why me? everything seems to be going perfect for everyone else but me *besides my parents*. Urrrg im dreading getting older im not a normal teen i dont have guys or girls asking me out i never have dates I get on the net and sleep. Ive also noticed im fat and getting fatter and soonno one will want me. what the hell can i do? my depression is riding inside of me and sleep seems to be the only way to shake it. Im gonna be 20 and single *sigh*. Idk sometimes im happy single cuz i know i dont have to deal with the relationship bullshit but at night im lonly when i see couples im lonly and im even on a different planet than my much luckier bestie. I have alot of love to give though and I want a special one to give it all to. I want a steady relationship is that so much? I once thought id have a second chance with my ex girl but she decided to stick with her man. Im happy for her becuase i know they must have something strong if i didnt get my chance. Plus to be true to myself im not over an ex of mine but he is way to busy for me. *sigh* wat do i do? I see appealing peopl all the time and some give me the eyes but i feel so unwanted that i dont do nothing about it. At least i have friends but soon they will leave me to and ill curl into this ball and die if im lucky. Im scared of 2010 what disappointment will this year bring?
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bloodyfairy
01:06 Feb 03 2010
my dear it will come time is what you need and i amhere if you need to talk either on here on my phone *hugs*
LadyChordewa
19:11 Feb 06 2010
You have control over your life, more than you think. You ask what will 2010 bring......I ask, what will you accomplish in 2010? Do you want to lose weight? Do it. Do you want a special someone? Go out and meet people. The man/woman of your dreams, will love all of you, big or small. You have to love yourself first, before anyone can love you. I love you dearest. I know that you are a incredibly sweet, caring individual that is just bursting with love for everyone she meets. Hold onto that and find someone worthy of that love. *Huggles*