. We finally decided to go to D&D this weekend. Coolness.



Well, I got pulled over by a cop yesterday. Fun. Joy.



I didn't have a plate on the back of my car. He ran my liscense and I thought he was going to run the plates too, but he didn't. He came back and said he was giving me a serious break on account that I have no priors on my liscense.



I'm such a good girl. ;-P



Anyway, not much too type out, so,



Darkest Blessings,



-SW

A realization just came to me....my b/f likes to do things more subtle than I. He recently told me what he did just so he could see more of me. He did two things. And now I realize the hidden meanings behind them. Although it could be just me but it isn't. So now, I love him more than ever and seriously can't wait until I see him. I am going mad. No joke. And maybe now I won't be so hard on him trying to be with him and all.



He has a surprise for me that I can't wait to get! Maybe this weekend he'll show me.

Today is my Grandma's B-Day. She died on Feb 8th, 2001. I miss her so much. I'm half tempted to bring her back from the dead, but it would be much easier if I died and went to see her. She was the greatest and she always had a way to make you laugh. Her offbeat humor made me stay by her just to hear what sort of stuff she said. I always wanted to come to her house and listen to her tell stories of when she was little. She was an excellent cook and spoiled everyone!



The point of death is to remember that person. I will never forget my grandma. Ever.



Darkest Blessings!



-SW