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your words, their fake. i can feel them brake. you cant stand by them, not one bit..

you, you feel it too, except you feel them deceiving you..

your own lies are turning against you, bringing you the realization...

we both know its hopeless. you cant say its not...

nothing is never going to change. its all just going to be the same...

the way you handle problems. the way you always try to find the easy way out..

i was hoping it would get better. way before the lights flickered...

and the men in scrubs took you away from me...

but not before i saw your face...

i remember every time you smiled. it was like a child smiled...

every time you laugh, it was oh so contagious...

every time you had that smirk on your face. you had something smart to say...

and every time you looked down then back up at me...

where your eyes are teary, but not sad. and as one single angel kissed tear goes down your soft face...

"i love you"...

that is what i remember when i saw your face...

laying their in the unforgiving grass, staring back at me, those unfulfilled eyes, who now have nothing to say..

the men in scrubs looked at your hands. as i did as well...

its amazing how they don't see what i see..

they see cuts and bruises, cut open knuckles and finger nails...

for me its different...i see them catching water when it rains. clapped together when they pray. sliding down the stair rail as you gracefully came down, because you love how they do it in the movies...and them playing the piano, my two loves playing together...

i remember how soft they are..as they are against my face... to comfort me...

the men in scrubs picked up your motionless body...the body that still lingers the presents of the one that took you away from me...took you away....

your body was beautiful...every aspect of it...i loved how you smiled down at me when your in the tree...you were always in it when i came over..or at the top of the stairs...you always loved big entrance..you always said that princesses needed them so all the attention goes on her..and every one can see how beautiful she is...well i agree..but you never needed it for me to know how beautiful you are...i always loved how you say my name and give me a big hug when i surprise you by just showing up and saying something to draw your attention...you would run over anything just to get to me...i always felt sorry for your poodle..as many times you step on it..he never did learn to get out of the way...we even stepped on it when we ran inside that night because we thought someone was following us...

but now your body is on a stretcher with a white cloth over it. with your feet showing...

i can see the cuts on the bottom of them...digging into the earth..you were running for your life...but not anymore...you can rest now...rest your worries... i realize now you only lied because you couldn't believe the truth..you couldn't handle it...you only found the easy way out because i wasn't there to back you up...i was the one that was fighting you...i was the one that caused you to leave..caused you to want the easy way out...it was all my fault...for we were fighting over me...you loved me..no doubt about it...and you let me know you did...so please..rest your worries...I'm OK now...and i have something for you......knock knock.....who's their.. i will be there soon....i will be knocking on heavens door soon...and i hope they have stairs...a princess needs a big entrance..remember.