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Life they say in it self is what you make it. If this is the case why is it we get these unrational screwed up day with our heads. some more than other when we are aware enough that the though are stupid but our bodys take over to the point that we can not do any think about it.



Whith the same brain though the things that should scare or at least make us think twice to doing we can jump straight into with pleasure and excitment. Is it j ust we are born this way were other arnt? or is it other hide or are so ashamed of that part of them it so well hidden that we never see it so we are the ones that feel we not quite right, but i know for me i like the not being quite right as i dont want to be following the pack but it is nice to know that some of the though i get are not so abnormal as it can be lonely having these though not having someto say yea i think like that too and be able to have great discution about them of how some of it excites you and the every day stuff can be scary.

Well it my birthday and it was surprising nice i did expect much as things havent been the best heath wise in our house but i do have to say i enjoyed it i was with the ppl i love and care for and thats all i really can ask for.



Thank you for letting me have a good day !!

today i am feeling brain dead, my mind is not in this plant. I would like to know were it went as i find it very helpful even if my thoughts are strange. I know there must be thing i should be doing but dont know what to do... and even when i get the.............. it gone again i hope it will come bk soon and tell me what it been up to you never know i might have thing to write then which isnt complete utter nonsense.

theres a unusually quiteness to the world today. IT meant to be Saint Patrick's Day Were the laughter were the joy i not hear it. Years ago you know the streets would be full of joy but know we dont celebrate thing like we did. Weather it be bad or good depending on how you look at life, should we not embrace each moment to it fullest the joys the sorrow the celebrations. even in death there should be celebration not regrate. for the life that was and may still be as we all live for ever in a way.

why is it my dreams so vivid that would scare the most intrigue and fascinate me. i dream of death and horror of the world. The so called fiction why cant it be true we exciste why cant other things excite too. we are too naive if we believe diffrent i am sure there are real vampire wether there immortal another thing. i know i suffer when it come to day light toobright gives me terrible migranes and i have always been a night owl and sleep the day away easiley but night i am a awake and enjoy the coolness i know i not alone in the world with that but as "humans" that not the way we ment to be or is it ?

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BLOODLIFE
11:56 Mar 17 2009

Your words make for an interesting read.

Happy St. Pats day!

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They removed my toniclis on wendnesday. yet all the time i was in hospital i could not sleep. once home the first day all i could do and as i was told the pain has increased as the days have gone on . i kinda wish for them to bleed i know this not a good thing but for the relief i imagaine if they bleed it will remove the soreness and heal bettter. am i strange...(of course i am ) to have such thoughts .