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just random thoughts.
03:54 Oct 30 2008
Times Read: 613

It seems that life is turning around for the better. I have almost accoplished level one in my trade and my weakness for this one certain somebody is going away, slowly but still vanishing. I have to admit the feelings that I have felt will never really dissapate but will eventually disappear enough for me to move on with my life. I felt so fucking sad the other day, like two days ago. Now it is just semi happiness for the better. It is better that i get over it sooner because I cant keep torturing myself by thinking of him day in and day out. When i see him I get kind of happy but at the same time hateful and angry because he wont let himself see the real me. He doesnt want my love that I can give and that makes me feel sorry for him because I think that I am a good person and that if he could see that than maybe things could work but I have realized that I am not the stupid one here that there is someone out there that is good enough to be great for me. We could be greeat for each other. I am so excited that my Birthday is only like a week and a half a way and I have kind of comes to term with the fact that I am getting older and more patient as the days go by here in this place of contemplation and completion. Well I have to go for now, hopefully this night I get enough rest for my day to be very productive and full of love for life and this bat who is about to drink of it.

Papa Roach:Scars
03:23 Oct 14 2008
Times Read: 619






I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut

My weakness is that I care too much

My scars remind -----me that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to fail



I'm drunk and I'm feeling down

And I just wanna be alone

I'm pissed 'cuz you came around

Why don't you just go home?

'Cuz you channeled all your pain

And I can't help you fix yourself

You're making me insane

All I can say is...



I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut

My weakness is that I care too much

and Our scars remind us that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to fail



I tried to help you once

Against my own advice

I saw you going down

But you never realized

That you're drowning in the water

So I offered you my hand

Compassion's in my nature

Tonight is our last stand



I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut

My weakness is that I care too much

and Our scars remind us that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to feel



I'm drunk and I'm feeling down

And I just wanna be alone

You should've never come around

Why don't you just go home?



'Cuz you're drowning in the water

And I'm tried to grab your hand

I left my heart open

But you didn't understand

But you didn't understand



go fix yourself



I can't help you fix yourself

But at least I can say I tried

I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

I can't help you fix yourself

But at least I can say I tried

I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life!!!



I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut

My weakness is that I care too much

and our scars remind us that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to fail



I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut

My weakness is that I don't care too much

Our scars remind us that the past is real

I tear my heart open just to fail

12:10 Oct 03 2008
Times Read: 629

I love getting bit It is a exillerating feeling. I has been a good month since the last time and my energy level yesterday was sky rocketing from being bit twice. I think I like that a little too much. :) hehehe.