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i seriously despise being ignored by anyone who has my attention. its like this.. if your not really interested in me then fucking say so!! i am not going to sit here and patiently wait for someone to give me some attention. and when does it look needy when talking to a potential mate? I have no idea really though i dont want to look like im desperate but fuck i would really appreciate some cuddles and good honest company. idk what to think anymore about relationships or the like. its not in me to be just a fwb or anything like that i get attached to easy. i think im going to just sit back and wait for it to happen by itself but really when will it happen? idk life has taken a terrible turn for me but wait my life has always been extremely difficult to live. i know im worthyi know im strong and capable of love. i am so angry because i am still so hurt by my past and even recent past things lol im seriously going crazy in my own head. i cant stand myself most days. idk what to think any more or do. i have an amazing mom life i couldnt ask for better children honestlky though they tend to give me greif just like any normal kid i love them to death and beyond already and im still alive lol ok enough rant for the day!