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well where to begin.... I pulled myself out of that hole lol! Anyway i went through a few more rough patches i had a job at speedway and made more friends. Lost it recently though :/ but this time i didnt have to say goodbye to everyone i got to know i still hear from all my friends :). I started edible arrangements this time likr the job but my boss is a dick he talks down to me and my in store boss is snobby but ill stick it out. I started hanging around my cousins again my youngest cousin had twins and has her own apartment im so proud of her! My 2nd oldest cousin is getting married next year. Gezus how time flies! My poor mom isnt doing so well on the other hand

...her diabetes is frightening. it keeps going up plus her fluid build up shes really tired all the the time it bothers me we cant do anything together anymore. I'm a godmother to my friend starr's baby thats pretty exciting:). But with the good comes the bad... my dad had a stroke last Thanksgiving and he still isnt quite right i feel like i watching him head out of this life just loke my gram but what can i do i can't help him if he wont help himself. Ive also ended ties with the negative people in my life my once best friend nikki, billy, and as much as it hurt i let ray go obviously i dont mean anything to him anymore. Ive learned over the past couple years to let things go and to hang on to the friends i do have. I let things go but i dont forget. Sometimes i see where i have grown days i find that i dont care anymore but i also see how much more i need to grow. Im still very insecure and i know its hurting me as my ex said im irrational im trying to get better but its really hard hopefully whoever loves me can handle it. Im also getting anxious im getting older i dont wanna get to old *sigh* but i think ill be ok. i also need to come to terms with certain people so i can fully move on. Enough with the bad shit though i also must point out that im proud of myself. I lost one job and got another im pulling my own weight and its great. its true i dont live on my own but i pay rent and bills so when i do move out ill know what im doing i just need to learn to manage my money. Plus i know how to cook for myself im someones whole package im just paitently waiting to when i run into the right one. I think in the meantime ill have as much fun as i can in life and let it roll.

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Doru
00:45 May 03 2021

Life is truly a roller-coaster.

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