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So, i finally have a job again. I hate it though, as I always did. I hate working at Jack in the Box, but I was desperate. I have like almost no money in either of my accounts. currently my financial situation and my job are part of what's making me depressed.



school is wonderful. I absolutely love it. the ppl there are hella nice and all the faculty pretty much knows everyone by first name. this quarter, my sciene teacher is pretty hott. but that's just me and my liking the nerdy smart types. hehe.



I'm going to therapy regularly. its another thing that's keeping me sane. I tell her everything, and I mean everything. I'm sure she probably thinks I'm crazy, cuz I've got some whacked up shit going on in my head sometimes. but i dont care. shes nice and she listens.



I'm still single, and that gets me down as well. losing jared was hard. I still cry every now and then. I'd like to find someone new, but with how shallow the world is today, I'm gonna need to work on my appearance, not just for them, but for myself as well. I hate how fat I've gotten. grr



i've been taking melatonin supplements to help me stay asleep aat night. usually waking up at 1 or 2 am and not being able to fall back asleep til about 4 but then have to be up again at 530.....not cool. but these pills are working....but giving me some wierd and creepy dreams.



I've been in a story writing mode the last few days....its about the Faerie realm. Basic plot of good vs. evil.....but thats pretty much what everything is based on these days. Thing is, i dont know whos gonna win yet....lol usually books end with the good guy winning....so who knows, i might change it up and let the darkside win. hehe



i'm learning to plat 'Fur Elise' by Beethoven. its my favorite. though i should be teaching myself something a bit easier first. lol



anyways, im going back to bed, i had an early morning therapy appt, im tired. ttyl everyone.

*hugs & kisses*