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the story
04:56 Sep 20 2008
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my story

story...



on the blank mirror she took the red paint and spelled out "i fucking hate you! yet i fucking love u."

she looked at herself through the paint. the red cascading down into each letter below it. next to her was the volka bottle. the bath tub draining away next to her. water mixed with bubbles and her tear. she hold the volka bottle to her lips for a last taste, the next moment she regreted it. her sapphire eyes looked into the mirror. her shivering naked body before her, with the clear bottle porched to her ruby mouth that moment she snap. she through the bottle at the mirror and slid down to the floor, tears pouring out her eyes. glass shards rained around her.volka all over her clean body. nips of blood shown where the glass cut her.



what to do, she didnt know? she felt helpless. the boy was playing with her stringing her along.

she didnt know. the girl sobbed. help. she wanted that but in away she didnt. she wanted to be left alone.

she wanted the guy she fell in love with back...but he was gone. hidden deep away and she knew he was never returning.

she hated what was going on. she wanted to wake up to were he called her beautiful and pretty and that she was gorgouse.

she wanted him to wrap his arms around her and kiss her neck and say hello like he use too. that was never going to happen. it didnt feel like he cared enough.



tear drops came pouring out again and she grabbed a towel and sniffed a sob.

stomach aching and she knew this was how it was. she didnt want his pity, if that was what he was giving.

she didnt even know what to feel anymore. sure she felt some love towards him, but over top of that was ice. why do it again. why even bother? she knew all he do is hurt her bc that is all he has done since he left her in this state with out him. hurt. caused her pain to mirror the pain he felt. she was sick of it.



she was suppose to be treated better then this. like a princess.

he suppose to treat her kind and love her and give her lil notes every day. he use to....give notes.

She smiles a lil. but the best part is when he walked her home or they just sit next to eachother and he give her a kiss goodbye. she cried harder. she was never getting any that again. the boy she fell for was gone lost and she wished he never fucking left. she wished he grow up and realize that u cant treat the woman u love like a play thing. she never her heart was fragile but did he? did he know? after all the break ups, didnt he realize one day he finally lose her. probably not. probably didnt think so. too bad. what he expect them to flirt and he win her over.



she crawed and stood up. glass cuttin into her foot.

she looked at the mirror again and wiped it with her hand.



what the fuck did he want with her?? she didnt know and she wanted to find out.

she open the bathroom door and walked out into the mist of steam that the door let excape/

story of an angel
04:56 Sep 20 2008
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I beg you to see me

the blood flowing

black and steady



i bow my head low

do you see these wings?

broken and bleeding

An angel i must been

set high on that pistole

look at me now

i fall from grace



come my child

do you see these cuts?

each ones a reminder

a little nik that reminds me the pain that you caused

the blood flowed that days that you made me cry

nice and silent



lay your hands on my heart

do you feel that beat?

that rhymthmatic tap tap tap

the thump thump thump

no? do you say...

can you answer why?

no you speak softly

why?

you broke it..

that shall tell you why



the tears

the cuts

the broken heart

A fallen angel i must be

the blacken wings that rest upon my back

they be cut off one day



shhh ill tell you silently

as i rip open your throat

i wish so much on you

my devils give you flights of fury

ill send then to you

they will breath their kiss upon you

suffer you shall



i dreamt of you before

years ago before we met

kind of weird i do believe

can you dream of a soul mate

years before



highly doubt you say

i believe you are wrong

so innocent am i

i felt your wrongs

how am i innocent?

look at my wings

i'm destroyed

ill wait for my day

soar above the rest

bring my destruction upon

And lay it all to rest

sing a song
04:55 Sep 20 2008
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Sing a song of sorrow

Of lost midnight dreams

Hear the mockingbird cry

Upon the blood stain streams

Here I am above the rest looking past the mid day hour glass

As time falls through the slit

To tumble though the air into a pool

At the bottom of your life

Past, present, future and the beyond

Watch it fall

A grain of sand

So crystal clear

Perfect, priceless, untouched

And adorn. . .

set me free
04:55 Sep 20 2008
Times Read: 579

Set Me Free

Let Me Be

Who And What I Am

Why Can't You See?

You Never Seem To Understand

This Pain I Feel Is As Real

As Your Ignorance

Question Fate

As I Await Deliverance

Like A Fantastic Fork

In Bloody Meat

Don't Give Me Love

I Wanna Drowned In Your Deep Divide

Tumbleweed Sew The Seed

In This Ghost Town

You Never Know

What You'll See

When The Sun Goes Down

I Saw Her Last

In A Dream

She Seems To Astound

Heard Of Her First Third Verse

(216) Hands Bound

Taken From Me

In My Mind Empty

Without It Inside

Starving I Am

The Deprived

Just Want It Once...desires

Strong Resistance Is Weak

It's Hard To Win

When You've Got So Many Mouths To Feed

I Could Die

For All Of My Sins

No Not For That

For All That I Have Never Had

This Life's A Fight

For Fulfillment Inside

A War Of My Own Hindsight

Look Back With Resentment

Taken As I Find Myself

All Alone

Taken From Me

never
04:55 Sep 20 2008
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NEVER





look and see you can never break me



yet through the looks and the sighs u have.



the wall came crumbling down upon my ruin form



then left me trapt underneath



suffacting and barley breathing



short gasps of air whats new



crawling my way out



i dont fucking want you



i dont want ur shame or pity



thats urs to live with



i dont want your help



i sure as hell dont want u



you caused this pain and expect me to be there for you



NEVER in this life time i will never agian



you left me the day u left



you betrayed me that cold day



the tear fell as i drove away



so you couldnt see and helpless



never again shall i be that way

murder
04:54 Sep 20 2008
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murder

murder



Can you see me now

more clearly then before

have you seen my tears that i cry

that are begging to become more

do you see the scars

do you see the broken pieces

that you left behind



i am just a ghost now

left to be come nothing

you couldn't save me if you tried

each and everyday pasts

it cuts more like a knife

just knowing

what you have done

i hope it tears you up.



you say sorry, but you dont mean it

if you have you be here now

tryin to make it right

you fucked up.

so much

that even you cant see

what you have gotten yourself into



you say u dont love me

but in reality you do

i am the poison in your soul

that breath that you taste

you kiss another girl

i hope it kills you

lil by lil

knowing that what you lost

that you pushed me away



so far away

you took it upon yourself

you have murdered me

took my last taste of life away

hallow

lifeless

dead

you have no clue



you say so many things

are they all your lies again

you want death

but you are the murder, not me

i want you gone

gone from my soul

but there you lay yourself to rest

and to never go.

love last fate
04:54 Sep 20 2008
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With every move I make

With every breath I take

I stand alone

No one here to listen

No one here to guide me

I stand alone

I scream till I’m raw

The pain hits every wall.

The ones I built to keep you out

The ones that stand crumpling before you.



I cry the song of sorrow

The breathless tears no one sees

The ones inside that are deep with in.

My heart beats fast

Faster when you’re around

The tears I spill in my sleep

When you’re never around.

Guide me now

Though the thick and thin.

Be by my side.

I am already translucent now

Ghost, I walk as.

My hunted look though darken blue

Black and still

Pain rips through

Like a torn present.

You won’t know till you sit in my place

Watch though these eyes of mine

See the things I see and hear



The abuse that one girl takes

The heart break of another

Love, pain, and lust of the years.

Grow thin around me

As we all grow and watch

Move along on this yellow brick road

To our final destination

Where and when is that?

Can I find it? . .

Or shall I parish like the ones before me

Before my time

Before my date

Before my eyes

This is the story of loves last fate.

love is like
04:54 Sep 20 2008
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Love is like heaven but it hurts like hell



Love the heart that hurts you, but never hurt the heart that loves you



Never say you dont love a person when you cant let go.



"Do you ever put your arms out and just spin and spin and spin? Well, that's what love is like. Everything inside you tells you to stop before you fall, but you just keep going.



Sometimes i wish i had never met you, because then i could go to sleep at night not knowing there was someone like you out there.



Never say goodbye when you still want to try



Who do you turn to when the only person in the world that can stop from crying, is exactly the one making you cry



If you love something let it go,

If It comes back it's yours,

If it doesn't

It never was

Just do not spend a life time waiting



Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same



Don't say you love me unless it's true because I might do something stupid like believe you



"And there comes a point where you have to decide if hes the one worth waiting for.

love
04:53 Sep 20 2008
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lOVE

Don't say you love me unless it's true because I might do something stupid like believe you



And there comes a point where you have to decide if hes the one worth waiting for.



It Feels Like Forever

It feels so long

day go by and each hour dropping

tears staining my face

salt tasting my lips



its feels forever

you say u see

you cant see

neither can i



you are gone and forever shall

how can it be done

only you know how



the rings slip from my figure

as each tug made them looser

we made the plans we made the promises

when you left you forgot them all

i never did



that haunts me worst then ever

our lifes were connected

till you cut that silver thread

that lead the death

of you and me



days past and the past never forgotten

as each sip i taste it wont go away

my heart beats and when you are mention it still skips

does your?



do you still think about me

are you deep in your own world

not a day past that i never wonder

the ifs, ands and buts



i hate how i feel

i hate you

deep down i dont

i saw a picture

from the past

not like you care

not like you read this



if you came back would you see me

hold me

love me

i doubt that



change has been sent in motion

im leaving

not soon but i will

i shall be gone from this place

just a distance memory.

so you cant find me



its feels forever

you say u see

you cant see

neither can i



come on baby show me something

no more sorrys

i still feel you

if you feel me

i have no clue

come on honey

dont just sit there

you see my name each night

why not click it?



i wont turn you down

the truth i swear

weather you are lying or not i have no clue

2 am the arrow hovers

i know you are on

should i say hello?

i pull back

stop to think

why it matter

the other has set it



its been long. days have gone by

your still in my heart and i have tried

to cut you out. erased you from everything.

so i am not wondering...how you have been

i want to reach out

but i know you'll pull away



not one moment i dont think of u

not one moment i dont want to text

im not part the life u want

so i have stopped

talking and texting

aiming and everything



i dont feel anymore

i cant

i dont want to



i loved you so

you have no ideal

more then possible

i tried to keep you

but you pushed so

so far away

so never again u had to deal

deal with me



i did it all

i fight with myself

i scream at myself

i know its not my fault

i know it is yours

but it still feels like it



goodbye forever

maybe we'll see eachother again

i highly doubt it

i love you still

that shall never change

as i move on to my future

and to forget the past

its hte end
04:53 Sep 20 2008
Times Read: 586

Sweetie you think i need you

trust me ill be fine

i got my own life ahead of me

and i'm doing fine



Now you see me

now you don't

gone all day and night

the sun sets and the moon rising

i can see it.



i sit there on the beach watching the tide come in

washing against me, cleansing me of my sins

the ones i have been creating for a life time

the curve of my wrist twists it all away

when you grab me there



you cant see me now...

how would you know me

through my hollow eyes you cant see me

you thought you could

do you think you can now?



how impossible it must all feel

to be the only one in the world alone

without the guildence you think you need



trust me, you have no ideal

what the world can bring down upon you

its harder then it looks

life that is

everyday wishing to end it all

but not realising anything till you can stand tall

above the rest.



believe me

i fought hard to be where i am

im just a bit wiser then you believe

i may look fragile

i am not

i can see for miles on end

yet i choose the present and future

before my past.



as much as i love to wait

i can not

i believe in fate

there comes a time and place

when things must be let go

if they come back its truely ment too be

i hope one day you come back

but not now, not near



far down in the future when things become clear

i hate you now

yet...some how deep down not yet i dont.

ive finally moved on and happier now

then i have been

its finally gone

Finally happened

i am glad



ill kiss you once more

feel the touch of those soft lips

shed a tear for what was lost and move on

you'll always be in my heart

never doubt that

you can make my walls crumble

i beg you dont do that



things are much more clearier

like fogged glass

its not so much more dark

as it is gray

soon it be white again

then crystal



promise one day you will return

that this is all just nothing

even i highly doubt that.

Kiss goodnight

i bare thy farewell

return to my sight never again

till it is time to be doomed

it fills like forever
04:53 Sep 20 2008
Times Read: 587

It feels so long

day go by and each hour dropping

tears staining my face

salt tasting my lips



its feels forever

you say u see

you cant see

neither can i



you are gone and forever shall

how can it be done

only you know how



the rings slip from my figure

as each tug made them looser

we made the plans we made the promises

when you left you forgot them all

i never did



that haunts me worst then ever

our lifes were connected

till you cut that silver thread

that lead the death

of you and me



days past and the past never forgotten

as each sip i taste it wont go away

my heart beats and when you are mention it still skips

does your?



do you still think about me

are you deep in your own world

not a day past that i never wonder

the ifs, ands and buts



i hate how i feel

i hate you

deep down i dont

i saw a picture

from the past

not like you care

not like you read this



if you came back would you see me

hold me

love me

i doubt that



change has been sent in motion

im leaving

not soon but i will

i shall be gone from this place

just a distance memory.

so you cant find me



its feels forever

you say u see

you cant see

neither can i



come on baby show me something

no more sorrys

i still feel you

if you feel me

i have no clue

come on honey

dont just sit there

you see my name each night

why not click it?



i wont turn you down

the truth i swear

weather you are lying or not i have no clue

2 am the arrow hovers

i know you are on

should i say hello?

i pull back

stop to think

why it matter

the other has set it



its been long. days have gone by

your still in my heart and i have tried

to cut you out. erased you from everything.

so i am not wondering...how you have been

i want to reach out

but i know you'll pull away



not one moment i dont think of u

not one moment i dont want to text

im not part the life u want

so i have stopped

talking and texting

aiming and everything



i dont feel anymore

i cant

i dont want to



i loved you so

you have no ideal

more then possible

i tried to keep you

but you pushed so

so far away

so never again u had to deal

deal with me



i did it all

i fight with myself

i scream at myself

i know its not my fault

i know it is yours

but it still feels like it



goodbye forever

maybe we'll see eachother again

i highly doubt it

i love you still

that shall never change

as i move on to my future

and to forget the past

if u
04:52 Sep 20 2008
Times Read: 588

If you love something let it go,



If It comes back it's yours,



If it doesn't



It Never was



Just do not spend a life time waItIng











Sometimes the hardest thing and the right thing are the same







Every new beginning comes from some other beginnings end







Don't say you love me unless it's true because I might do something stupid like believe you







"And there comes a point where you have to decide if hes the one worth waiting for.







It Feels Like Forever



It feels so long



day go by and each hour dropping



tears staining my face



salt tasting my lips







its feels forever



you say u see



you cant see



neither can i







you are gone and forever shall



how can it be done



only you know how







the rings slip from my figure



as each tug made them looser



we made the plans we made the promises



when you left you forgot them all



i never did







that haunts me worst then ever



our lifes were connected



till you cut that silver thread



that lead the death



of you and me

goodbye
04:52 Sep 20 2008
Times Read: 589




goodbye



Today was her day. she grabs the box and went through her room. she grabbed the letters he wrote her when they were together, tossed each in the box. the prom flower she dried and saved. its a lil flat...but she smiled a little remembering that night. the beautiful white dress she wore, the tux he looked so adorable in. it was a nice nice. A tear slipped down her face then, she wiped it off. she grabbed the glass heart that was sitting next to her bed. then the pictures of them two together. laughing and smiling.



after that she packed away his shirts. knowing she cant wear them again.

Nexted, she slipped off the rings that he gave her.

the promise ring when he promised that she was his girl and he wanted to marry her and be with her forever.

the marriage ring she gotten to exclaim they were together and the love, faith, and hope ring. she never understood.

how he could give her that ring and after barley even a few months he lost it and cheated...no love, no faith no hope.

for their future, for themselves. tears slipped down faster and faster down her face. the memories rushing too fast for

her to stop them. she threw each in the box includin the ring he gave her after their fight one night when she was at work. pretty fake gold and red stone. he said that he loved her and that he wanted to give it too her. that even if he hated their fightes he loved her no matter what and as the night progressed he stayed by her side as she slept just holding her.



the worst thing she hates is that she never can erase those memories from her mind.

each memory she will always end up crying. the tears will always slip down one way or another.



the sad thing is even if she acted like she was never waiting for him...she knew she always will wait.

no matter what. she cant help it...he gave up and she did too. but she may not be round anymore, but deep down she will always end up being his.



she knew it was sad and pathetic, she doesnt want it. she wishes it so that she can forget...

but she knew it will never happen but she shall try....



she tied the box with a pink, red and white ribbon and hid it.

she will never look at it again and if her kids ever found it. she tell them the story of her and him and how they were perfect and he broke her and how even though she has their father, she never stopped loving him.



that when u love someone so much...they can never leave your heart.

darling honey
04:51 Sep 20 2008
Times Read: 590

oh darling oh honey

where are you now

i look upon the past

i see nothing now



close my eyes

let the tears fall

slipping silently each night

they crawl



lick my lips

i want to speak the words

i love you still

yet....

your never there



why cant you see

sometime what i mean

isn't true

yet i'm moving on

without you by my side



true love suppose to wait

how can i wait

why should i wait

for you?

you never shown me a reason

i just need one

the answer to the question

why?



that you cant answer me

why not

i can spill so much

the truth flows from my lips

like a water fall

when i talk to you

like it always have



my ruby reds tell you my secrets

spill to you my fears

that you use against me

at every turn



do you know how much your lies hurt

why cant you see that

i tend to believe your foolishness

yet, you cant show me the truth

why is that



darling, honey

why is it you lie

why is it you do this

to me?

is it the joy?

is it funny?

does she get a kick reading what you write

what i write

does she even know



dirty little secret...

was our best kept secret

i wish i take back the past

said yes and scream it to the world

like i did that warm April day

when i said yes to you on the battlefield



the showers fill the pool of these blue

you shall never see them spill

i wont give you the privilege of it

yet i want to so much

i'll cut you out

even though i know you will break in

again and again

but one day

one day i will

i be able to scream

what i want

without feeling a thing

i shake my head

even i doubt that